Author's Note- Hello! This is my first ever work of fanfiction. Reviews would be much appreciated! Due to my lack of inexperience I need all of the advice I can get. Well anyways... Thank you for taking the time to read my fanfic! *Please note that the characters are based off Yu-Gi-Oh! characters which I do not own. The story, however, was made by me. Enjoy!
How could I go on living like this? I don't even know who I am anymore… I'm just a soulless figure of a child. What's the point of life if I'm not happy? I can't find my way out of this dark place. Knowing the truth makes things worse. Does he not care about me anymore? Is it really that simple to move on to another boy? I'm your son! I'm your REAL son! Why do care so much about that orphan? I'm your blood! I wish you would have just let me die. Why did you keep me alive if the only thing you were going to do is abandon me and ignore me? What's the point? Father, help! I'm so lost…
Day One-
That stupid dog won't stop following me. Can't he see that I don't want him? I hate this place. I want to go home. I run my hands through my hair and take a deep breath. The lady at the vegetable stand waves to me. As usual, I ignore her. As usual, she continues to smile and wave. The old man whom I've named Carl, walks by with an old woman, whom I've named Marta. I have their usual speech memorized.
Hello there, young Noa!
"Hello there, young Noa!" the old man calls out to me.
Noa, my dear child, how have you been?
"Noa, my dear child, how have you been?" the cheery old Marta inquires. I continue my daily walk through the town, completely ignoring them.
What's the matter, Noa?
"What's the matter, Noa?" he asks, seemingly concerned.
I sigh, "If you really want to know then my life is a living hell, and you?"
How unfortunate! Just know that everything will be better tomorrow.
"How unfortunate! Just know that everything will be better tomorrow," Carl gives me a pat on the back. I used to find solace in the dependability and stability of Carl and Marta's words. As time went by, the feeling toward them slowly went from love to uneasiness to fear to hate. What I do not understand is why I keep on coming back. I've taken this walk every day since I can remember, with that stupid dog always close behind. Is it possible that I fear what may happen if I venture beyond this world that I know? The anger builds up inside me, and I scream as loud as I can, hoping someone can save me.
"Whoa dude, chill out!" A completely unfamiliar voice laughs. Who is this? Nobody else should be here! I turn around to see a girl about my age standing with her arms crossed. She has a cute face and pretty white hair tied up into one long ponytail. The best part was her eyes. They are the most beautiful shade of blue, like they were completely made out of crystal. A white dress fell loosely around her body. "There's no need to scream, little one."
"Who are you?" I ask her, awestruck.
"Rika Sakine. And you?" She gave a small smile.
"Noa Kaiba." I wonder if she knows or even understands who I am. Probably not… "Who are you?"
"Didn't I just answer that?" she chuckled.
"No. I don't want to know your name; I want to know who you are!" I'm beginning to get angry again.
She laughs a sweet laugh and says, "I've never been asked that before! Well I guess the same as you, a hu-"
"You're not human," I say quietly.
She laughs again. "I'm not, huh? Okay well then tell me Noa Kaiba, what am I?" She asks with genuine curiosity.
"You're a program, sent here to keep me company by my father."
"Oh really?" She giggles, "I'm a computer program? Alright, what exactly is a computer program supposed to do?" She walks up to me and touches my face. Her hand is so soft… "If I'm here to keep you company then am I doing this right?"
I can feel the blood rushing to my cheeks. Is that even possible? She takes my hand and leads me in the opposite direction, breaking my usually routine. "Come with me!" She says cheerfully.
I stop and shake her hand away. "No! Who are you?"
"I told you already! The name's Rika." I don't understand this. Could this mean that my father remembers me? Did he send this girl to me because he cares about me? "Now come on! I want to show you something…"
I let the girl leads me out of the town and to the edge of a forest with the stupid dog following behind us in hot pursuit. Even though I've lived in this place for several years, I have never been through this way before. Fear begins to invoke some rather wild thoughts, and my nerves are on edge. It has been a while since I've seen a forest. For some reason, I can't convince myself to calm down. Obviously, there is nothing to fear waiting inside that forest, just a bunch trees and bugs. Somehow though, I cannot shake this feeling of fear. "Come on, little one!" She nudges me and runs into the forest.
"Rika, wait!" I call after her.
"Nope! No can do. Sorry!" she calls back, her voice getting softer and softer the father she runs in.
"Rika! Don't leave me here!" I can't do it. I can't face my fears and chase after the mysterious girl. I sit down at the edge of the forest and wait for the pretty girl with long white hair and blue eyes to come back.
I guess I fell asleep… I look up at my surroundings and nearly jump. Where the hell am I? My head is resting in some girl's lap. Realization hits me like a bus. Tears start to fall from my eyes. "Why? Why did you leave me!" I yell to Rika's startled face. I get up and start running. I run all the way back to the mansion and shut the door behind me. If I can't even trust a freaking program, who can I trust?
"Despite it being a cruelly sleepless night,
Rain falls relentlessly
From the crevice.
I can't even find the clue to my
Loneliness.
My concealed heart heads back to square one." Rakuen, SID
