I shouldn't have agreed to this.

No matter how many times I'd convinced myself that I was going to get through this, that I should feel happy for my best friend Sookie, the bride-to-be, I was, once again, feeling sorry for myself.

I really shouldn't have come here, especially at this time of the year.

Christmas.

It's supposed to be a time for family reunions, but no, not for me.

All I'd got left was that thing in the cradle.

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"I thought I am more than just a companion to you. I thought you loved me." I cried.

He didn't even look back.

The door slammed shut.

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I knew that he had a long history with girls but that was his past.

For him, I could have given up everything.

I thought that by showing him how much I loved him, he would have stayed.

But who was I kidding? Sookie said that I was jumping into the fire.

And she was right.

I was nothing but his new found toy.

And when he'd had enough of it --- me, he just walked away and left me there, broken.

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"What's wrong, Amelia? You've been in the washroom all day."

"I'm feeling sick…and exhausted. Extremely exhausted. I must have eaten some bad food."

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I thought that I could forget about him, as time passed.

It never occurred to me that things would turn out in this way, that he would leave me something which would sickeningly remind me of him every single day.

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"Are you ready?" Sookie breathed.

I took a deep breath, and nodded weakly.

There, lying on my palm, was a test strip that turned blue.

We stared at it in silence, with eyes widened in shock.

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Never had I felt so helpless and lonely.

For days, I had locked myself up in the room, crying myself to sleep.

Sometimes, I found myself picking up the phone almost subconsciously, trying to trace that combination of numbers that I had dialed so many times, that I had come to know so well.

But every time, I stopped myself at the very last moment.

For I know that he would never pick up the phone. Even if he did, what was I to tell him? That I had something that he may want? That he should come back to me because he had impregnated me?

His voice would only remind me of the days that we spent together, and those days when I saw him flirting with some girls that he just met on the street.

No, I wouldn't be able to stand that pain.

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"Mommy, please don't leave me here in the dark. MOMMY!"

I woke up with a start, my forehead covered with sweat.

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If it was not because of this, this would probably have been my wedding.

I would be the one who's going to walk down that aisle, waiting to be handed over to the guy standing at the far end.

At this time last year, I was only a girl who found herself falling in love, a girl who thought that she had, finally, encountered true love.

And now, I was someone who felt deceived, someone who was disgusted at herself.

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"Is that your girl, Amelia? Isn't she adorable?"

Of course she is.

She has such beautiful eyes.

HIS pair of beautiful eyes.

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They must be calling for me now.

I looked up to find a woman staring back at me miserably. I wiped out the tears that were swelling in her eyes.

She gave me a big fake smile, trying to look strong and brave.

It's time to get back to the reception.

I still had a wedding to attend.

A best friend to get married off.

A baby to look after.

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When they were making their vows, I realized one thing.

No one seemed to believe that love was something ugly.

"I do."

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