Title: I

Author: AllOverTheWorld

Ships: None

Summary: I am in a tunnel, except there may be no light at the end of this one.

Author's Note: I would like to forewarn my readers of the dark nature of this one-shot. This can be placed roughly three to four months after Claire's death and is, obviously, from Mac's POV.


I am consumed by pain.

I am consumed by anger.

I am loosing who I am because extremists flew a plane into the place where my wife worked.

I want justice done but they are already dead.

I can go to the range any number of times, empty clip after clip into a paper target and never feel any better.

I stay up all night, unable to sleep because my dreams are filled with our last words, the last words we shared.

Darkness is becoming my best friend, the lure of the trigger becoming stronger.

Claire is gone and with her my sanity.

I have no reason to leave work, no loving wife to come home to, nothing but an empty bed and haunted dreams.

I am in a tunnel, except there may be no light at the end of this one.

Each step I take is farther away from who I am, who I used to be.

Each step I take is closer the brink, closer to the edge of my own existence.

I am lost.


Short, I know, however this is just a short peek into the darker corners of Mac Taylor's mind after the death of his wife. There may be a follow up in relation to his friendship with Stella but as of right now this will stand alone.

Thanks,

AllOverTheWorld