Eight months into the story

The loneliness was numbing, yet painful all at the same time. It suffocated her like a snake and didn't release its hold on her until she was at her last breath, then it released her. But, don't worry it always came back-right when she thought she was better. She was never better. It was strange, how could Lucy feel this way about him- it seemed like all her 'friends' wondered the same thing. They just didn't understand, or know about any of the things that happened; only Lucy would ever know. Well, besides Bella, but she only knew the surface of the story. However, Bella did know how it felt to keep the secrets, how she had to tell lies, but nobody knew about the feelings she had to hide. But, Lucy didn't mind, since they were something that the world-no Lucy- wasn't even prepared for, the lies protected her family, and the feelings cosseted her heart.

But, without him the loneliness she hadn't felt since she was fourteen came back. It surrounded her and left Lucy feeling vulnerable. All she could do was let that shadow creep around her and surround her soul, until it finally suffocated her and left her in a shell. Like it did to her, to Bella. To them, her 'friends', all it looked like was a girl with a strange infatuation with a guy, to Lucy that wasn't even close to the real story. The story Lucy was going to tell about him. The story about the tragic love between Lucy Maves and Him- Jasper.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE TWILIGHT SERIES OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, LOCATIONS, STORIES, MOVIES, MUSIC, OR ANYTHING MENIONED THAT IS NOT MY OC'S. I ONLY OWN MY OC'S, SO FAR IT IS ONLY LUCY MAVES MENTIONED. SHE IS MY CHARACTER.

*IMPORTANT* this entire chapter, and story, were all revised as of February 5th 2014.

A/N: This entire story is an edited version of my original story. The chapters are basically the same, running by the same plot for each, but there are very obvious differences. I changed the POV, from first to third. I felt like I write better that way and it helped me get more details into Lucy's emotions, movements, home, appearance. I'm sorry if you don't like it, I only did it so I could make this the best story possible for you guys, and you guys are amazing and deserve the best that I can give.

Virtual hugs. Happy Reading! :)