Struggle

Summary: Rocky is beginning to feel a bit different about girls and is struggling to really understand things. Will a certain new girl be able to help her understand? Will there be love or chaos? See here in Struggle (Rocky/OC Pairing) May turn into a Rocky/CeCe pairing later on.

Chapter 1: Confusion

Rocky's P.O.V.

"Hey Rocky, you look amazing today." I look to my left and I see a beautiful blonde girl standing next to me. She had amazing blue eyes, flawless milky white skin, toned legs and a glowing smile; she wore a green tank top with white short shorts with tan sandals. Oh my gosh, she has huge boobs... I swear I'm drooling and she giggled. "Awwww, do you like them? They're all for you baby." Oh god, I'm so turned on right now. I grab the girl by her waist and pull her close to my body and stare straight into her blue eyes. She tries to lean in and kiss me but I keep pulling back showing her my famous smirk.

"Sorry boo but I don't give up that easily." I see the girl give me a little smirk and kissed my cheek.

"Fine, I guess I'll just have to work for it." As soon as she said that she started to strip out of her cloths and that's when I woke the fuck up.

I shot up from my bed, sweat going down my forehead, my rough and staggered breathing, my eyes widening at the memory of such a dream. It felt so real and I LIKED what I was dreaming about. I WANTED to continue that dream and that's what scared me the most. I'm so confused. What is this? I'm sorry you must be as confused as I am with this let me start by introducing myself.

My name is Raquel Blue; I'm 14 years old, I'm a freshman at John Hughes High School, I'm a straight A student, I have a perfect attendance record and I'm on a show called Shake It Up! Chicago with my best friend CeCe Jones. I seem very open and well I don't have any secrets... Except for this one... You see since I was young I would always look at girls the same way Ty did but I also like guys like I should. I was confused until last year when I learned about homosexuality in health class. If you think I have gotten used to this or even understood it by now I haven't. In fact I'm a thousand times more confused before I even knew what this was. Was this normal? Was I sick? What would my parents do if they found out? What would my friends say? Would I be rejected? That's when I started becoming a bit depressed, the thoughts always bothered me and it got to me. I haven't harmed myself in anyway or anything but the thoughts have crossed my mind before. The depressing thoughts got worse a few months ago when I had told my parents what I had learned in health about homosexuals and they both flipped out. Stating that the school shouldn't have taught such devil information to us. It was against nature, against the normal structure, against god and the bible. That's why I'm still confused, that's why I'm struggling with these new feelings and information. Am I abnormal?

"Rocky! Get up! We gotta go to school!" I groaned; great the place filled with beautiful girls to confuse me even more. My thoughts were fully interrupted by someone banging on my door. "Get up!" I jump out of bed and yank the door open.

"I'm up you dumb butt! Gosh stop banging on my door!" I yell back as I find Ty was the one causing all the commotion. He just stuck out his tongue and walked off back to his room to get ready. I sighed and went back into my room, closing the door and locking it. I walked over to my closet and took out a white tank top and dark blue jeans then placed them on my bed. I then walked over to where I had all my shoes and boots lined up and grabbed a pair of white boots and placed it at the foot of my bed. As soon as I heard someone step out of the bathroom I went in with my towel to well take a shower of course. Today I took a cold shower to get things cleared from the fact I had that amazing hot dream. I shiver as I realized the thought I just had. I've been wanting to talk to a councilor about this or maybe someone who would know how I felt or someone who understands what I'm going through. I just feel so alone throughout this whole thing. I guess I was in here a long time because my brother starting banning on the door again. I didn't realize as I was deep in my thoughts I had washed my hair and body; so I turned off the shower and stepped out wrapping a towel around myself in the process.

"Rocky hurry up! I gotta take a shower too!" I rolled my eyes and began to yell back.

"I'm done gosh! I was about to leave until you started banging on the door!" I heard Ty leave back to his room as he mumbled to himself. I guess he's a bit grumpy today; maybe his date last night didn't go too well. I went out of the bathroom and got ready for school and as I did so I got a text message on my phone. I looked over to see who it was from as I put on my tank top and saw that it was from CeCe. As I fixed my shirt I went over to my phone and opened the text message.

