Rating: PG

Disclaimer: The song is 'Hear You Me' by Jimmy Eat World and I don't own Crossing Jordan or Stargate SG-1

Summary: I just really hate my muse Antigone

Pairing: Could be Jordan/Woody or Sam/Jack depending on where you're reading. My muse Antigone makes me write some dark, sad things.

He stood, surrounded by friends, in the small room. Outside was light drizzle in the afternoon. 'Dark and dreary,' he thought 'seems appropriate'

There's no one in town that I know

You gave us someplace to go

I never said thank you for that

I thought I might get one more chance

As much as he wanted to concentrate on what was going on around him he just couldn't. In a way he didn't want to focus on what was going on.

What would you think of me now

So luck so strong so proud

I never said thank you for that

And now I'll never have a chance

Maybe he could pretend none of it happened; that nothing happened to her. Maybe if he pretended it didn't happen she would still be here.

May angels lead you in

Here you meet my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

No… that didn't work. He had tried it already. It only causes more problems. But on the other hand he couldn't just forget about her either. After all he was the reason she was dead.

Now what would you think of me now

So lucky so strong so proud

I never said thank you for that

And now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in

Here you meet my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

She was dead because he couldn't protect her. He couldn't keep her from getting shot. He had saved her so many times and she gets shot once. Not even the doctor could help her.

If you were with me tonight

Sing to you just one more time

Song for a heart so big

God couldn't let it live

They had just admitted their feelings. It wasn't fair. He was finally happy - they were happy and now it's all over.

May angels lead you in

Here you meet my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

May angels lead you in

Here you meet my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

He leaned down at her casket and whispered "I love you. Always", kissed her cheek and wiped away a stray tear before going to talk with his friends.

The End

Damn, even writing it made me cry.