I knew He Wouldn't Come

The breeze, blows all around me; probably the last breeze that I'll ever feel. The last breeze that he has made me take. I'm going, but he should be proud. This is what he wanted. I hope he knows he won. He won it all, but I guess that's what I get when he wishes upon a star. I'm the one that falls to get him up there. But I let him go in. It's my fault. My entire fault, I knew he was all lies but he was there. He was talking to me like a person. I just wanted that but I guess all I ever really wanted was a friend.

I take two steps. One more step and it's over. Everything will be over. I wanted to run away to college instead of this way out but the sooner the better. The sooner I get out the faster he will be happy and get that money. Those murderers. I didn't write a note like most do but I hope my new bulletin board in my room shows who the culprit of all this is. They are. They killed me. They hurt me, and I just wanted the pain to end. I want it to end.

The pain. The depression. That's what my life is made up of. It will be that way; has been that way. I'm tired of saying its all okay. I'm tired of staying strong when everything is shattering on the inside. I'm not strong. I'm weak. I couldn't stand it when it started, but why did I show myself strong, because weakness is all they wanted. Now they'll have the weakness that they wanted. Me, my head broken, blood splattered. That's the weakness kept inside of me. Hope they get why I always stayed head strong, because they were my friends.

Yeah those people were my friends. But friends don't kill friends do they? Friends trust each other. Friends tell each other secrets. The only truth I've ever told them was that I live in a house. Ha! Those losers were dumb enough to believe me. Believe me because they told lies, and they thought that nobody saw through them. I did. I knew everything about them. I knew because they never tried to conceal it. Now trust won't be a problem. Trust would be 'Dead and Gone.'

The last step. Last step to freedom. And I'm taking it. I stare down and see the ground.It's so high up. So high up. And I'm gonna fall. I knew he wouldn't come.

"STOP!"

I turned and looked back with wide eyes.

Let's just go back to the beginning shall we? Where this whole thing started, where her mind was still in 'The Way of The Rooftop.'