From: CeCe :3

To: Rocky X3

Hey boo XD haha where are you we're gonna be late for school!

From: Rocky X3

To: CeCe :3

Swap babe! lol I'm coming down don't worry! We're never late for school anyways haha

With that I grabbed my bag, put on my boots and went out of the window and down the fire escape to CeCe's apartment. Oh and by the way: WE ARE NOT DATING! The texting thing we do that all for the fun of it; it's funny when someone sees our text messages and they start freaking out about how they didn't know we were an item. Besides I don't like CeCe that way, at least I think I don't.

"Hey hey hey!" I yell as I come through the window and that's when I see CeCe get up from the couch, grab her bag and we link arms as we leave for school. As we walked down the sidewalk we talked about how the school so far was going great since we got on the show and a whole bunch of other stuff that I won't go into detail. Then a certain topic came up that kind of made me want to test a few things.

"Do you think Gunther is gay? I mean I'm just curious; he wears a lot of glitter and he sorta acts like a girl sometimes." I shrug.

"I'm not quite sure CeCe but if he was I really wouldn't care." She looked at me strangely.

"Really? Why?" I felt worried; would she look at me strangely if I came out. I shrug my shoulders again.

"Well if Gunther wants to be with a guy let it be. The heart wants, what the heart wants; you can't control what you feel CeCe." She sighed.

"I know but I just can't see any of us liking the same gender. It's hard for me to see that." I look down at her and I thought I saw something in her eyes; like some sort of sadness as she spoke it. Does she like Gunther? Or is she going through something that involves with the topic?

"Is there something you need to tell me CeCe?" She shook her head.

"No; not yet that is." I nod and let it go. If CeCe wants to tell me something she will tell me when she's ready. We walk through the doors and we go to our locker and well it is pretty much a normal day.

"Hey Rocky." I turn around away from CeCe and I see Candy Cho; I roll my eyes. I lean to my right, crossing my arms and just glare at her.

"What do you want now Cho?" She smirks and giggles. This may sound wrong since this my worst enemy but when she giggles it's fricken adorable.

"I just wanted to say that," I waited for an insult but instead something else came out of her mouth that shocked me; even more CeCe, "I'm sorry." My eyes widened and soon CeCe came up beside me.

"I'm sorry, what did you just say?" She sighed.

"Raquel Blue, I, Candy Cho am sorry for the way I have been towards you." CeCe and I turned to each other and looked back at Candy weirdly.

"Is this a joke?" She shook her head.

"No, I just thought I should stop with all this enemy things. My girlfriend taught me how having enemy's just makes things difficult for everyone." CeCe and I were now looking a lot like fish; all bug eyed and jaws hanging.

"You have a girlfriend?" She nodded and next thing we know we see a girl that is actually in one of my classes, Malina Lee. She was good looking but not beautiful in my eyes.

"Hey boo." Candy kissed Malina and I was in beyond shock. Malina had wrapped an arm around Candy and for the first time in my life Candy seemed... nice.

"Hi baby," Malina looked towards me and smiled, "you must be Rocky. Has my girl cleared things up with you?" I nod. "Good, I don't like the fact that she made a few enemies here and there but my baby promised me that she'd change all that for me." I heard Candy giggle when she said: 'baby', 'my baby', and 'my girl'. It was cute and I couldn't hep but smile.

"Well I'm happy that things are cleared up and that you guys have found each other." They both smiled and said their farewells giggling as CeCe and I stood there trying to process what just happened. They were so open, they didn't even seem to care that people were talking or staring at them weirdly. They had each other and that was all they really needed. I guess being what I am is normal in a way... I just wish I could have someone explain it all to me and maybe even show me what it would be like. Maybe then I wouldn't be so confused.

Okay so I've got this new idea and I'm putting this up to see who would be interested in reading this so ya.. :)

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