`Adam was in quite a place. He had been publicly dating sauli for a little over a year now, but he was confused and hurt. He watched Tommy as he slept. He was so sweet, so peaceful, but Adam knew different. It was hurting Tommy to see him with Sauli. Tommy cared a lot about Adam, but he kept to himself. No one knew how he felt towards Adam, or so he thought. Adam had came over one day by suprise, on tommy's birthday. Tommy was getting cleaned up in the bathroom that day so Adam waited just outside the door. He could hear Tommy crying, and he looked up, he was concerned. He peeked in through a crack in the door and Tommy was in the floor crying, his beautiful face red from the tears. Adam wanted to just rush in and comfort him but he couldn't, tommy didn't even know his was there, plus Tommy would probably be embarassed.

Tommy had his head in his hands, the tears fell to the floor. Finally Adam couldn't stand watching him cry anymore and he had to see what was wrong. He opened the door and Tommy immediately looked up. adam could still see a few tears running down tommy's shocked face. The little mans pale flesh wasn't pale anymore, it was red as cherries. Adam went and sat next to him and held him. "What's wrong Tommy?" he asked. Tommy's heart was pounding in his chest. "What do I do?! I can't tell him what's wrong! He's with Sauli, he's happy I shouldn't try to change that, what the fuck do i do?!" tommy thought to himself. Tommy jumped up, grabbed his clothes from the counter and ran out of the bathroom. On the way to his room he was quickly dressing. He got in his room and locked the door. He slid to the floor as he tried to calm down. adam came to the door and knocked. "tommy, I'm sorry I just came in like that but I couldn't stand to see you cry!" Adam waited for a reply.

Tommy started crying again, it hurt to hear adam's voice. "I can't tell you anything adam" he yelled. "Why not tommy? You can tell me anything!" Adam waited patiently. tommy put his head against the wall, biting his lip to keep back more tears. His heart was racing, he wanted to tell Adam so bad how he felt. "Adam, I love you! " He finally yelled back, he put his head down and cried more than he was in the bathroom. "I just fucked up, Adam's going to think I'm stupid! It's gonna be awkward talking now! what if he doesn't even say anything back?!" Tommys thoughts were rushing through his head. Adam was on the other side of the door. He was shocked by what he heard, he had no idea Tommy felt that way. Suddenly, the way Tommy kissed him on stage made sense. He thought Tommy was straight, but he always wondered why Tommy kissed him like he did. "Every time we're on stage, It's like my own personal heaven. It's where I can kiss you without feeling weird about it. When I leave though, my chest hurts. I don't know why...it just does." tommy said quietly. "That's love, when the person you love is away from you, your heart stays with them so you feel empty. Then you aren't whole again until they're with you again." Adam said. "Well then," tommy started crying again,"I guess I won't ever be whole."