This is just something that has been milling around my head for a couple of days. I wanted to write something where it showed the regret Brittany felt after rejecting Santana. This could potentially turn in to a multi-chapter letter fic if there is enough interest. For those of you reading my other story Labels That One Word Carries Too Much Weight: it will be updated either Monday or Tuesday. Let me know what you think. xShay

Dear Santana,

I don't really know what happened today… I can't really explain how I feel and now I have ended up hurting you… All I need to know is why you didn't tell me all this even after all the chances you had? I just don't understand at all… maybe I am being stupid but I just don't know what to think.

I know you probably don't even want to talk about this after I turned you down for Artie, but you have to know that it's not right for me to break up with him because you have decided you're ready now. I know that sounds harsh but I care about him too. If you do want to talk about it you have to know that I am here… I am, Santana. No matter what you may think of me now. Whether it is 4 in the morning or 2 in the afternoon, I am here.

Seeing the look on your face made my heart shatter in to a million pieces and I don't even know what to say that will bring you some sort of peace… Is there anything I can say?

You once told me that you didn't feel good enough for anyone but I am here to tell you that you're wrong. We may not be able to be together at this very moment but I want you to know that you ARE good enough for me, you always have been. You are perfect in my eyes San and I don't want what was said today to make you doubt that because it will never change.

I couldn't actually make a list of all the things that make you perfect in my eyes but I am going to try because then you will begin to see yourself the way I see you. I need you to know how much you mean to me.

You ALWAYS listen to everything I say and you are one of the few people who really hear me.

You make it seem like you don't care about others but I have seen the way you protect the ones you love (even if you pretend not to like them, like the Glee Club).

No matter how much you deny it you really are a good person.

The way that, even though I know it makes you feel uncomfortable, you hold my hand in the darkness after we have been together

The way you look at me when you think no one is paying attention.

You don't care what anyone everyone thought of me or what you heard you still made the effort to get to know me.

The way you hold me – when I am in your arms I feel as though nothing can hurt me and everything I worry about seems to disappear for a little while.

Even when there is nothing you can do about the things that upset me you do everything in your power to make it go away.

Your real smile. I know you will try and say that all your smiles are real but I know the truth. There is one smile… a smile that melts my heart every time. It's the only smile that truly reaches your eyes and it's when we catch eyes from across the room.

Even when we have been apart for 5 minutes, if I text you, you always reply.

You're the only person who truly understands me.

The fact that you are so protective of me and will tear anyone down who tries to hurt me

The way that you are with my little sister and how you're not embarrassed to be a dork with her.

The way that you let your true self come out when we are together.

Most important – You make me feel like I mean something to someone for once.

These are just some of the things that make you perfect in my eyes Tana… if you need to hear why I love you I could go on forever. I never stop finding new things about you that make me love you more.

I started this letter with the intention of letting you know that I still care despite what you think after what happened but instead I realised that I made a huge mistake today. You have no idea how sorry I am that I hurt you today and I am going to do anything to make this right… and hopefully I will one day. I would do anything to take those words back… ANYTHING.

I wish I had really listened to what my heart was saying and not made you feel like I was pushing you away because that was never my intention. I would never do that because I rely on you and need you in my life and close to me. Sometimes my emotions overwhelm me and I don't know what to say or do and end up going with what I think is right at the time which, later on, is never what I should have done.

I am so frustrated right now because I don't know how to put in to words how much you mean to me… I wish I did have the words, but I don't… so you are just going to have to trust me when I say that I was wrong and would do anything to fix this… You name it and I'll do it. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me Santana… because I realise now what I should have realised when you were standing in front of me… I want to be with YOU and only you.

I love you, Santana. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone else in this world. Wait for me, please. Wait for me like I waited for you all these years. We will be together soon… I realise now, that I CAN'T NOT be with you. Wait for me and I will stand by your side, proudly so.

Forever yours, with everything that I am.

Brittany S. Pierce

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