A/N: I don't know what this is, just Serena and Nate's thoughts after the breakup.
She needs time.
Her heart is hurting and her head is lost. She's been trying to forget but she can't.
She knows she is the one who broke it off, but only temporarily. She may have broken the relationship, but he broke her heart. And right now, she's starting to doubt whether it will ever mend itself again.
Her attempts of staying strong are faltering and she knows that she's trying to move on, but it's more complicated and it's a lot more difficult and she doesn't know who to turn to.
Dan is now in Haiti with Vanessa, Blair is in France with her father and Chuck is in Prague, most likely with a hoard of girls. She has no one and no one has her.
She wishes she could start over, that he could be her salvation but life doesn't work that way and she knows it.
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She tells him that trying to heal, trying to better herself but he doesn't understand and so he leaves her. He doesn't want to wait. It's all he's done for the past god know's how many years of his life, and he doesn't want to keep waiting.
He's not sure why she doesn't protest, but she doesn't. She just tells him what he wants his fair, kisses him on his temple and walks away without a second glance. It makes him debate whether her feelings were ever really as strong for him as they were for her.
He'll never know because he's lost his chance. He gave it up.
And no matter how much he says he doesn't want to wait for her, the truth is he would wait until the end of time.
He loves her.
