Okay, so this is my first fanfic, so please be kind. I apologize for any grammatical errors. I hope you enjoy it and reviews are welcome, I do not know exactly why I did it, but I could not get that part of my head so enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy and not to have any kind of affiliation with ABC.

Sadness

That's what I feel when I see Derek in elevators, I'm tired that day, I just want it to end soon so I can go home and sleep, whenever I enter the elevator I give the guy with Derek, but okay when it is only because I can ignore it, but this afternoon was different when I got it was making me talk to him and I probably would have said if his wife had not come just in time.

I was head down, his hand resting on stop waiting for the elevator doors opened, after what seemed like a million years they parted to reveal the man I love leaning against the wall brings, but something was different about him his eyes were sadder, he had lost the air of arrogant, he just looked at me, he forced me to talk to him, he was different from other times.

I entered the elevator, and I was back to Derek, I sighed and finally spoke.

"I miss you." I could hear him moving behind me, but I did not know exactly what he is doing until I felt him behind me, will be a breath of touching the rear of my neck after several long minutes he finally spoke.

"I miss you too much, but I'm married, so I can not, but Meredith know that I love you too, so let me try to fix things with Addison and please forgive me for choosing wrong, just because I chose to try to save my marriage does not mean I do not love you because I love you, I really love and I can not live with you avoiding me, Mer I can not live without you in my life, I can not live without talk to you, I can not live knowing that whenever I see you I'll have to call you ' .'. "I was ready to turn and look at him, but before the elevator stopped and he pulled back me to walk out that door and I knew the man I loved loved me too and I have to say that to him again.

"Der, I love you too." I used our name, we had decided that our names rhyme and started to call us MerDer and I loved it, I love him and he loves me too, perhaps that day is not so bad, we might still be together one day, maybe we'll get married and have many children, but all that we'll only know in the future.

That was my first fic I hope you enjoyed, I'm writing another I do not know the name yet, but stay tuned because I can post any minute.