So here is my new fanfic for the loki fandom. I just couldn't help but rewrite an old story and make it great again. I hope you enjoy it like I did thank you!
I always have this dream of me running through this thick forest. I'm always breathing hard and feeling as if my lungs could burst. It feels like with each step my moment becomes heavier and heavier with each step. I can remember hearing this sound of twigs snapping and branches of the trees falling to the floor. I remember looking around the forest it was completely dark out and the huge trees covered the night sky from my gaze but yet as I ran I always seem to go to this same place.
I would trip over a brown root that jolted out of the ground like a hand sticking out towards me. I always knew where it was and I always knew I would fall but yet my foot always caught. My arms flew forward in front of me trying to catch myself as I hit the ground hard. My gaze felt like it doubled over as I lay there on my stomach trying to catch my breathe.
"Why?"My lips would move by themselves as i spoke which always mind blogged me. I had not thought of it as I continued to talk. I rolled over to my side balancing on my elbows as I starred up. "Why do you want this child dead?" I asked bitterly gasping slightly as I cringed at the smell that swept by. My gaze solely always focused on the trees before me. The way their trunks twisted together seemed as if they were bodies of humans. I brought a hand up to my mouth as the stench came closer and closer around me. I couldn't help but feel as if I wanted to stand up and run but yet as I moved my legs about a small icy pain jolted upwards from my ankle.
I winced slightly at the pain and couldn't help but think if this was a dream why did I have pain ? In dreams you never feel pain at all. A figure walked out the twisted bark our from the darkness. My chest fluttered in a panic at the figure before me. She was a tall lanky looking humanoid who had straight black hair that framed her sickly pale face. Her eyes had a slight color to them but it seemed they had since gone away leaving a dull green she used such eyes to bore into me. She walked towards me her legs like a long twigs that seemed they would break with any other sudden moment.
I held tightly to my nose as her stench reached me even more. It smelled like rotten flesh that probably should have been thrown out a long time ago from the fridge. I watched as the thing reached me a mere inches away from me. I could feel this feeling building up within me to just throw up but I held it in with swallow. "How dare you ask that question to us?" Her voice like always sent shivers down my back as I sat before this thing. The women got on one before me her hands out stretched ready to claw at me . Her lips cracking a smile as green ooze came from her lips dripping down onto the floor before me. I watched as the ground melted where ever the green ooze touched. I brought my gaze up to the beast feeling my chest puff out and a small smirk cross my face .I spoke without thinking my lips moving without me doing it. "You will never be a god of grace you beast!" I yelled out nearly spitting in her face.
The women seemed to have been taken back by the words I yelled out because she seemed to have turned her smile upside down within seconds. She let out a throaty growl bringing her hand down on me. I rolled to the side feeling my ankle pop in a bad way as I stopped mere inches from a tree trunk. "This little bitch I swear when the true lover of Loki comes out I will tell her of your sour words!" She yelled out making my body vibrate. I sat up slowly not putting weight into my leg. i wanted to laugh as I watched her anger tip over in mere seconds. "The real lover of Loki? Please I'm-" A solid push from the back had me go face forward into the dirt floor. I could feel twigs and tiny rocks scratch at my face as I slide forward. "Keep talking whore of my father. " came a deep throaty growl.
I lifted myself up with my arms slowly feeling the fresh air hitting my cuts making me flinch. But as I sat up I felt a huge paw push me back down onto the floor. ".F-Fenrir ."I asked with slight surprise in my voice. They had let out another brother? The women started to cackle out with laughter. "Yes Fenrir I used your mother blood to get him out. Oh you should have seen her face." She exclaimed. I felt my heart burst open with feelings of grief and sorrow. "Damn you heathens !" I screamed. My hands squeezed tightly into fists grabbing the dirt from the floor. Why was I feeling this anger within my chest? I didn't understand I always wanted out of the dream every single time this dream starts I want out. But it always plays over and over again.
"Your true horrorssss will come to you when you leassst expect child!" I felt something brush against my legs as I lay on my stomach. It slowly started to almost slither upwards on my body I could feel the pressure of it. I always felt the pressure but this time it felt as if-As if they knew I wasn't this women. A pause in its movement before I felt something tickle my left ear. I turned my head towards the offending feeling as noticed a green scale lay near my head. Another tickle to my ear made me look through the corner of my eye. A serpent lay near me its head bobbing back and forth as it seemed to measure me. I ts tongue peeking out and then back into its mouth. It was the color of a murky green with dried patches of mud all over.
