I woke up on a sofa in a room. The last thing I remember is reading a book, and then... Maybe I just got tired. I suddenly remembered my mother and father. But... It seems more like a dream. Must be why my name is Yume. Then again, a lot of things do when I think about them, like if I try thinking back to eating dinner yesterday, it feels like it didn't- no! I can't get off-track!
I sat up on the red sofa.
So soft. I remember this being the library. I spent most of my time in the library and read books, and it was usually the highlight of my days. Well, besides spending time with okaa-chan and otou-chan, that was always fun. I sat up from my favorite red sofa in the library and maneuvered my way through the bookshelves to the door. Wait, I forgot my book! I quickly ran back and put my book back. I moved to the door and made my way up the stairs outside the door that lead to the hallway.
Our mansion is so big, I wonder why we need it. If we got a smaller house, it would be, well, smaller and then we wouldn't need help from that many maids, then we could have more money for better back up. What if something bad happens? We are purebloods, after all. If we have more money, when something bad happens, we can pay that and still have money. I feel much safer having extra money, and who wouldn't? Sometimes I think I'm more mature than my parents.
I wonder if there are any pureblood families that have a regular sized house. Probably not, since this house is big and we are the second weakest pureblood clan. If our house is this big, I wonder how big the Shirabuki and Kuran clan house is, actually, mansion. Or at least, the biggest one.
"Kuran... Clan..." I whispered softly to no one in particular.
The Kuran clan was the most powerful clan, and their progenitors are powerful ancestors, the very first vampires, also the most powerful. Spending all day in a library can really help with history. The female progenitor was never named, and the male progenitor was Kuran Kaname, and I guess that's the reason why the 'present' Kaname is named Kaname.
Lately, I had been having dreams about the male progenitor, Kaname. I guess it's not really lately since its been happening since I was... Three? So if I'm five now, that makes it two years that it's been happening. After a few months, I found out that it was actually Kuran Kaname's past. I basically know everything about him, now, since I have seen all up to a few years ago, since Kaname was five and his... 'Sister'... Was two. I had read up on the Kurans and found out that they are currently hiding the sister, Yuuki, since she wasn't shown anywhere. I think I'm about Yuuki's age.
It kind of hurts me to sleep. Since I've gotten so used to seeing Kaname and seeing what he sees, hearing what he hears, feeling what he feels, and knowing what he knows and thinks, I've also started to recognize what he finds sad and not, and the dreams of his past just got more and more depressing. Sometimes I wake up feeling just as scared as he did.
What was even worse, was him thinking about what his past was, and finding out that what he felt for the hooded woman was... Void? He thinks that he was just using The Hooded Woman to make himself feel less lonely, and that he didn't commit suicide because he loved her, but because he was alone again. Don't get him wrong, he was friends with her. He admitted what he thought to her a few years after their children were born. She said she thought the same thing. After that, Kaname and her never really acted as happy as before. Apparently, she took their children away and kept them with her while he worked on the furnace.
After the furnace was done, he sent her a letter and told her the furnace was done and that he needed her here when he died to prepare the weapons. By that time, their children were around twenty, and were taking care of themselves in the new mansion, what is now the Kuran mansion. But she stopped him and threw in her heart instead. Before that, she said that her heart was stronger, and would last as long as the furnace was there.
After, he made the weapons, explained how to use them to humans, gave them the building with the furnace, and killed himself in a coffin in the Kuran mansion. And now he's with his sister, 'sister' Yuuki.
He thinks he feels a certain brotherly protection over her. Brotherly. He doesn't really feel anything towards her, but acts like a good brother. I can tell, he is sad he has to act, but he is doing this for Juuri and Haruka, as he thinks it's his duty after taking their first son.
Currently, I'm a few weeks behind what's happening now. I think in about a few nights, I'll have the whole thing together, since it has started to slow down. After that, I might just go back to normal dreams, whatever that is.
I arrived at my room, seeing that it was 04:00 or something on the clock near the left side of my bed. But before I noticed anything else, I saw okaa-chan and otou-chan trying to quickly pack up... My clothes?
I saw my stuffed, black rabbit with a red bow and eyes, whom I called Nini, clothes, and photos of us together in two separate suitcases. What were they doing?
