A/N: Just a short introspective piece. Aaron muses over who he is.
Disclaimer: I don't own Latter Days.
Who I Am
I've been running from this for so long. Hiding from the reality, from who I am. It's so hard to just turn around and face it head on, to start accepting it. But that's what I'm trying to do, what meeting Christian made me want to do. All my life I've been told that it's wrong, that it's disgusting…that I'm disgusting; but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't make those feelings disappear.
Maybe Christian's right. Maybe the miracle I've been waiting for really is him, braving the snow, the reminder of how much his father hated him, and finding me just to say he loves me.
Maybe.
Or maybe my parents are right, maybe my church is right. Maybe it is a sin. Maybe I am going to hell.
But that doesn't change the fact that it isn't something I've done, it's who I am. I can't change that, I know that now. So, if my parents are right, if it is a sin, then there really isn't anything I can do.
And I can't believe that. Not anymore.
I won't stop believing in God, but I can't believe that he hates me for who I am. I have to believe that he made me this way and that he loves me, because he's God, and he doesn't make mistakes.
And he loves us all, just as we are.
