Summary: I don't think I'm obsessed… but for 5 years she's been fighting her self… is she really not obsessed… and can she really go back to him after three years… will the well open up… and why hasn't he come?
Genre: humor/drama
Done in Kagomes POV
Obsession
I'm Not Obsessed Right? Part 1
I don't think I obsessed? I'm not right? Just because I think about him all the time. Not because the smallest things remind me of him… no I'm not obsessed. I can't be… not anymore. It's been almost three years now. I haven't seen all of them in the longest time. I don't even know what InuYasha did with the jewel… I guess he went to hell with the clay pot… I wish I knew what happened… but I promised myself that I would never return there… was that the smartest thing I could of done? Who knows… but I still go down to the well house and sit on the ledge… but that's as far as I go… a few months ago my friends saw my scar… where the jewel was… I had to lie and told them I had an operation and that was why I was always sick… they bought it… I can't believe it! They bought that lie… InuYasha said that I couldn't lie even if my life depended on it… well I did… and it didn't hurt… but it hurts to see it and know the true reason behind it was now totally out of my reach… my hands wont touch him anymore… my voice cant calm him anymore… I will never see my first love of my life ever again… unless of course he survived for five hundred years and remembers who I am and has been waiting for me… but of course that… is highly unlikely… he's never coming and I'm never going to see him… and that is what hurts even more… but I know I cant go on like this forever… he would want me to be strong and get on with my life… I'm thinking like he died… I know he didn't… he's too stubborn… my InuYasha wont go down without a fight… he's too stubborn… well there I go again… I'm still thinking of him… but I know I'm not obsessed with him… I'm not.
'Miss Kagome… that's the tenth time this week you've 'zoned out'. Detention.'
Shit.
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Well this is great… double detention… if InuYasha saw this he'd laugh so hard- no! I must stop thinking about him… maybe mom will let me get a dog? A white dog with pointed ears on the top of his head? NO! Stop it Kagome! Mom wont get us a dog… we have a cat… we could get it a collar like InuYasha's prayer beads! Oh man…
'Your detention is over now… you may go.'
Yay! Now I can go sulk at home! 'Oh man I hopeless…'
'Kagome, do you need to speak to the school councilor?'
Sure and say what? I feel like a dying and the love of my life is taking over mind, because I left him in feudal Japan? 'No, I'm fine.'
Look at me! I'm lying left right and center… I'm getting pretty good at it! Ha if Inu- NO! I must stop… its been three years… I hope they all are well… I AM hopeless!
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'Hey Kagome!'
Crap… 'Hey Hojo.' What did InuYasha used to call him… oh ya, Hobo… haha
'Why are you still here?'
'Oh, I got a DT.' I smiled.
'That's not like you. Is there something wrong? Do you need anything? Are you getting sick again?'
Kami, this kids annoying. 'No I'm fine.' Get away! Hey look I lied again! Go me!
'Are you sure?'
Man this guy is persistent, 'Yes I'm sure. I have a lot of things on my mind.' Sure do! InuYasha, InuYasha, InuYasha and more InuYasha! I need a life…
'Could I walk you home?'
No! No! No! NO! 'Sure.' I thought I said no?
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I really need to work on saying no to this guy… hey look I'm home!
'Well here we are Kagome.'
Duh! Thanks a lot for pointing that out captain obvious! 'Ya, thanks for walking me home.'
'Ya well it's not safe to walk home at night.'
You should try walking around in a place were there are demons. Powerful demons that want to kill me and get my jewel shards… this is safe compared to there. 'Really?' oops.
'Well ya! There's been a lot of rapes and attacks lately.'
I would kick their ass… with my miko powers! Haha fear me! 'Oh right.' I swear there's someone else that controls my mouth… am I possessed?
'Well I'll let you go now. I'll just wait here until you reach the top of the stairs.'
Right so you can look at my butt… no thanks! 'That's ok. You don't have to.'
'No really. Just so I know you reach the top safely.'
Pervert. Arrrrh. 'No really. I wouldn't want you do be any later then you already are.' Hey I'm not possessed!
'That's ok Kagome! I'm not late at all.'
Ok… I really want him to leave… maybe I should of let InuYasha beat him up before. 'You really don't have to wait.'
