I wonder:

How am I supposed to be humble and be direct about God to all unbelievers? They are complete opposite words.

Webster defines Humble as: low in condition, rank, or position; lowly; unpretentious; make modest or low in pride

Webster defines Direct as: Straightforward and to the point

I wonder how to be straightforward and modest at the same time.

I wonder:

How can I give all my anxieties and worries to God? I feel as though I must take control of my life or it will take control of me. Therefore, I must try to handle my problems alone.

But than the Bible says, "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." *1 Peter 5:7* and I have to wonder what that means.

Does it mean: Sit around and pray all day and you will be given everything you need through God? Tell God everything you find you can't handle on your own and he will tell you what to do about it, but you must follow what he is saying in your heart?

I wonder:

If so many people are lost in this world, where is God? Sometimes I can't seem to find him through the war, destruction, and confusion of this world. I wonder, God, are you there? Do you see what is happening down here to your earth and your creatures and your creations? When are you going to make the war end?

But than the Bible says, "War will continue until the end, and desolations have been decreed."*Part of Daniel 9:26*

And I wonder, how could you let your creations destroy the earth? I know you have the power to stop it, so why don't you, dear lord? Why don't you help us?

I wonder:

Why should we, as humans, live by the Ten Commandments? When they were made, the world was so different. There was no divorce, women were not allowed careers, and there was no television, computers, or any really technical devices. The world has changed so much, how can those laws still apply today? Shouldn't the rules be changed to fit the world of today?

But than I realize the world hasn't really changed all that much. There was still lust, still sex and scandal. So how much has the world actually changed?

I wonder these things as I sit here, in my nice, warm home with food, clothes, a computer and blankets to keep me warm even though I know some families are out there in the world freezing to death, starving to death, and even working full days for just one meal. I feel terrible, but I really can't figure out how to help. And people tell me that because I am a Christian; shouldn't I be able to help these people? Won't God help these people?

Here I have to say what my grandfather used to say. "The best players are always on the bleachers."

I am really sick of people mocking Christianity. Really tiered of trying to explain to them that even though I am a Christian, that doesn't mean I am any better than them.

Have you ever seen a flock of geese fly overhead? They are always in a perfect V, so as to know which direction to fly. Year after year they fly this way, leaving every winter and returning every spring. And I'm not sure they know why they are flying this way, it is just their instinct. And as they fly, they don't ever think of wandering off, or of trying to make it by themselves. They just follow, without questioning their leader.

Geese are simple animals, not as complicated as humans. And many may say, "They are birds, they have small brains, how can they doubt?" But why can't humans fly in this way? Why can't we go through life, following God and never wandering or turning from him? God is showing us EXACTLY how to get out of this hell we call earth and go on to a greater eternity. But instead of following him, we all must stop along the way and look around. We all ask, ok, where are we? I know that I can get by in this world by myself, so why am I following you? Let me try to do this alone.

And nobody can. Because even if you have the most successful life imaginable, you can never find Heaven unless you stay with God.

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*A/N- I realize this is a bit scattered. It's just what I have been wondering and concluding for the longest time. Why is it so hard to follow God? My whole life has been showing me how it can be hard to follow God. But I always end up coming back to him. Because he's the only one who I know can help me out of all the messes I get myself into. And the truth is, the world is mean. And all I have is faith. And Faith is only faith when it's all you're hanging onto.