A/N: So I'm actually starting another story. I've been wanting to write lately and this is what came to mind so far. I know there's already been ideas of Bella being a vampire and meeting a human Edward, but this is my version.

This story will be told in Bella's POV. She's a vampire living with Carlisle and Esme. Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett won't be seen until later chapters.

Yes, this story is rated M. Lemons and such won't be until later chapters. So don't expect them to hop to it so soon.

Remember to review and tell me what you think so far! The reviews will help me work faster and see what I need and want to do.

If you see any problems or spelling mistakes just tell me. I'm writing this all on my own and I might have missed a few spots.

I hope you enjoy this first chapter!

-I don't own Twilight or any of the characters.


I love the taste of lemonade. It has this sweet and tangy flavor that I can't get over. Lemons, however, are a different story. I had a taste of one once, about ten years ago, and I've never set my tongue on one again. I have to be careful out in public if I'm craving the taste of lemonade, like I am today, so that no one will stare and get strange ideas. It's not like I can't drink lemonade, I certainly can, but it's a horrible ordeal having it set at the bottom of my stomach and then having to puke it back up.

I lifted the red plastic cup to my lips and brushed my tongue against the liquid drink. A group of boys, probably at the age of fifteen, walked slowly by the bench I was resting on and looked me up and down. I rolled my eyes and lifted the cup back to my mouth to take another taste. As soon as they walked past they started talking in hushed voices thinking I couldn't hear them.

"Damn, did you see that chick?

"Her hair is just yelling 'fuck me'."

"I think I need to go to the bathroom..." I sighed and rolled my eyes once more. Humans could be so pathetic at times. One of the shorter boys turned around and gave me one last glance. The slight sent of arousal hit my nose nearly causing me to drop my drink in disgust. Sad to say, this happened quite often.

Being around humans was simple for me. Ever since I was turned into this creature I never really had the urge to attack humans, sink my teeth into their necks, and suck out every ounce of blood from their bodies. I never wanted to kill humans. I never wanted to be a monster.

I stood up and tossed the cup, still full of lemonade, into the trash can. At times I would look at myself as a monster. It's hard to live in this world and wonder if there's someone who'll be willing to stick with you for a lifetime. It's hard to imagine myself being this way throughout my entire existance. I can't help but to ponder over the fact if I'll ever be truly happy. It's not that I'm not happy, it's just that I'm, well...lonely. It's common for my kind to have a mate. In all my years of living I have yet to come across someone that I could love. I have yet to find out if I even have the ability to love in that sort of way.

I walked down the park's path, past the children playing and laughing near the swingset, and headed towards my parked car. I knew that I could love in some sort of way. Just like how I loved Carlie like a father, like how I loved Esme as a mother. Since the beginning of my change they've been there for me. They helped me figure out how to function in life. They helped me learn the ways of living like who we are.

I finally reached my vehicle and opened the door. I slid into the seat and started the engine. I pulled the seatbelt over my chest and buckled in. Even though it wasn't needed, it was a habit I quickly picked up. I pulled out of the parking place and began to drive down the road until I reached the slow moving highway. At times I found myself jealous of Carlisle and Esme's relationship. They've been together for nearly fifty years and they're still madly in love with eachother. No matter how ironic it sounds, I would would die for that kind of thing. I can tell they've noticed a sad depression creeping up inside me over the past years. Lately I've just sat alone in my room with nothing to do but re-read countless of books that have already been worn at the edges. Yet these past couple of years I find myself driving around, going to coffee shops or the mall, a place where I can just wonder around. I even question myself why I've been doing this. Carlisle believes I'm in need of some sort of social life. Esme agrees with him. I, on the other hand, think I'm searching for that one person in which I can love. That one person who can honestly say that they love me back. What would happen if I was to perhaps come upon this person? I havn't met any new people of my species lately, and I fear I never will find one who I'll want to spend the rest of eternity with.

I eased my foot slightly on the pedal causing the car to speed up at least ten miles over the speed limit. Esme would be wondering where I've been. It's been nearly three days since I've been home. It's time like these when I just need time to myself. I reached the long driveway that led up to our house and turned my car into it. I let out an uneeded breath of air and parked my car into the driveway. I stepped out and walked to the front door at a human pace.