'I said it wa-'
'No. I mean it. Go home. I'll be fine walking up the stairs without having someone watching me.'
'I just want t-'
'Go home! I don't need to have someone watch me run up these stairs! Or are you trying to do something perverted? Cause if you are, my friend Sango taught me how to deal with guys like that…' that's it if he doesn't get moving… I'll make him move…
'I-I j-just wanted to m-make sure- nothing like that!'
'Well I don't need you to watch me run up the steps!' if he doesn't leave in five… one… two…
'I'm sorry… but it would-'
'Five… GET LOST! CANT YOU SEE I DON'T NEED YOU? I KNOW HOW TO PROTECT MYSELF!' damn straight!
'I-I'm sorry K-Kagome.' And with that Hojo walked off.
I sure showed him! Muwhaha! And I don't even feel bad!
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'Kagome?' called her mom.
'Ya?' I want to go to the feudal era…
'I found this in your old backpack.' She held out InuYasha's beads.
'the… beads…' Sit. Wham… how I miss that…
'Kagome dear are you alright? Oh dear… I'm sorry. You miss him don't you?'
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes! 'No.' LIAR! Liar! Liar!
'oh. Would you like InuYasha's beads?'
I would love them, 'yes…' I miss you…
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ok. I had the dream again… what the hell dose it mean? Why do I keep having it! Why dose it always show him looking down the well… is it real? Is he calling me back? Should I go back? But wait… I cant… not without the jewel… I really am stuck here…
'but you never did try to jump back in.'
'Sota?'
'why don't you try?'
'because… I don't have the jewel shards…'
'I hate having to see my sister like this! Get off you butt and go try! What's the worst that could happen?'
'I don't go threw…'
'then prove it wrong! Go and see him… go see InuYasha!'
'fine! But what do I do if I get there and I find he has gone to hell with kikyo! And that the village is gone!'
'worry about that once you get there. You don't know what happened. You can't read it in a textbook. Stop beating yourself up and get your ass over there!'
'who are you and what have you done with my brother?'
'KAGOME!'
'WHAT!'
'Get going!'
I cant… not now… its been to long… 'Its been three years… I should let them be…'
And after that my brother walked out… what had made him say that?
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The next day she went to the well house… but then walked away and went to school… but on the way there her brothers words echoed in her mind. They were laughing at her… and so was Tokyo.
As she walked to school, she passed the grocery store and ramen was 50 off. There was an all red outfit in a men's clothing store, complete with a white shirt underneath the red. She saw white dogs being walked by their owners with long white/blond hair.
Ok! Ok, I get it! Enough with the signs already! With the sale, and the clothing to the dogs! I get it!
'Kagome…'
She whipped around, but no one was talking to her… InuYasha… where are you? Why are you calling to me? …What happened when I left? She went on walking … funny…. I only remember one thing… "I have to go… I need to finish something… alone… and you must so back to your own time… I can't take you with me any longer…" … his face was so sad… it was like he knew he'd never see me again… I guess he was right… he never did… and I was never the same again after that… now that your gone things will never be the same again…
I never would forget that look upon your face. How you turned away and left without a trace. But I understand that you did what you had to do… and I thank you… ( Michelle Branch, Spirit Room, Here With Me(Dont own))
'Sota!' she took off and ran to his school.
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'Sota! What made you say that this morning?'
They were standing in the hallway.
'Why did you tell me to go back?'
'It was a secret. Between InuYasha and me. Ya, no a man-to-man thing.'
'Right. What was it about?'
'To tell her to go back once she starts to go crazy when the jewel was done.'
'He told you this?'
'And a lot more. But I'm only to do it when it calls for it.'
'Ok smarty. How do I get back?'
'That sister. Is what you must figure out.' He walked back into class.
Sota…… the whole world is laughing at me…and him and InuYasha are leading it… I just know it…
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'Kagome….'
There it is again…. Why is there a voice calling to me? Could it be InuYasha? If it is… why doesn't he just come climb out of the well and come get me him self! Wait-! I have his rosary… that means that he would no longer need to see me… ahh! I should just stop thinking about him and get on with my life… I wonder if Sango and Miroku got married… aw man if they did I missed the wedding…. After all the work I did to put them together, man! I wonder what Koga did when he found out that I was never coming back? He probably picked a fight with InuYasha and then went to Ayame… I hope so… they're such a nice couple… and Sesshomaru!
