No Reason
Summary: Kendall, James, Carlos, and Logan are the closest of friends. So when one stops talking to another, there has to be a reason.
For Christiangirl56, hope you like it. Sorry it's so short… It's the real people, and it's during a day on set.
Kendall's POV
I… a famous actor, that caused girls and women to swoon, was crushing hard… on another guy… I, Kendall Francis Schmidt, had a huge crush on one of my best friends. Logan Phillip Henderson… I loved the boy. Ever since I laid eyes on him, during the auditions for Big Time Rush. I fell head over heels for him. I have been gay since I was 17, and had feelings for one of my co-stars.
As soon as I found out I had gotten the part, Carlos Pena, had became my close friend. Being gay himself, I found it easy to be out in public, and talk about the cute waiter we had of a hot guy across the room. He confided with me about his crush on our 4th friend, James Maslow. So I knew I could trust him with the secret of my crush on Logan. The day I told him, he smiled, gave me a hug, then said we could totally double date someday. I laughed. Yeah maybe someday.
The morning had started out normal. We came in at 8 o'clock, ready to film scenes. It was for our new episode, Big Time Girlfriend. I sat off stage, and watched as James and Erin, who played as Logan's love interest on the show, shared a fake kiss, then one with more heat. I noticed Carlos tense up at the kiss.
-He doesn't really like her… you know that- I texted him.
-Yeah I know…- He texted back.
Soon we had done half of the show, when the bell rang for lunch break.
I grabbed a sandwich from the cart, and headed to the break room for lunch.
"Hif Kenfah." Carlos smiled, his mouth full of sandwich.
"Hey Carlitos." I laughed. "Where's James? And Logan?" I glanced around.
"Not sure. So how's the Logan crush going?"
"Fine..." I sighed.
"Just fine?" Carlos raised an eyebrow to me.
"H... hey guys." James ran over with an apple. I noticed his hair was kinda messy and his shirt was askew.
Soon Logan was walking over, his cheeks flushed and his lips bruised.
I smiled to him, as he took the spot next to me.
"Hey Kenny." He smiled to me.
"Hey Logie."
We continued to eat, and talk about our day.
"Well I have to go get something from my car." Logan said, standing.
"I'll join you." I said, grabbing trash.
We threw them away, and headed out to the parking lot.
"What are you gonna get?" I asked as I followed him through the parking lot.
"A medical book. Reading material for during off set" Logan said as he pulled open his car door. "Here it is!" He pulled a large book from the back seat. "I get bored during scenes I'm not in." He said opening the book to a marked page.
"You always read those books." I chuckled and ruffled his hair. "And that's why I like you."
"What?" He asked, lifting his head out of the book. "What did you say?"
"I like you… a lot…" I said again.
"Really?" He asked, setting the book on the roof of his car.
"Yeah…" I paused, running a hand through my long hair. "I have since I met you, back in the auditioning process… I just didn't know how to tell you… I'm so sorry…" I sighed.
"Hey…" He rubbed his thumb over my cheek. "I like you back."
"Really?" I asked, shocked.
"Yeah." He giggled, his cheeks growing bright red.
"Met me in my dressing room, at 7. After work…" Logan said, grazing his hand across my chest, before walking back to the studio.
7 came around, and I waited for Logan to get done with his scene.
"Hey Kendall, can you help me with something?" Carlos opened the door across the hall.
"Sure." I laughed at his shortness, and walked into his dressing room.
"Over here." He said pointing to a corner. "I can't reach enough to string the lights."
"I got this." I chuckled and lifted the string of blue onto a nail. "There ya go bud."
"Heh thanks Kendall. I'm trying to have a contest with James to see who has the cooler dressing room." Carlos said, rolling out a rug.
"Shag carpet? Really?" I asked, running a hand over it.
"Yes! I got it from my basement!" He laughed.
I stayed and helped him add more neat items to the walls. A poster of yourself?" I asked, helping him thumb tack a large poster to his wall.
"Of course. I mean I can't have a poster of the four of us in here… while I get dressed and what not… That's just creepy." He laughed.
"Yeah… that really is." I shivered. "Remind me to take down my poster later…"
"Heh I will." He laughed. I heard talking in the hallway and figured it was Logan.
"Well I gotta go. I'm meeting Logan in his dressing room."
"Oh you sly dog you!" Carlos shoved me to the door. "Have fun!"
I laughed and closed the door.
As I started to knock I heard voices coming from the room.
"Shh… I don't wanna get caught…" Someone said.
"No need to worry, no one will." I heard another say.
"No... James..."
'James… in Logan's dressing room?' I pushed the door open a bit more, so I could squeeze in. I tiptoed to the curtain that hung in the doorway.
Peaking through, I could see the back of James, and the arms of someone else.
"James… s…stop… I can't let Kendall find out… he really likes me…" My jaw dropped as I saw Logan reach up and run his hands through James' hair. I moved back behind the curtain, and slumped against the door. 'How could he…' I could feel my eyes start to sting, the beginning of tears, and I quickly ran out of the room.
"Kendall?" I heard Stephen ask as I ran past him to my own dressing room. I locked the door, and fell onto the couch, tears falling freely now.
"Kendall… you okay?" I heard Stephen knock on the door.
"Y…yeah. I'm fine." I said, hoping he would leave.
There was silence for a minute and I figured he had left.
-Hey man, you okay? Stephen just texted me saying he thought you were upset- Carlos texted me.
-I'm fine. Really- I said back.
-Really? Wanna talk about it?- He asked back.
-Nah… Maybe later though-
-'Kay-
I tossed my phone across the room, It hit my chair, and plopped to the floor. Pulling my knees to my chin I opted to start crying again.
'No…' I stood, 'I'm not gonna cry over a guy.' I sniffed. My phone buzzed again.
-Hey where are you? I waited for you in my dressing room- I saw the text and threw my phone at the wall.
I took off out my dressing room and down the hall to Logan's dressing room.
"Logan! Open up!" I pounded on the door.
"Oh hey Kenny… I waited…" He stopped as I grabbed the collar of his shirt, and slammed him up against the wall. "Kendall… are you okay?"
"Shut the…" I stopped as Carlos ran out of his dressing room.
"What's going on?" He asked.
"Nothing…" I released Logan from my grasp, and ran out of the building to my car.
I sat with my arms on the wheel, and my head in my arms.
"Kendall… Kenny!" I looked up to see Carlos knocking on the passenger side window.
I unlocked the car, and he hopped in.
"What happened?" He finally asked.
"Carlos… I'm a fool… and so are you… They never liked us…" I sobbed.
"What who?"
"James and Logan, they never liked us…" I looked over to him, tears in my eyes, and on my arms.
"How do you know?" He asked, worried.
"I… I saw them kissing… in Logan's dressing room." I whispered.
