I knew I shouldn't but I did. Ever since I saw him in that warehouse I knew I needed him. Maybe it was opposite of Stockholm Syndrome. No, that doesn't make sense. Loads of people I have saved have been attracted to me. It is normal. But normal it is just women and I have to say occasionally I take advantage of them. I have had men flirt with me but I have never been tempted. Not once.
Until now.
But the thing is I am certain he doesn't like me the same way. I don't even think he has any sexual desires. Technically he doesn't even have a gender. Only when he is in a meat suit, a vessel. Does that make it better? Wanting to get with someone with no gender?
I don't think he likes me much anyway. I didn't act like I was grateful after he pulled me from the depths of Hell. I was great full. He saved me from becoming what I hate most. A demon. I hate them with a passion burning hotter then Lucifer's cage and that is hot. How Sam manages to work with one... oh yeah... Sam is a dick.
Damn! I need to stop thinking about him. If I were a teenage girl my diary would be filled cover to cover with his name... Castiel... My angel...
