A\n: I know that I need to update my other stories, but I got this idea, and it wouldn't go away. Note: the term freshy isn't my idea I got it from Moonlight- I wish it were still on TV.
Disclaimer: Do I look like Mrs.\Ms. Smith? I DON'T OWN THE VAMPIRE DIARIES.
Elena:
Is it possible to get addicted to the way you feel when bitten by a vampire? I am. And not only that, but to one vampire in particular… I have tried for years to deny the fact I am addicted to anything. That I was still Elena Gilbert with Stephan the Vampire boyfriend. It would be easier to be addicted to drugs. Cause at least then I could possibly get help. Yet since that first time I haven't been able to get enough. The feeling- the high, and the glimpse of the mind of the guy that I shouldn't love, but do with every inch of my beating heart. Every time we are alone I scum to nothing, and become his possession. I want to stop it. I don't want to stop it. My mind is so confused. I am not in control of myself- my body shakes, and spasms when I just think about my next donation. To my own personal blood bank… I am not addicted to the bite, or the sensation of my blood flowing fast, and the loss of breath, which is amazing, but the guy that does this to me.
The way that his mind is full of stories packed with pain, love, hope, and betrayal… The way that he no longer keeps me out of his mind… The way we can have conversations with each other without speaking a single word. The way I can read his memories, and understand him now.
Stephan still has no idea. I am really good at hiding it. The late nights- the secrets, and inside jokes Damon, and I share. Damon doesn't seem to care to an outsider that we have to hide our relationship of donor\freshy to vampire. But I know it bugs him the we hide behind the mask of the night sky, and Stephan's denial. It bugs me too- not only do I want to be his Freshy from now to eternity, but also I want to be more than his donor with benefits. I want to be his Princess of Darkness. For me to be his reason for continuing to be… Cause he is mine. Yet, everyday I put up my act of the popular, girl with the hottie good guy boyfriend. And every night he comes to my window, and I let him in. One day will come, and it will be Damon on my arm during the day, and laying in bed with me at night. When I will be come eternally his princess of darkness, and he my prince.
