Well, this is my first fanfic ever, and in English! It starts a bit slow but you can't expect a story to be amazing in the beginning right? I'm sorry if I made any spelling mistakes or something, so just let me know when you find some. Thank you for reading! R&R! :)
´No Stefan, I can´t pretend I´m happy any longer! I don´t want to!´ I screamed at the man I loved with tears in my eyes. He looked at me with his sad green eyes and his hand reached out for me but I ignored it. ´You chose this life, you chose to be a vampire! What choice did I have? And now you expect me to go along with this crazy life?' I've never lashed out at anyone like this, I never thought Stefan would be the one to trigger this hidden part of me. 'Elena..' He sighed and looked at me with eyes full of regret. I knew I wasn't being fair, but I couldn't help myself. Stefan tried to help me, make my life a bit easier now I was a vampire, but after a few months I realized this wasn't what I wanted and as soon as I realized that I felt something inside of me change. I needed space, time to think. I couldn't trust my emotions any more, now everything was heightened. 'I'm sorry, I know this isn't what you wanted, but I know you can get through this, if you just let me help you.' His voice was shaking, and I could see he was holding back the tears I've caused. I shook my head. 'No Stefan, I need time to think. I just need some alone time, I have to know if I can stand on my own feet.' When Stefan realized what I was saying, pain shot across his face, I knew I was hurting him but I had to go through with this. 'Don't go Elena, I just got you back..' he whispered and he took one step closer. I bit my lip, something I always did when I was nervous. 'I'm sorry, Stefan. I have to go.' I took one deep breath and said something I still hated myself for. 'If you really love me, you let me go. We'll find our way back to each other I promise. After all, we´re vampires right? We've got forever.' I took his hand in mine and squeezed it. Then I let go and ran out of the room, not wanting to look back and saw Stefan's devastated look.
I opened my eyes, and felt tears rolling down my cheeks. I was just gone for a couple of weeks but I felt so guilty. I didn't even say goodbye to Damon, not like he would care but still. I sat down on the beach and felt the sand between my toes, it made me feel a little bit normal again. Every two days I would call Jeremy, just to hear how he's holding up. He's the only one I want to talk to, cause I am the one responsible for him now that Ric is dead.. I wrote a letter to Damon and Stefan, pouring my heart out. They both tried calling me, Stefan more than Damon. I didn´t want to stay in America, so I fled to England, hoping I could start a new life abroad. I dyed my hair blonde, and wore colored contacts, so my eyes were now green. I loved this beach, I found an empty house near to it and I came here every day just to get my mind clear. I stole some blood bags from the hospital, hoping they wouldn´t notice. I´ve met some people here and I even got into college. This is my new life, I shut out all my emotions pretending I didn´t feel my heart aching. But it felt okay, England was amazing. I missed my friends like crazy but I started to get used to it. My name was Elena Gilbert, but you may call me Rose Belikov. New name, new life.
