A/N: Here comes the next one of Darcy's not-so-private-anymore thoughts! It's pretty short, but then again there's another one coming ASAP.

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Darcy stood in his study at Pemberley and looked out across his grounds. The window was wide and clear, and gave a magnificent view of the woods and lake. It was truly a gentleman's residence.except to one person, to Darcy the most important in the world, save his sister. His eyes took on a far- off cast as he remembered that fateful evening in the Rectory at Rosings Park. Pained, he recalled every rude remark of his, his hurtful criticism of her family, and the self-confident way in which he had addressed himself to Miss Elizabeth Bennet. He had behaved atrociously, he had to admit to himself. Her reprimand still stung. '.had you behaved in a more gentleman- like manner.' The words spooked through his head. None could have been more appropriate, and none could have tortured him more, for Darcy had prided himself on being a perfect gentleman, thinking himself above all the qualities that Elizabeth had shown him to posses. He had been arrogant, vain, prideful, rude, and so standoffish that she had good reason to hate him. In a mental turmoil at the upsetting of all his wrong beliefs, he had retreated from Rosings, nonetheless reluctant to leave Elizabeth, even if he could not have her. She was so lovely, so caring, so spirited! No one could equal her. His life missed something, and he felt again the desolation that was so beautifully illustrated in myths and poems. Before he had just laughed it off, but now.now he felt that he knew the pain that the long-gone heroes and heroines must have lived through, for it afflicted him every day, and he constantly turned his thoughts towards the one thing that he would never have. 'If only' was his consistent companion, plaguing him with what might have been. And now she would never be his. Darcy gazed out sadly and sighed. *Oh, Elizabeth, if only you knew how much you matter to me! *

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Daffodil: Thank you, I do believe I will.

Mooncancer: Nah, not really. I write what I think about-that says a lot about my mind, doesn't it?

Hell's Dragon: P and P is Jane's best work! I love it too it is so good. The movie is good too (the one with 6 videos).