What happened to him? Kagura died… so I wonder what he did? Is he still caring for Rin? Are he and InuYasha still on a no talk, lets fight term? How many times has InuYasha almost got killed and transformed… or yet… did he use the jewel to become a full demon? … Oh… I'm not to sure that I want to go back now…. But I need to know what happened to all of them? Do Sango and Miroku have kids? Is Sango doing all right now that Kohaku finally died? Why cant he come and get me… no! stop it! Stop doing this to your self! You are not going back! Stop living in the past… how can I… that's where I left my self… I left everything there… ahhh!
By this time she made it to her school… two hours late… which meant another double detention.
'Why are you late Kagome?'
My brother scared the shit outta me? My life is being twisted and I want to leave this era and go back to InuYasha and the others… that will do.
'Well to be completely honest with you Sir… My brother scared the shit outta me, by telling me to go back threw the well and to go back to InuYasha. My life is being twisted and I want to leave this era and go back to InuYasha and the others… so all I really have to do is go threw the well so I can see them all… and I think that I have finally cracked… yup… when I was in grade 8 I fell into the well on the shrine property and I fell threw to feudal Japan.
Where I met a half-demon named InuYasha and had the Jewel of the Four Souls bitten out of my body from a centipede demon. Who in which pulled me threw the well. Then I find out I'm this reincarnation of the miko Kikyo, who happened to be InuYasha's ex-lover. Because this demon named Naraku tricked them into betraying each other and kikiyo ended up dying after she sealed InuYasha to the god tree that just so happens to be on the shrine grounds… so I ended up breaking the jewel and I helped collect the shards… then the dark miko brought back kikyo and she was out to kill InuYasha and bring him back to hell with her… but I didn't like that and on the occasions that she tried that stunt I would show up and he would come back to me… and then I made a few friends there in which I miss very much.
Shippo a kitsune cub, Miroku a monk with a cursed wind-tunnel in his hand (who is also very perverted), and a demon slayer named Sango, the last of her people. We all have been tricked by the demon Naraku, and together we searched for him to kill him. Along the way we met InuYasha's older half brother Sesshomaru who's whole job I life is to kill InuYasha because he had a human for a mother, he also hates humans which is a lie because he is taking care of a orphaned girl named Rin.
Then I met this wolf demon named Koga, who wants to kill Naraku because he killed all of his comrades… he wanted to take me as his mate but then we found out he already promised this female wolf demon Ayame that she would be his mate. And that InuYasha wanted to kill him every time he came around to see me.
And so when we finally killed Naraku we had a lot of help and together we killed that evil half demon Naraku. And so we completed the jewel and I came back to stay… after having to leave the love of my life in his era… the last time I saw him was when he told me that he had some unfinished business to do and he couldn't have me around to get hurt so he told me to stay in my era… and this is why I have been away for long periods of time ad this is also why I'm not totally in because I'm afraid that InuYasha has gotten kill, or he went to hell with kikyo.
Or that he wished onto the jewel to become a full demon… which is bad because he doesn't know what he's doing because he turns into a homicidal demon who will kill his best friend. And I was the only person that was not afraid of him when he was like this and I was also the only one who could tame the inner demon… uhhh… I don't think I should of said that…'
Everyone was looking at her like she was really nuts…
'And that my fellow students is why I am not paying attention in class, and that was why I had very bad attendance for a while…'
I'm screwed…. Hell why I have everyone's attention… including Hojo's…
'Also… if anyone tries to mess with me I will be able to kick their ass. Because after traveling with a demon and a demon slayer, in a place where demons exist… I am extremely tough and no will ever win over my heart unless you have two soft fuzzy dog ears, golden eyes that turn chrisom when they turn into a demon… so yes that means… stop trying to get a date with me! Sorry Sir, but I wont be in school today… or tomorrow… I might not be coming back… for I am going back… good day…' she trued to the door. 'Oh and also… in five minutes you wont remember a word of this.'
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I cant believe that I told them about me and InuYasha and his world… well at least I learnt how to make people forget long speech made by me… ok… I'm going to jump threw the well…. Yup… and I will see what has happened over the last three years… ok here it goes!
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TBC