"Where have you been?" My body was incircled by Esme's arms as she tugged me close into fierce hug. The corners of my mouth lifted as I wrapped my arms around her waste in return.

"Just off roaming around, Esme. I just needed a couple days to myself." She tugged my arm and led me into the house.

"You always say you need a couple days to yourself. You can have a couple days to yourself right here in this house." She turned her head around and glanced at me as she led us into the living room. "You know it drives me insane when you just go off and leave like that without telling me." I mumbled an apology and sat down on the leather couch. Esme took a spot next to me and patted my hand.

"You know Carlisle and I are always here for you if you need anything." I sighed and leaned into the arm rest.

"I know, Esme. It's just, lately I've been feeling..." I trailed off and chewed on my bottom lip, a habit I've had since I was human.

"I can understand how you're feeling, Bella." Carlisle took a seat in the chair next to the couch. "Before I found Esme, I felt as if nothing could change the feeling of loneliness inside me. Someone will come along for you. You'll know when you meet them." His face turned into a sad smile. "But you don't have to run off searching for him, Bella. Fate never stares you right in the face." I wrung my hands together at his words. I couldn't help but to doubt them. It was silent for a while until Carlisle cleared out his throat.

"For now, I think it's best if you enrolled in school." My head shot up and my mouth dropped in shock.

"School?! Carlisle, you can't be serious. I havn't been in school since..." Carlisle shot me a look and I knew I hardly had a choice in the matter.

"Bella, we just think this is best for you. Maybe you can breach out and make new friends." I scoffed at Esme's words.

"Make new friends?" My words came out harsh as my anger started to rise. "What kind of person would want to be friends with a, with a vampire!" I grinded my teeth together. "I don't need to go to school. I'm perfectly fine with how things are now. Anyways, wouldn't we have to move to be able for me to go to school?" Carlisle ran his hands through his hair in fustration.

"Bella, we all know you aren't fine. You can't continue living as though you mean nothing. You need to do something." He stood up and grabbed a small stack of papers laying on the coffee table. "And we have thought about moving. To here." He pushed the papers into my hand. I looked down to see a picture of an old mansion that set upon a hill. It was set on a fairly large set of land and was surrounded in trees that led to a forrest. I looked at where the house was located and snorted.

"Forks?" Carlisle nodded and took the papers back away from me.

"It seems ideal for us. It's hardly ever sunny there, lots of rain and clouds. One of the most rainiest cities, in fact. The town is small, as is the school. You shouldn't have much trouble joining in there." He sat back down in the chair. "Plus they have a nice looking hospital and the land is large enough for Esme to start herself a new garden." As much as I'd like to disagree, the plan sounded perfect. I could literally feel the excitement radiating off of Esme as the thoughts of her gardening again came to topic.

"And the hunting?" I questioned. Carlisle grinned from ear to ear.

"Not a problem. Deer, wolves, and bears are surrounding the place. We'll have no trouble keeping up our thirsts." I stood up from my spot on the couch.

"So should I start packing now?" Esme leaped up and kissed my cheek.

"Oh, Bella! Things will start turning up for you, you'll see!" She turned around and headed to her room. Carlisle chuckled as we began to hear the sounds of her moving stuff around putting things into boxes to start packing.

"It won't be as bad as you think, Bella. Maybe you'll actually like it." He winked at me and headed to his room to join Esme. I stood there in the living room for a moment before heading off to start packing myself. I went to my closet and grabbed a couple of suitcases out of the back.

School. In all these years of being a vampire school was one of those things I didn't even dare to think about. A vampire going to school? With humans? That was unheard of. I felt something tighten in my chest causing me to shudder. I moved towards my dresser and glared at my reflection. Could I actually be nervous?


A/N:

I havn't wrote many stories on here. Usually I end up forgetting and leaving them left behind, but I really want to finish this story.

I hope you enjoyed this first snippet. Later chapters will be longer, this is just something to get out there.

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