Previously on criminal minds

"You're incapable of love, Cabe. It's who you are" in the distance

Hotch's voice echoed through the building

"ELENA!" Elena looked towards the door but then had an unbearable pain surge through her stomach. looking down and she saw a large dagger going through her stomach and out of my back.

"I need you to do something for me"

"What"

"There's something in my desk addressed to Reid. Give it to him, be there for him"

"No, Elena! Come on, stay with me… If you can hear me, please just squeeze my hand" Trying as best she could she gave Hotch's hand a gently squeeze

"Yes, there you go. There you go. Just keep squeezing… where the hell are my Medics"

The team waited and waited and waited until Hotch came into the waiting room. The team got up and started asking questions but he didn't answer, instead he slowly made his way towards Reid with tears in his eyes. Knowing what he was going to say Reid felt his heart break into a million pieces. lip quivering and a tear escaped

"No" Hotch took a deep breath before saying

"She never made it off the table" the others started to cry when Reid's legs gave out. Hotch grabbed him and just held him as he cried

"Spencer, I am so sorry"

"No she can't be gone, not again. Please not again"

A female nurse wearing Purple scrubs walked in with a chart in her hand. He eyes lit up as she saw her patient awake

"Nice to see you alive Agent Miller"

"Where am I, Please?" Elena cried out, for the hundredth time. She had been trapped in the bed for days and no one would tell her what was going on, no one had spoken to her unless asking her if she was in any pain.

"Please" Elena Whimpered as she relaxed back into the bed, her body limp and incredibly sore.

Shutting her eyes, Elena tried to block everything out but as soon as her eyes closed, all she could see was Reid.

"Elena" a familiar voice calls out shaking her from her thoughts

"Hmm" she mumbled opening her eyes. The first thing her eyes landed on was Aaron Hotchner who was standing beside her bed, the sight of her boss made her smile

"Hey Hotch" you could hear the excitement in her voice.

"How are you feeling?" Hotch asked sounding as serious as ever. Elena gave him a weak thumbs up before the room fell into silence. Hotch looked at Elena before saying

"I'm so sorry Elena"

"For what Hotch?"

"I should have had someone with you at all times, then you wouldn't have been able to sneak off. You're here because of me"

"It's okay Hotch, I'm really hot headed and stubborn you couldn't change my mind" Elena held his hand for reassurance.

After a moment Elena said

"How's Reid?"

"He could be better"

"Can I see him?" Hotch shook his head before admitting

"Elena, everyone thinks you're dead" confusion swept over her as she said

"What's going on Hotch" after getting no response she called

"Hotch" Hotch looked down before saying

"I had no choice. They're still out there and they will try this again. I had to do it I had to protect you" Elena soon cottoned on to what he was saying

"Where am I going?"

"I don't know, it's the better that way. You will be put into the program, and given a handler. He will arrange for you to be relocated and set you up with a new identity. You will stay in the program until we can assure that we have everyone working with and for Cabe" Elena stopped and the room fell silent again. After a minute Hotch said

"I should go" he turned and started walking out of the room only to be stopped when Elena called

"Hotch wait" Hotch turned and said

"I'll keep an eye on Reid. Make sure he's safe"

"thank you"

"I'll see you soon, Elena"

"I'll see you soon, Aaron" Hotch then turned around and left the room, he left Elena alone in the white private hospital room.

1 week later

Reids P. O.V

I haven't brought myself to go back to the flat after what happened, so I've been staying with Morgan. I haven't been able to sleep since that day and all I want is for this pain to stop. Today is the day I've been dreading, today is Elena's funeral. Currently I'm sat on the edge of the bed, wearing a black suit. I couldn't

stop my mind from wandering.

"Reid" I was snapped out of my thoughts when Morgan knocked on my door. I wiped my eyes and got up. I walked towards the mirror, grabbed my tie and said

"Yeah" seconds later the door opened and he walked in. His face had sorrow and sadness written all over it. He came up behind me and said

"The others are here" I tied my tie before saying

"I'll be down in a sec" he looked at me for a moment before saying

"Come on, Kid. Talk to me"

"I'm fine Morgan"

"Okay, if you're fine then I'm more worried" I let my tie go and said

"I never got to ask her"

"Ask her what?"

"I was going to ask her to move in with me"

"Oh man, when were you going to…"

"We were going to go out for dinner but then everything happened" he placed hand on my shoulder and said

"Why didn't you say anything" I just shrugged and felt a tear fall down my face. Without hesitating he pulled me into a brotherly hug.

"I miss her so much"

"I know you do, Kid. I know"

"Derek, I barely survived the last I lost her. I don't know if I can do that again" he pulled out of the hug, kept both hands on my shoulders and said

"Hey listen to me, I know what you went through last time but it made you stronger. You are one of the strongest people I know and I know you'll get through this. We are all here for you, okay. If you ever start craving again, we're only a phone call away"