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I let out a sigh as I played my keyboard. I look over at Hiroshi and see that his face has the same upset look on it that mine does. I look over at Shuichi and see that although this is a happy, upbeat, dance song we're recording he sounds like he's about to cry.

"All right what the fuck is wrong with you today?" A loud voice called out. I looked up to see K standing over Shuichi with his magnum drawn.

"It's Yuki again. He kicked me out yesterday." Shuichi sobbed into the tall blond man's chest.

"As often as that happens you shouldn▓t be phased by it. You're pretty much worthless for today so I'll let you three go." He said gesturing the door of the recording booth with his gun.

Shuichi ran out of the booth followed by K but I stayed to pack up my keyboard. I looked over at Hiroshi zipping his guitar in a case. "I'm so glad I'm a single. Relationships are complications." I said to him.

"Single is no way to be forever though. It get's old after a while." He said to me.

"Not if you don't know what the other side of life is like and I don't want to know it at all." I said as I folded the legs to my synth down and put it in a bag.

"So you've never even dated?" He asked me. He had a puzzled look on his face but I just smiled.

"I've never dated, never had sex, never kissed or been kissed by anyone out side of my family and that wasn't since I was a little boy." I told him.

"What about hugs?" he asked me.

"Not since I was a little boy. Most people seem to just piss me off and I don't like them around me." I told him.

"Do I piss you off?" Hiroshi asked me.

I smiled at him and said "Your one of the few people I can stand."

He gave me a smile in return and said "That's good because I would hate it if I pissed you off."

I felt the beginnings of confusion set in. I looked at his face and saw that he had a look like he had a heavy weight lifted off of his chest. He let out a small sigh and blushed.

"Why do you care so much about what I think of you Hiroshi?" I asked him.

"Just Hiro." He said softly. I frowned. The only time I heard him use a voice this soft was when he was comforting Shuichi or when he was talking to someone he was trying to get with.

"Why, Hiro, do you care so much what I think about you?" I asked him. I was beginning to feel nervous inside of me.

There's no way in hell he's going to say what I think he's going to say. He can▓t say it. It would be wrong and impossible. There▓s no way he could be in love with me who cuts his best friend down on an almost daily basis.

"Maybe I care about you as more then a bandmate or a friend." He said.

"How can you care about someone like me that much? We're too different to work out so it would be useless to try." I told him as I went to leave the recording booth.

I felt his hand grab my arm and I turned around to face him. The shock that someone else was touching me was too much for me to take. I dropped my synth and looked him dead in the eyes.

"Let go of me." I said flatly and calmly. My tone was emotionless and dangerous just like I had seen Thoma do with so many people he was threatening but I didn▓t think I needed to threaten Hiroshi. He knew what could happen to him if he got to be a threat to me.

He let go of me but kept the eye contact. We stayed looking into each others eyes for several seconds before he looked away and said "Just tell me you'll think about it."

"There's only one thing I'm thinking about right now and I'm sure you aren▓t going to like what comes from it." I said as I left the booth. I walked down to the elevator and went to the top floor.

When the elevator arrived at the top floor, I took a look around. I went to my cousin's office and knocked on the door. "Come in." He said.

I walked into the office and saw Thoma sitting in his big leather chair overlooking the city. He turned around and looked at me.

I saw his expression change from his usual fake smile to a look of worry and slight anger. "What happened to you, Suguru?" He asked me.

"I got in to an argument with Nakano-san. He said he loved me." I told Thoma.

He looked me in my eyes and said "I can tell you have feelings for him. I don't know why you don't just admit that you love him to yourself and to him."

"I've been told by several people that they love me but there▓s only been one who I think loves me." I said firmly.

Thoma smiled at me. It wasn't one of his empty smiles he gives to the world but it was a true smile. It was the kind he saves only for those who are close to him. "Take the advice of the one person who you think loves you in this world and see if you can find it true for another." He said. I thought for several seconds before I gave a nod and went to the recording booth.

When I got there I saw K standing looking at the door with a surprised look on his face. "Were did Hiroshi go?" I asked the tall American.

K let out a sigh and said "He told me not to expect him in tomorrow and not to try to find him."

I felt surprise begin to fill my body. I though for a second about how I could affect Hiro so much. The answer hit me like a ton of bricks. "He really does care about me doesn't he?" I asked K.

"He does and you're a fool if you don't go after him. He's a good, kind man who knows how to have fun and you need someone good and kind to have fun with. I think I'll call it off tomorrow so go and try to find Hiroshi and talk to him." K told me.

I gave a nod and said "Give me his cell phone number and I'll call him." K looked at me for a second and I just laughed. "I know you have the cell phone and address for everyone in the band except for me."

K smiled and said "You're the good boy who always comes when he's supposed to so I don't need to keep you on a leash like the others."

I shook my head and said "If I didn't want to come you wouldn't find me. Be glad I don't like to play hooky."

"Eighteen turned you in to a rebel. It ruins everyone for a while. I remember when I turned eighteen." K said as he wrote something down on a paper.

"What did you do?" I asked him wondering what he could have done to rebel against his parents.

"I joined the army for a long time before I finally went to college like they told me. I met Judy and we got married. It wasn't the best way to go but I don't regret a thing."

I gave him a nod and said "It's a great thing to be as old as you are without any regrets." As I took the paper he was offering to me.

"I'm not old." K said.

"You're old enough to have fathered me as a teenager but what I mean is most people your age are drowning in a sea of regrets." I told him.

He frowned and said "Several times in a persons life they nearly drown in a sea of something."

I gave my head a shake and walked out to the parking lot. I walked through the sea of vehicles until I found my Lamborghini Galardo.

I got in, started it up, put the top down and drove home with the summer nights wind whipping through my hair

I got home, parked it in my garage, went to my living room and picked up the phone.

I dialed Hiro's cell number and pushed the talk button. It rang several times before it went to voice mail.

"It's me Hiroshi. Sorry I can't take your call right now. I'm either sleeping, being held in a studio at gun point, eating, or don't feel like talking to anyone right now so leave a message and I might get back to you." Hiro's voice said.

"Hiro it's me Suguru. I want to talk to you about today. My number is 312-1722. Call me because I was thinking we could talk about what happened at work today tomorrow over coffee or something."