A MEMORY IN PRESENT TIME

flyaway213

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I sat there, my head bowed low, when it happened. The vehicle stopped, just as time seemed to, and I felt nothing as I looked up. There stood a being dressed in the suit Lelouch once wore, as he murdered thousands to sit on the throne.

The man used skill, a skill I would never be able to have with my weak, powerless legs. He jumped, dodged, hit until he was right before me. I leaned back, fear and confusion in my heart.

Before I knew it, he was before big brother, sword drawn back in an attempt to attack, to kill. His knees bent as he pushed himself forward, sword piercing Lelouch through.

Yet again, a silence and all froze. I had no feeling, a numbness as big brother flipped down the ramp, lying beside me, his life's blood smeared all over. His hand, the hand I reached out to, was drenched in blood, "Big brother?"

Our fingers touched and I felt a flash, as if reliving a long-lost memory. Lelouch. Suzaku. Together. A throne. A mask. A smile. Realization. Feelings, so many feelings, rushed through me and I felt as if I were floating as I grasped his pale, bloody hand to my chest.

"It can't be…." I saw the faint smile upon big brother's lips, his warm, violet eyes seeming unseeing. "Big brother…you were…all along…." I could not say a proper sentence as I looked down upon my big brother and I knew: He did all of this for me!

Tears, warm, salty, came to my eyes as I felt his cold, sticky hand in mine. I had to let him know, I had to make sure he knew.

"Oh, big brother! I love you!" I closed my eyes as I heard his voice, quiet, so unlike big brother.

"Yes…I….," he had trouble breathing, having to take deep breathes between words. "destroy…worlds…." Yes, he has destroyed worlds. My world is destroyed without him. "create…worlds…," he muttered out, as though they were the most important words, words I had to know.

Then, I felt it, as tears fell down my cheeks. The strength he had-gone. I opened my eyes to find his closed, no rising of chest, no life. Dead.

No! "Big brother!" I called out, hoping upon hope that he would open his eyes and smile; to tell me that everything was all right.

"No! Open your eyes!" Why? Why! Lelouch, my big brother, my everything was gone. I could only shout out his title: "Big brother!" Over and over. I heard nothing else as I cried into his corpse.

"This is unfair," I cried to him. "I would've been happy just being with you, big brother," all our times together. I was so happy! Now, he was gone.

I felt as if something heavy was pressing down on my chest, something just too strong for me to lift, "I can't bear a future without you, big brother…I just can't…."

My cries grew to sobs as the people around us cheered for Zero like a deity, the murderer of my precious big brother. No. The one who did only as Lelouch asked. Suzaku, our friend, the one who I once wished to walk down the aisle to.

But, alas, no matter who was behind that afeared mask. It wasn't going to change the sight before me. It wasn't going to change back the tick's and tock's of time. Big brother was dead, only a memory in my heart. Big brother was dead, and that's all he will ever be.

I wrote this in the middle of the night after staying up all night the night before so it may not be the best. I will be uploading my 'Ties to the Coin' soon, even possibly my 'Flip to the Coin' but I'm not sure on that. Anyways, please review and favorite, if you like it. If not, constructive criticism is always nice