"Remember my wordsss Child for it will be the lassst!" I watched in horror as it opened its mouth wide open. It looked like it unhinged his jaws before coming down on my face.
My screams echoed inside my room my throat feeling raw as I let my roar of fear out. I sat up from my bed and looked around my small room my eyes felt as if they would rip apart as wide as they were as I starred at everything in the room. My mouth was slightly opened as I sat there trying to figure out where I was. The walls were decorated with wallpapers that had dogs with guns shooting at cats. I know it was pretty random but I had gotten that from the reading book fair. My heart started to slow down from it thundering against my chest to slowly quivering. The room was starting to slowly make sense to me now. The dark blue wallpaper seemed to calm me more as I sat there. I heard foot steps slamming hard onto the floor making their way towards my bedroom. "Dakota!" A voice boomed out. I turned my gaze towards my door and watched as it swung open with a loud smack as it hit the wall behind it. I flinched at the sound it made in making contact with the wall if anything I would have to fix that if it made a hole. My mother walked through the door way with her knees bent and a simple black umbrella in her hands as she walked inside. She was nearly like a model on a photo set as she seemed to be posing photo ready. Her blonde hair was flowing about like it was brushed and pampered ready for photos.
Her blue eyes were naturally bright and wide with what would have been helped with make up but yet that was natural. Her long arms and legs were so graceful it was no wonder why she seemed so photo ready. I watched as my mother walked more into my room her eyes shifting back and forth eyeing anything that was hidden within the shadows. "Dakota, sweety are you fine?"She asked her voice sounding like silk. I blinked slightly before responding to her question. "Mom I just had a bad dream again." I swallowed thickly before I looked down to my hands feeling my face heat up. Why was I so embarrassed in telling my own mother about my dreams? I felt like I was a little kid again crying about these dreams. "Mom." I spoke clearing my throat before I looked up to her. My mother had her backed turned as she poked with the tip of her umbrella into the closet. She always seemed really guarded when it came to me ever being in danger. I watched as she flinched before slowly picking the tip of the umbrella up showing my green underwear's hanging. I nearly wanted to scream out in shock. "Mo-Mom Please stop looking around my room!" I yelled out in utter shock stuttering. My mother turned around slowly to me with a simple glint in her eyes as she smiled.
"Well Dakota someone needs to clean up her room before she leaves for school today." She stated as she stood up straight grabbing the green underwear's from the tip of the umbrella laughing slightly as I groaned out. I felt my face really burn up as she twirled my underwear about on her finger. I felt like I had to smack my hand onto my face as she stood there. "So the dreams are happening again?" Asked my mother. I was so thrown off by the question I nearly lost my grip on reality and saw the creatures infront of me because I was focused on what just happened. I think I may have made a face because then my mother had walked towards me umbrella still in her hands. My mother sat on the edge of the bed placing the underwear softly on it. Her blue eyes were settled on me as I sat there. I looked away towards the wall besides me as I tried to think about what to say to my mother. It just wasn't that I didn't want to say anything to her or express myself. It was just I was already 16 and I still seemed to want to cling to my mother whenever I got the chance. I felt warmth engulf of my hands settling down on my lap. "Dakota you know its okay for you to tell me about your dreams. Sweety?" She asked me. I felt her hands tighten around mine slightly before I felt her let go with one of her hands and touch my face.
"Mom I just I want to be grown up not a little kid anymore I-" She slowly got me to look at her making me pause in my sentence as her blue eyes made me go silent. She always had that way over me ever since I could remember. Her gaze would make me go calm and silent making me think thoroughly think before responding. I brought a hand up to hers and touched her. "Mom I just don't know how to control those dreams maybe I should go back on those medications that the other doctor gave me." I told her. I watched as she frowned slightly and shook her head back and forth slowly. Her blonde hair gliding so beautifully along side her shoulders. She smiled as she stroked my cheek. "No way am I putting you back onto those pills. They made you so different I wished I hadn't ever taken you there in the first place." I watched her blue gaze opened into an emotion of slight grief. My mother pulled her hand away from my face and settled her hand back to my other hand on my lap. She smiled up at me with her eyes slightly closed. "Dakota don't ever be afraid to tell me anything thats why I'm here." She stated. I nodded my head as I went back into my shell bring my walls back up. "Yes mom I promise." I told her before I pulled my hands away from hers slowly.
