I was ninety-nine point nine percent sure that you were Kira.
As well as one-hundred percent sure… that you were the first… and only one that I called "friend."
But those are just numbers.
Numbers…were my life. Numbers were what led me to you in the first place. To begin with. It was only logical to start in the most densely populated region.
Logical.
It was logical.
Our friendship…
Was that logical?
Your logic, the way your mind worked, was something that even I could not understand. Although I suppose that none of that matters, now that I am…
Six feet under.
We could have been…
No. There are a number of things we could have been.
I only expected…I wanted…
More.
…I once told you that I wanted you to be Kira.
I lied.
I can think of a multitude of lies I told you.
And…the ones you told me.
You frustrated me. You annoyed me. You cheated me. You made me so…angry…
And almost happy.
Almost.
I almost had you.
But not in the way I wanted.
I managed to come close enough, just close enough to touch, and yet you still managed to slip away at the last second; and I was left holding nothing.
You challenged me.
I accepted.
I lost.
I almost had you.
The logic was there.
The numbers made sense…to me.
You are Kira.
I was L.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever regret your decisions.
Like I do.
I wonder, against my better judgment, if maybe…just maybe, you… Regret? Think? Wonder? Remember? Want?
…Care?
Like I do.
Like I did.
Like you were supposed to.
If all goes according to plan, you will die. Yes, you will die, but I will not be proud. Not if the result is your death.
I will take the liberty of saying my farewells now. Please, believe me when I say you will be missed. Please believe me.
Because even if you die, we will not meet again. I read the rules. We both did. We set up the playing field, and we picked our players.
I have already lost, but you have not won. The cat has got the game, so to speak.
Only…you do not realize this yet.
You have been killing spiders to save butterflies. And you thought by doing so you could become a deity.
You have become something else entirely.
…
I was ninety-nine point nine percent sure that you were Kira.
As well as one-hundred percent sure… that you were the first… and only one that I called "friend."
But those are just numbers.
Numbers…
And I guess they just didn't add up.
A/N: Well, this was really just a little ficlet that was brought about by boredom and no internet connection. I apologize for the short-ness. My attention span isn't what it used to be. Can you blame me? I am 243.
Anyway, funny story-- I had my iPod on shuffle while writing this. The second I put pen to paper, the song "Death Note Theme" (.com/watch?v=uJxTTJaZJpU&feature=related) [link] (Not the opening theme, there's actually a song called "Death Note Theme"] came on. I think Kami-sama had something to do with it, LAWL.