I'm Sorry

Chapter 1

A/N: I am rambling again, so just so with it, okay? Good. Not like you have a choice. Heh heh heh. I rool joo. This is based on a song, by the way.

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Gojyo sat quietly on the bed. Rubbing his fingers over the wrinkles in the comforter they had shared only moments ago. His heart ached.

He glanced at Hakkai, who was quietly cutting vegetables.

Gojyo's eye twitched at every sound the cutting board and the knife made. It was as if the cutting was slowly cutting away at his heart, and it hurt.

Why was Hakkai still here?

" I can't love you."

Why not? You loved her, you love...him. Gojyo sighed and scratched his head. He was puzzled, confused, not really sure what to say or do.

It was a heavy silence in the house. Hakkai sighed too, and set the cutting knife on the cutting board. He walked into the living room and got his jacket. Hakuryuu perked up.

Hakkai smiled at the white dragon and said, " Come on."

Hakuryuu flew over and perched himself on Hakkai's wrist.

" W-Where are you going?" Gojyo asked curiously.

" Out." Hakkai said.

" I would change for you." Gojyo blurted out. Hakkai looked at Gojyo worriedly. Did this really hurt him that much?

" Gojyo..." Hakkai sighed, sitting Hakuryuu back where he was. He walked over to Gojyo and kneeled down, holding Gojyo's wrists. Gojyo's fists balled up tightly.

" I would, I would change for you." Gojyo said, " I would never go out again for you."

" Gojyo...we've tried, so many times." Hakkai whispered, " But you've never changed."

" But I'll do it this time, I'll try." Gojyo pleaded.

Hakkai's eyebrows knitted, " So you haven't tried before?"

Gojyo caught himself, " No." He shook his head, " That's not what I meant."

" Gojyo." Hakkai sighed, " I can't love you."

" You don't mean that." Gojyo said, taking Hakkai's hands, " I know you don't."

Hakkai sighed, this was horrible, of course he didn't mean it. Gojyo couldn't make eye contact with Hakkai, but tried. Gojyo leaned down and kissed Hakkai softly. Hakkai pulled away, more harshly then he wanted to, and he could almost see Gojyo's heartbreak.

" Why, Gojyo?" Hakkai sighed.

" I thought-"

" I can't love you!" Hakkai said sharply. " We've tried over and over again and I'm tired, and you are too. If it hasn't worked this many times, it never will."

Gojyo looked away and let go of Hakkai's hands, " Okay, go to him then."

" What?"

" That's where you were going, right?" Gojyo said sharply. " To him."

Hakkai looked away, " Yes."

" Go then." Gojyo shrugged. " You can stay with him now. The monkey can come live with me."

Hakkai looked at Gojyo before he left and shook his head. " I'm sorry."

" I know you are." Gojyo said.

" So sorry." Hakkai whispered.

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A/N: Wow, some deeeeeeeeeep stuff.