"Don't you have to get ready for work?"I asked her. My mother snapped out of her daze of smiling and went in total shock. She nearly jumped off my bed making me slightly roll to the side as she did so. "Oh my gosh your right! Have a great day today, sweety!" She told me before she turned her blonde hair swinging as she turned. I started to pull back my sheets before my mother stopped at the door way turning towards me. I raised a brow in question not sure in what to say as she slowly brought her blue eyes to me. "Dakota I don't want you around that Kenny kid alright. I heard from the lady down the street hes been caught up in some mess."She warned slightly her voice wasn't nearly as good at sending warnings. She was better at comforting then that. I nodded my head to her response before she smiled one more time and disappeared out my room closing the door behind her.
Kenny? I thought with a slight flutter of my heart at his name. Kenny was a friend of mine from way back when I had first moved here when I was in the 6th grade. But back then he was a lot more collective about his thoughts then how he was now. Now he hung out with his older brother who had skipped out in college and came back home to the displeasure of his parents. And had soon got Kenny underneath his talons of evil made which he made him do different "odd jobs". I sighed before I got out of my bed feeling the floor boards creak as I stood up from my bed. The cold floor making me flinch and yearning to head back into my warm blanket. My little nest. I wrapped my skinny arms around myself as I walked about in my room trying to find anything worth the wear. My mom was right I needed to clean up my room if anything it was like a tornado happened to just climb in and mess everything up.
I bent down and reached out a hand to grab a black t-shirt with the picture of a cat smiling upwards. The captions reading "How fluffy are we? Very fluffy!" I grimaced slightly at the chosen caption before I placed it back down on the floor from where it came. I stood back up slightly feeling my teeth shattering away with each step I took. I was so cold for some reason as i looked about the room. I then saw another black shirt laying on the floor and went to grab it. The shirt felt very soft in between my fingers as I grabbed it from the floor. It was a solid black shirt with almost white like tiny fabrics decorated on it. I picked it up and brought it close to my nose and took a quick sniff. "At last a clean shirt." I mumbled before I started to get dressed for the day.
After a couple of minutes I was pushing my foot inside a shoe of mine and thinking about how "great" it was to go to school and meeting everyone. It had been a long vacation time away from everyone. My mother had said we needed to head out for just a couple of weeks since she said she needed fresher air. We had ended up staying inside a cabin that was located far off from salvation it seemed but none the less I was happy to be away from people and be alone with my mother. I pulled the last shoe on my other foot and stood up. All I needed now was to brush my hair and then head downstairs for a breakfast. I walked towards the restroom door that was still located inside my room. It was a white door with small black smudges from the time I had gone through my "emo" days.
I wanted to laugh at the memories of how I felt sad and mad at the world for being born. I grabbed the knob and pushed it open with a slight push and walked inside. I turned on the light with a flick of my finger and sighed as I starred at the image before me. I had my mothers hair or what I thought was her hair. It was sorta like a dying blonde mixed in with black streaks. My skin was extremely pale considering that I always stayed outside with a cup of tea and silence watching nature move about.I leaned forward bringing my hand up to my face as I probed and stroked my cheeks and chin. My eyes were what got people talking most of the time. It was the first thing anyone said to me. They always seemed to complaint my green rare colored eyes. Some would even say it was like looking at emerald glistening in the day time.
But what really got me was my weird huge nose! I mean my mother didn't have this huge pointy nose she had such a small slim nose it made me want to gauge out the eyes of the asshole who made me like this. I felt my heart tense up as I thought about him. My father who never had a name at all. I never wanted to ask my mother about him I think one father day I had nearly let the words slip out but I had stopped myself. My mother had such a grief stricken face I felt as if it weren't the place or time to ask her. I again touched my face before I slightly tried to smile. What or who ever he was I was going to take him down with a kick to his nuts. For him putting some much trouble on us and even my mother. And for giving me such a big nose too! The only thing i could thank him for was my rare green eyes. I hope I never see him.
