A/N Warnings: (yes a fan fiction with warnings already) It is a slash and it very depressing, but equally really good! READ IT! Please….

(Mortis-et-vitae) hey alls you peeps!! This is my bestest friends account and story, and it's really good!!! Trust me, I don't lie when it comes to literature.. ANYWHO… read mine one day!! Kay!!

'Dear Sora,

There are so many things I wish I could tell you to your face. Who says I can't other then myself. I want to tell you how much you mean to me. How much it hurts to be with out you every moment of everyday. I wish I could just hold you close to me and look into you gorgeous blue eyes. The same beautiful eyes that look through me and send chills up my spine. The same eyes I have to look past so you can't see how I really feel.

I am afraid you would find out how much I love your brunette locks spiked in many different direction, spontaneous, like you. Spontaneous, happy, smiling, every time I see you. You seem so much happier with out me. I watch from a distance I could see you all this time. All your mistakes and realizations. Each heartless or nobody you killed. I saw you. I was always there in the darkness…just incase you ever needed me…

You could never find me because you kept looking forward and not back. You couldn't find me because I didn't want to be found…I needed to stay away. For the fact of me loving you hurt me to badly to face you. The more I saw you the deeper I fell in to this love, this lust, no it is love. My love for you, the love I have always had for you.

Even back on Destiny Island I felt this way, but you were to bust giving Kairi your googly eyes to notice me. Not that I am offended I am a guy. I understand that you can't love me for what I am. I have even thought if only I was born a girl things would be different now, though I can't change it.

Oh how I wish you could love me like you love her. You don't know how happy I would be to be with you. To hold you, to run my fingers through your hair, to love you like I have always wanted, and not be afraid to show it. I know this will mean nothing to you, for when you receive this I will be long gone. As far away as I could possibly think.

Goodbye Sora and remember this I only did this because I love you. Have a good life, a happy life. Love someone as much as I love you and be happy. That's all I want from you.

Your Dearly Beloved,

Riku'

Riku walks slowly over to Sora's bed and places the note on his pillow. As he quietly exits the room to another just down the hall. Sitting down on a near by chair he pulls out his blade and raises it to his throat. As a sigh escapes him, slowly bring the blade closer he cuts a line across his throat. As he was bleeding to death in his loves house he whispers.

"All I wish for you is to be happier then me…" His eyes fluttered.

Sora awoke suddenly as he felt a crumple of a paper beneath his palms. He lifted the paper and say it was a note from Riku. His eyes lit up, maybe he is close by he thought. His smile wide as he began to read. His bright eye grew dimmer as he read on. Slowly the smile began to fade into a sad solemn expression. He ran out of the room in hopes to catch Riku before he was gone. Stopping dead in his tracks as he sees the blood running down Riku's neck. Sora screamed horrified at the sight he has just seen. His voice quiet and only audible to Riku he whispered,

"Why?" As in disbelief. Riku only chuckled and his eyes slowly shut. Riku sunk into a deep slumber not to be awoken again. That's the last thing Sora has to remember Riku by. A blood stained neck on a chair chuckling like a mad man.