cold, why is it so cold? Sara couldn't bear it any longer, the cold, the dark, the fear, the pain, the hurt, the anguish. Why won't it go away? I can't do it any longer, it hurts so much. I want it to go away, make it go away Gil, please Gil save me. The problem was no one could save her, no one except her. She wasn't strong enough, she didn't believe it could go away, such pain and fear, please someone save me, anyone...please
~x~
Sara woke up, damp and cold,
sheets sticking to her skin. It was ok, it was all ok, please tell
me it's true, Gil tell me it's true, I love you Gil, I love you more
then anything, you are my life Gil. Hold me, hold me close and tell
me its ok.
'It's ok Sara, its not real.'
'But it is, I can
feel him Gil, I can feel him inside of me and it hurts so
much.'
'It's ok, I'm here now, nothing can hurt you.'
'He hurt
me, he hurt me bad, made me feel dirty.'
'You're not dirty Sara,
you're ok, its going to be ok now.'
'Help me Gil, save me from
myself, save me from him.'
'I will save you Sara, I
promise.'
~x~
It happened again,the fear, overwhelming burned through her, the pain overshadowing her emotions. 'Oh God someone please save me' Sara woke up crying and shaking. She closed her eyes and tried to make it go away, but she couldn't, she never could. It just wasn't fair why her? Why this? She rolled over and reached across the bed for her phone, her lifeline, pressing in the numbers she knew so well, she waited for a answer at the other end. 'Hello?..Sara is that you?' Crying, more crying, emotions pouring out, pain. 'Sara. Tell me, tell me what's wrong'. More crying and shaking, she wanted to stop, she really did but she couldn't. 'Sara stay there, I'm coming over'. Click the phone went dead.
~x~
A knock at the door. It opened, shock and
fear. Sara sat on the bed, rocking, tears running down her face. He
walked forward, sat on the bed, looked her in the eyes. Took her
hand. 'What happened Sara?' Silence long and awkward. 'Please Sara I
want to help you' Deep breath, 'He..he hurt me' She looked away.
'Please Gil make it stop, I can't bear it any longer. All I see is
his face and...and pain, lots of pain'. Crying, both of them. 'Sara,
I'm sorry' He hugged her, held her gently.
'I..I can't do this
anymore, I'm not strong enough for this'
'Yes Sara, you can, you
can't let him win'. She pulled away and looked him in the eyes.
'You
sure?' It was quiet. He squeezed her hand.
'Yes Sara, I'm
sure'
~x~