I took one more glance before I grabbed my brush from the counter top and started to brush down my pillow head hair. My thoughts wondering about to Kenny and to my mother and to even what class would hold up for me today.
"Your true horrors..."
I felt my shoulder tense up at the whispering of those words. Was I hearing things or was I just remembering those words from my dream? I looked around my restroom my eyes gliding about until I focused back onto my reflection. Their she was a girl scared and ready to go and cry to her mother. I shook my head slightly looking away from the reflection feeling my face heat up in embarrassment. " Come on big girl you got this!"I stated squeezing my eyes shut before opening them again. I really need to be stronger then this. I placed my brush down and walked out the restroom still feeling the tense of my chest as I walked down the hallway towards the downstairs of the house.
I could hear the clattering of pots and pans and a humming as the sound continued.I walked towards the door way and peered around the corner and saw my mother. She was in front of the small stove we had inside the kitchen. Her blonde hair was brushed up into a tight pony tail bobbing every so often as she moved her hands about in front of her. She wore a gray two piece suit that had white stripes going up and down her clothes. Of course her mother was dressed for work her outfit was to be excepted since she worked in a car dealership. I walked inside the kitchen and made my way to the chair inside the kitchen. "Dakota I'm going to be alittle late tonight coming home hmmmm! Hold on." My mother chirped as she wrestled what looked like a pancake out of the pan. I couldn't help it but a smile formed on my lips as I watched her trying to pluck it out.
"Mom?" I asked with a sigh. I brought my hand under my chin swiftly and leaned on my elbow as I watched her turn slightly to me. Her blue eyes were slightly watered as she starred at me. Her lips were slightly parted and her cheeks were a nice pink. her hair even was slightly shifted but still tight in a pony tail. "Yes , sweety?"She asked with a slight sigh going through her lips. I wanted tot laugh or even tell her how cute she was but instead I looked towards the wall feeling my face heat up under the stare of my mother. "You were saying?"I told her urging her to continue. I looked back to my mother waiting for her response and saw she was preparing me a plate and also one for herself.
"Well like I said I'm going to be late tonight coming home. I want you inside the house by 5 today no later. I'll have check on you tonight as well." She told me as she placed the plate before me. I let my cheek slip from my palm in irritation at the sudden news. "Mom really? I'm 16 now I don't need a baby sister !" I complained. My mother sat gracefully in front of me and started to grab the fork that was next to the white plate. Her long slender fingers gripping tightly to her fork as she poked at her food. Her blue eyes were focused on the breakfast meal before her. "Dakota please don't start this again."She groaned before scooping up a fork full of pancakes up towards her mouth. I felt a frown form on my face as I sat there glaring hatefully at the pancakes. How could my mother even say I needed someone to look after me? I wrapped my arms around me as I sat there watching my mother eat.
After my mother was done eating and I was done glaring death glares at my food I stood up from my seat earning a screech from the chair as I pushed it from behind me. I went to grab my bag from the floor when I was stopped by mother s hand on my shoulder. I looked to her with a raised brow. "Dakota remember what I said about today!" My mother warned her blue eyes settling on me. I shrugged her hand off my shoulder as I rotated my shoulder blade. I nodded my head rolling my emerald eyes as I grabbed my bag and lifted it over my shoulder. "Mom I got it."I told her before I walked away from my mom towards the the door way. I stopped and looked over my shoulder my cheeks heating up in displeasure at what I was going to do. "M-Mom I love you."I stuttered. I watched as my mother seemed to smile before she started to gather the plates from the table. "I love you as well my sweet tea." I seemed to blush more because my mother chuckled lightly her voice sounded like bells drifting in the wind.
I seemed I wanted to react in a way probably snort in disgust or maybe even shrug her love and continue on but yet I said nothing and just walked out of the door way. I made my way towards the front door feeling my back pack weigh me down with each passing step. I really didn't want to head to school right now.
Thanks for reading my new fan fic I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did writing it! Please Know I will be updating every 3 to 4 days because I also have a life of working. So please be cool about it and also leave comments please and fav my story as well!