I looked at otou-chan as he slammed shut my suitcase and tried to pull up the zipper. He suddenly jerked his head toward me, his eyes just as wide as mine and his head with so much sweat, it looked like someone dumped a bucket of water on him.
"O... Tou... Chan? What's-" I tried questioning but he cut me off as he ran towards me with an odd smile.
"I-It's okay, honey, you're just going to stay with Ichiou for a bit. Then me and
okaa-chan will come to bring you back home. Right, okaa-chan?" He slowly looked back at okaa-chan with a worried face as she finished packing her suitcase. She turned around just as slowly as otou-chan and nodded. He looked at me as okaa-chan grabbed the suitcases and ran out the door.
Otou-chan looked back at me with his eyes closed and smiled wide. Too wide for it to be real. "G-Gomen 'nasai, Yume. W-We promise to be back for you." I opened my mouth to say something, but he took me into his arms and started running in the direction that okaa-chan came from.
It all passed by so fast, and I think I had my eyes wide open the whole time. Through running out of a house, driving in a car, running to a house, being left almost as soon as I got here, and getting no explanation in a pointless conversation. If you call a conversation one person spouting random crap while the other person just gawked at the door. After that, I was lead to a room by a maid that was supposed to be my room.
I don't get why okaa-chan and otou-chan packed me almost all of my photos, stuffed animals, and clothes. Not to mention all of my books stuffed at the bottom of the suitcase, which I didn't even see before. The maid quickly excused herself from the room. All the people I saw today were doing that, and before 04:00, I hadn't even seen my parents.
I held onto Nini as I collapsed on the side of my bed, sliding down the side to the floor, with one of the two red suitcases open. I quietly whispered to Nini. "Nini, I do something wrong?"
A few tears slid down my cheek, then a waterfall down both sides of my face. But no noise came out as I buried my head into Nini's head.
My silent crying was interrupted by a boy with blonde hair and green eyes. Brown stared into green.
"Um... My name is Ichijou Takuma. Nice to meet you, Hime-sama." He looked a little uncomfortable, but worried at the same time. I think I met him before at the first and only ball I've gone to. He's kinda nice, but I didn't talk with him for that long before we left.
We...
"Takuma-san, I remember from a few months ago." He kept staring at me, but this time, a small smile started to make his way to his lips. He said nothing back.
"Mmmmm... are you here to visit?"
He looked at me a while longer before answering.
"I came to check on you. I know you're close to your parents, so I wanted to make sure you're okay." It touched me that he was being concerned. And truly concerned. Most of the other vampires just look and sound like they want to eat me.
"I-It just happened so fast, but I'm okay." I dropped my head into Nini, trying not to cry.
I heard footsteps enter the room, then felt weight on the bed side. I looked over at the weight, and saw Takuma smiling brightly at me. Then he asked me something that took me by surprise.
"What do you want to talk about?" I just stared at him, my eyes unblinking. I just expected him to leave and say 'Good night' or something.
I decided to answer back. "W-What?" Best answer ever.
"Silly. I want to talk to you because you seem sad."
"Oh." After that we kind of just went into odd topics starting from something like 'I don't know' or 'Well, what do you want to talk about?' Most of the time, Takuma was talking about my long, black hair. He asked to touch it and said it felt like silk. I was twiddling with my hair the rest of the conversation. What does silk feel like?
After about an hour he left and I went to sleep, happier than when I first came here.
Maybe it won't be so bad if I have a friend to talk to.
It's been five long days, and nothing has happened that gave me a clue to when they were coming back. I didn't get a phone call, letter, or anything to indicate they were alive and well.
I was reading a book on my bed, when a knock came at the door. I got off the bed to answer the door. When I opened it up, Takuma was looking down at the floor with a down expression.
"What's wrong, Takuma-san?" Without looking up, he handed me a letter that said 'Tsukiku' on the back. I immediately took it and gave a small bow before I shut the door and ran to my bed. I didn't bother getting a letter opener and ripped the paper with Nini in my arms.
I slowly and gently pulled the letter out, unfolding the paper, I recognized the handwriting as okaa-chan's. But the words on the two pieces of paper had changed my life. The letter read...
Dear Yume,
Yume, by the time you get this, Suzaku and I will probably be dead. You see, we killed ourselves with a vampire hunter weapon, the Bloody Rose. I don't know why I would tell you that. Anyways...
