It's been four years since the Prom and since Ashley broke my heart. I never really thought that she would indeed pick Aiden over me. I mean I guess in the back of my head there was always that voice that told me something wasn't right but it was never loud enough to make me listen till it was too late, till I had finally got what was coming to me…heartache.
I'm at the pier now thinking, cause it was on this very day four years ago that everything went wrong. I go to the pier to think because it the most relaxing place I could ever go. Just the sound of the ocean calms me, hearing the waves crash along the shore it the best sound I could ever hear. It's been four years since I have seen Ashley or anyone for that matter, in a way I'm happy but in another way I'm sad. I'm happy because well if I did ever see them I'm more likely to go on a killing rampage just so they could feel what I have been feeling for all these year….but then again I'm not that crazy so maybe I wouldn't, but that doesn't mean I have thought about what I would do if I ever did run into any of them. To tell you the truth I really don't know what I would do. I would be pissed cause of what they did, but I can't really blame all of them I mean it's really only Ashley and Aiden I can be mad at. No one else really had anything to do with it. But still just the thought of everyone brings back memories that I have tried so hard to forget, I mean even looking at my family gives me heartache.
It's funny cause even though she hurt me so bad I can't help but still love her. Even though she caused me, Hell is still causing me a world of pain. I mean I would love for her just to take everything away all the pain and misery everything cause I know that she is really the only one that can.
I am here at the pier cause every year since it happened I come here and stay all day because if I wasn't here everything would be to chaotic for me to handle. This day never gets easier it just seems to get harder with every passing year. I still don't know what happened to everybody because once she chose. I was gone, I ran cause I could not stand to see her face. I never even said goodbye because it was like saying goodbye to our love…as cheesy as that sounds its true. I just ran, I switched schools got a different phone with a different phone number and I was completely gone no one knew where I was except for my family. My family knew I didn't want to see her and even if I did at the time they wouldn't have let me cause they knew that I was the saddest I have ever been, and they knew that if I ever saw her that I might never recover. Well it's like I said it's been four years and even though my family is pretty sure I'm over it...I'm not…I don't think I ever will be.
Well now that I have told you what has happened in the past how about I tell you what is happening now. I'm in college, I go to USC. I love it here, I'm in my last semester of Drama Theater. I want to become an actress. I figure that since I've done such a great job of fooling everyone all these years that I've been happy why not make it a career…right? Right! I do live on campus and I have made a lot of new friends, and a very special friend, of whose name is Jensen. She was the first friend I made here and the first person I can see myself with since Ashley. Jensen has kind of short hair that is a light brown with blonde highlights. She's a little taller than me I would say 5'5 or 5'6. She's studying Astronomy…I know what your thinking I'm studying Dramatic theater and she's studying Astronomy how in the hell did you to meet? Well we met in our Ged. Ed classes to be more exact in English, our teacher at the time was really big on doing partner things and we were assigned one another. And that's when we first met.
Were going to stay on the topic of her for a min. longer. She is possibly the sweetest girl anyone could meet. She plays soccer, which is a good thing cause that means that she is in great shape. She's really smart too, and totally fun to be around. She keeps my mind off of Ashley when were together. Which is kind of a relief. I really like her, and I really do need to move on cause I haven't dated anyone since Ashley. Me and Jensen have been getting closer and I know she likes me cause she told me so and I told her that I liked her too, But we don't really do anything with each other I mean the most we have done is kiss and it was only one kiss. I know she wants to take it slow cause she just got out of a bad relationship too so it would be best to take it slow but I don't have all the time in the world you know?
By now Spencer has spent all day at the pier and is now back at her dorm, which she just so recently got switched and is now closer to Jensen.
J: Whoa!
S: oh my God Jensen! Are you ok? I wasn't paying any attention going around the corner. I'm so sorry.
J: jeez Spencer tryin' to kill me.
S: Haha real funny, but are you ok?
J: Yes I'm fine no harm done, I was actually looking for you I haven't seen you all day I really wanted to ask you some thing kind of important if you have time.
S: (OMG! Is she finally going to ask me out? No she's not ready yet.) Yeah I have time, but is something wrong?
J: No nothing is wrong, you really need to calm down you seem kinda jumpy. (She said with a grin)
S: yeah I know it's just been one of those days you know. (She says smiling back)
J: well I was wondering if…maybe sometime….if you wanted I mean…to go get dinner…with me…? (She said trailing off looking at the ground)
S: (OMG! She is asking me out, she is so cute when she is nervous) Are you asking me out on a date Jensen? (Smiling mischievously)
J: well only if you want it to be I mean we could just go as friends if you feel uncom.
Spencer cut her off with a small kiss on the lips which she gladly excepted.
