Dont go

A/N: Hey guys, well the impossible has finally happened. I have posted my first fic here. About time i reckon. Anyway its a KIBBS fic, really cool, enjoy it, and let me know what you think. Thank you

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As I wrap my arms around her I realize that I have already made the biggest mistake of my life. Sure it was only an emergency blow, but I know that I have already fallen in love with this most amazing woman who is in my life. I have never really been a religious man, but I do thank god everyday that she is in my life and I treasure every moment that I get to spend with her away from the other members of the team.

My sister's husband (the mysterious red head) had just passed away and I went and attended the funeral and kept a close eye on my sister. Anyway as I walked through the bullpen in my usual don't mess with me or I'll reprimand you from here till doomsday look, I catch sight of a plain crisp white envelope sitting on my desk. When I make my way around to my desk, I can hear Tony and McGee fighting in the background but no Kate yet…..and as I think that my mind goes into a million different thoughts none of them which are interesting or productive.

When she finally turns up, she looks different somehow not different as in clothes or anything. But something just looks off like she's not herself like she is carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders and that she will break suddenly without warning. That pulls at my heart strings more than they should, but since that emergency blow happen I lost all objectives when it comes to her. And no matter how hard I try, I have to keep on hiding it from everyone especially Abby and Ducky and her. Those are the only three people on my team that can read me like a book and that feels really strange sometimes but it is something that I have to deal with. On the other hand Dinozzo and McGee can't read me like a book, those two are the two sons that I have never had nor will never want when I do eventually had children of my own. Mainly because Dinozzo is an ass and every parents of daughters nightmares, and well McGee he is about as green as an agent can be and believe me that is a bad thing.

Since Kate has finally turned up, I am able to get my attention back on to the crisp, clean white envelope sitting on my desk. It has my name scribbled on it, in Kate's hand writing. So that makes me curious as to why I have this envelope on my desk and why she hasn't spoken a word since she came into the bullpen. She hasn't even said hello to anyone. Something tells me that something is very wrong with her and I'm just dying to find out what it is. But I can't walk up to her and ask her what is wrong, nope because that would mean that she would read me like a book and find out my true feelings for her. And that just can't happen, because of rule 12 and I'm her much older boss. "Jethro, enough day dreaming" I mutter to myself and as I do so I noticed that the whole team is looking at me like I have completely lost the plot. Well most of the team, Tony and Tim are looking at me. Kate isn't, she's just sitting there working quietly and slowly looking like she is going to break down at any moment. And that really pulls on my heart and I really do feel for her. I ignore Tony and Tim while I get back at the envelope and start to open it. Inside is a letter and in the letter is Kate's resignation, the wind in my body feels like it has just been knocked out of me. Kate's quitting, shes leaving, the words just keep on going around and around inside my head. In two short weeks, she is going to be out of my life forever. "I need coffee" I mumble quietly but rather quickly as I hurray out of the bullpen and to my one refugee the little corner coffee shop up the road.

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