We killed ourselves because of the usual. Depression because of loneliness. It's a long life we live, and it's very rare to find someone that we can dedicate our life to, and you know this, despite your age. You were never really the 'Fruit of our Love', though we did love each other at some point.
I don't know if you've noticed it yet, but your different. You're not like the other vampires, or purebloods for that matter. You have a great power, possibly more powerful than any other living thing. But not by so much. If you're thinking that I'm telling you to use this power for good, don't be the bad guy, then you're wrong.
I don't give two fucks about how you use it. I will admit, at one point, we were scared of you. We took you to an expert in vampires, when you were nearly 2 years old. The person told us that a purebloods immortality, or near immortality, develops fully by the age of 7, but you were developing full immortality at a young age, that it would develop fully by the age of 4. Your aging would stop earlier near the age of 13 or 14.
I don't know how he determined this, but what you survive off of is not blood, but flesh. Your teeth are not two fangs on the bottom and top, but not fangs at all. The way your body is designed, he believed it was built to digest something more like a steak. And that your fangs would grow in later in life.
But one thing that will truly, truly change your 'normal' life, is your brain. Your brain does not give out certain hormones that makes your body able to create an offspring, though the right tools are there, you will not have periods, or the ability to be aroused. For some reason, your body just can't put out the hormones, that or be able to use the hormones in the correct way.
We tried to keep the expert's mouth shut, but we had no idea that he was a part of the council. Later, he told the vampire council, and now, we are considered a weak clan because we cannot produce more heirs. You will be treated differently, and not in a good way.
We thought it might be good to explain a few things before we die. I'm sure it's hard to wrap your head around all of this, but you will understand later,
Sayonara
Tsukiku Julia.
"W-What?" Was the only word I could get out of my mouth at the end of that letter.
Tears could flow freely now, I don't care. Someone can come eat me up and take advantage of my emotions, because apparently I can't die. Who would save me if that happened? No one.
This must have been how Kaname felt when he got rejected by his family. Lonely, empty, obviously depressed and rejected.
Things seemed to have escalated quickly.
I got up from bed, tears stilling escaping the river under my blue, lifeless eyes. Nini dropped from my arms as I got off the bed. Did they really mean it? The only way to find out would be to go to Ichiou and ask him about what happened.
As I opened the door, small sobs escaped me. My eyes, swollen red, my cheeks, red, my mouth, whimpering, and my nose, horribly stuffed.
I felt so lonely. Most of my life was Julia and Suzaku, everyone else was scary and uncaring. I wondered why everything was changing. Why is it happening so fast? I feel like there's nothing I can do to change the change.
I arrived at the door of his office, and softly knocked on the door, trying to hide my face and stop my sobs, which could be heard throughout the mansion.
"Come in, Tsukiku-sama." I gulped and hiccuped one last time before opening one of the double doors. "May I ask what brings you to my office? I have to much paperwork to be interrupted, so make it quick." I muttered so softly, not even a pureblood could hear it. "What was that? Speak up, Hime-sama."
"I... I just have a q-question." When I first met Ichiou, he scolded me heavily for not speaking loudly, so, since then, I've tried to speak the way he wanted me to around him. It was really boring.
"And what question is that?"
"Uh... What happened to Julia and Suzaku?" He just looked at me, surprised. Then, his mouth slowly started to form a smile, one that I would never forget.
"Ah, so that's what that letter was about. They told their disgraceful child what they think." I just looked at him, surprised. I couldn't speak. How many times is this going to happen today? "The Tsukiku's committed suicide. They had shot themselves with the lost and now found vampire hunter weapon, Bloody Rose." So... it is true.
He kept talking. "They had said that their daughter was immortal, and yet couldn't even reproduce. How pathetic, you can't even continue the Tsukiku name. They even wanted you to have a different name so you couldn't disgrace their lives.
"Does that answer your question?" I just collapsed on the floor, sobbing heavily, which soon turned to screams separated by loud breaths.
My world had just collapsed. Every word he said crushing it. I truly am alone, no one to help me, no one to love me, and no one for me to love. No one. Why do I deserve this? Why do I have to go through this? I thought I was good!
"Sen, please take her back to her room. She's done here." Sen, I believe is his personal maid, bowed before picking me up and carrying me to my room. Yes, my room. I no longer live in the Tsukiku mansion, nor am I a Tsukiku. Just Yume.