J: WOW….is that a yes! (She said getting very excited)
S: Yes that would be a Yes! (Just smiling at her)
Jensen pulled her in for a hug and another kiss that Spencer so gladly excepted. So later that night Spencer get's ready for her much anticipated night out with her soon to be girlfriend…or so she think's.
They walk into a restaurant that to Spencer's surprise is very classy. She never thought of Jensen to be a classy restaurants kind of girl, but she didn't think to much about it. They walked up to the podium where they were greeted by the last person that Spencer expected to see…Kyla. Kyla wasn't paying that close attention to her at first but then she realized who she was staring at. And out of nowhere she ran around the podium and took Spencer in a vise like hug, that Spencer was not ready for.
K: Oh My God! I can't believe it's you. (runs around and tackles her)
S: Oh geez! Hi Kyla, I didn't know you worked here. (if I did I wouldn't have came, I guess it's to late for that)
K: Oh. I'm sorry it's just that it's been forever since anyone has heard from you let alone seen you I just got excited. (Releasing her vise like grip from around Spencer)
S: No it's ok, yeah it has been along time…(she trails off) umm this is Jensen. (she turn to introduce one another)
K: It's nice to meet you Jensen (she says while sticking out her hand)
J: it's nice to meet you too.(she says while shaking Kyla's hand)
S: So...yeah….um not that I don't enjoy this reunion but can we get a booth, please? (saying this with a smile)
K: Oh yeah! Sorry I'm just excited that's all. (she says while sitting them at their table)
S: It's ok…(smiling nervously)
And with that Kyla left to continue her job. The waiter came and took Spencer and Jensen's order, and when the were done they were getting ready to leave, but Kyla once again stopped Spencer.
K: Spencer I Know your busy right now but at some point this week do you think we can get together and talk, please.
S: Kyla, I don't know if that's such a good idea, I mean I just don't know.
K: Please Spencer we really need to talk about something. (she says pleading)
S: (looking at the ground thinking then looking back a Kyla) Ok…how about Thursday?
K: Thursday would be perfect. Thank you! It was great seeing you Spencer and it was very nice meeting you Jensen.
S: It was nice seeing you too Kyla, see you Thursday.
J: It was great meeting you too Kyla.
And with that they went their separate ways. Kyla went back to her house were she was greeted by none other that Ashley. Ashley and Aiden Broke up a couple months after the shooting at prom. It ended Up that Aiden cheated on her with none other than….wait for it…MADISON! Ashley couldn't believe that she actually believed him, she lost the one true person that did actually love her, Spencer, cause she was blinded by his charm, she could not believe she was so stupid, to pick the wrong person, she knew she wanted Spencer, she just couldn't bring herself to pick her. And by the time she had picked she had known that she had made the worst mistake of her life, but she couldn't do anything to take it back because she couldn't find Spencer, she knew her family knew where she was and she knew that they where never going to tell her where she was. But that didn't stop Ashley she was always secretly keeping an eye out for her so she could win her back. She knew it wasn't going to be easy but she was going to do anything to get her back, if it was the last thing she did, she would get her back because she sill loved her with all her heart and everyday she kicks her self in the ass for being so stupid and picking the wrong person.
A: Hey how was work?
K: It was unreal to say the least. A: Why do you say that did something happen to you!
K: No calm down I'm fine. But you aren't going to believe who I saw….(I wonder if I should tell her or not I know she's still looking for her whether she admits it or not I know she is)
A: Who did you see…tell me. (demanding who she saw)
K: Well I don't know if I should tell you or not…nope forget I said anything.
A: Oh Hell On! Your telling me! (jumping on Kyla and Pinning her to the ground)
K: Ashley! Get off me now!
A: No not till you tell me!
K: Fine I saw (I'm just going to lie to her I don't think Spencer wants her to know) I saw Gwen Stafani…yep I saw Gwen Stafani, she looks prettier in person….( I hope she bought that)
A: oh…I thought…Never mind (I thought for sure she was going to say some one else)
K: (yes I think she bought it) umm hey remember how we made plans Thursday to hang out?
A: Yeah…Why do you ask?
K: well umm….can I get a rain check on that cause something came up and we really need to reschedule. Please?
A: Ok, I can find something to do, can we do it Friday?
K: Yeah, Friday sounds perfect. (I'm glad she didn't ask what I'm doing )
A: Hey if you don't mind me asking not like I really care or anything but what are you doing that so important than you had to get a rain check with me of all people(she said sarcastically)
K: (damn, I spoke to soon) Umm…well…I'm going to meet a friend, if you must know.
A: What friend, you don't have any friends? (she said while laughing)
K: I DO TOO HAVE FRIENDS! Damn your mean!
A: Hey I'm only kidding
K: Ugh, well if your so dieing to know it's a friend I haven't seen in a long time…
A: Who what's his name?
K: Well HER name is Spen… Jensen…yeah Jensen…(oh god I'm so busted)
A: And where did you meet this said "Jensen" person?
K: Must you know everything!?
And with that she stormed off hoping that Ashley would not come after her. And Ashley didn't she just figured that Kyla was cranky cause she just got off work so she just left her alone.
So were going to skip to Thursday and the diner the Spencer and Kyla Agreed to meet at.
K: So I'm really happy you decided to come and see me it's been a long time since every thing.
S: Yeah I has, your right. How's everyone doing I haven't talked to anyone since…(she trailed off)
K: Well I couldn't really answer that question I haven't really talked to anyone either, it's just to hard to do I guess.
S: Yeah I know what you mean. So you haven't talked to anyone, really?
K: Well yeah except for Ashl…(she trailed off not waning to finish the sentence)
S: (looking like she's going to cry but not going to she say's) It's ok how is she? (not really wanting to know the answer to that question but asking anyways)
K: She's….fine? I guess it's just that….ok…do you want the truth?
S: Well I have grown accustom to lies, I still do like the truth.
K: Ok (she sighs) she says she's fine, she play's it off like she's happy but I know her well enough to know it all just an act. She doesn't think I know but she falls asleep crying every night. It scares my sometime because she just won't let everything out she just keeps them bottled up inside, and I just think that one day she's just going to do something stupid. I don't' know any more she just has been the same since everything.
S: (near tears because of what she is hearing, as much as she doesn't want to she still does care) .
K: I know you don't know what to say cause there really is nothing you can say.
S: well Yeah your right. To hear all of this is kind of over whelming. I big part of me is happy she is in pain just so she knows what I had go through, what I still go through, but the rest of me is really sad cause well…
K: cause you still love her?
S: ( taken back by what Kyla said) well…No, I don't love her.. (I'm so lying right now its written all over my face) I mean yes I do, but she sent me through a world of pain and I don't thank I can ever forgive her for that I let her in and she said she would never hurt me! She lied to me Kyla, SHE lied, she became the one thing she hates most in this world, a LIAR! I don't know what to do...(there was a quiet moment between then to calm the nevers, then Spencer spoke again)
S:(in a quiet whisper) but yes i still do love her.(now crying cause of eveything she just said)
K: yeah I know, shhhh calm down you need to calm down everything will work it's self out I promise, but the reason I asked you here, and I know that this is probably the most stupid request of all time but if you do it, I would but in debt to you for the rest of my life but I was hoping if you would come to the house and see Ashley…? (holding Spencer now and trying to calm her)
S: (calming down now) Are you serious? I can't believe you. I can't believe you seriously just asked me that question. After everything I just told you. (sighing, and taking a breather) You know, I want to see Ashley I really do but a bigger part of me doesn't want to see Ashley ever again it will hurt way to much I think, I mean it's been 4 years yeah but that doesn't mean it hurts any less. And I'm kind of happy now you know, I have new friends and I have Jensen, she make me kind of happy I mean I haven't been happy for along time and then she came and well I feel better…I don't know…this is all just to much to take in for one day. (now sarting to get a headach)
K: I know. But I just think that if you two saw each other then maybe, just maybe it will help with the healing process. I'm not asking you to live with each other, but just go see her, I mean if you do it could go one of two ways the first being that she will be happy and try her hardest to get you back, which I know that's what you both want deep down inside whether you want to admit it or not you know I'm right, or she could be over whelmed and not talk to you at all. All I'm saying is please just this one time come home with me and see her so I don't have to listen to her crying, I mean its really depressing.
S: NO. I mean I have Jensen now and I'm happy. I really like her and she likes me. I just I don't know let me talk to her, I need to make sure that its alright with her. (now getting up to leave) I was really nice seeing you again Kyla it really was. I guess I'll call you once I have an answer.
K: Ok it was nice seeing you too, and I'm looking forward to that phone call I'm not going to forget. (she says smiling at the blonde)
And with that they leave. Both thinking about what happened in there and if what they talked about it really is going to happen. On the way back to her dorm Spencer is thinking over everything Kyla told her. Spencer wants to go but she doesn't, she is confused once again with her feeling towards Ashley. Spencer arrives at her dorm only to be greeted by her special friend Jensen.
J: Hey doll face. (she says with an award winning smile) S: Hi sweetie. (giving her a hug and a kiss on the cheek)
J: I missed you today where were you? S: I was with Kyla, you know the girl that jumped on me a dinner the other night?
J: oh yeah! Sorry I forgot, so what did you guys do? (asking with hint of jealousy in her voice)
S: (noticing the Jealously Spencer says) why Jensen are you Jealous? (smiling a her)
J: well kind of she got to spend time with you when I didn't (she says with a pouty face )
Now I think is the best time you should review my story it would really mean a lot and don't go to hard it my very first one and I been writing it for a litle while now so please tell me what you think! please and depending on how many I post more.