I was walking straight home, I didn't know what was wrong with me. I had such a feeling in my heart that I couldn't ignore.. I thought of it and I couldn't understand it.. Suddenly someone grabbed my wrist.
I got scared.. It could be someone.. someone dangerous. Since the age of 13 I am really anxious. Nobody really knew what happened except from me and my dad, I never told anyone about it...for sure my friends knew that I was gone for more than 2 months but I never told them what exactly happened and they didn't overwhelmed me with that.. that's why we are friends.
I turned around while I was breathing hardly.
"Richie, Rich, it's okay. It's just me", Eddie smiled at my face, he noticed that I was truly terrified. He looked me in the eyes. Eds was smaller that me like he was years ago so he looked up to me.
Suddenly the feeling was there again.. My belly tingled, I shivered slightly, I looked into his eyes and couldn't say a word.
"Hey Rich.. u okay?" eds said with the most caring voice an Eddie could've used.
"Äähm yeah.." I responded slowly
Eddie was still holding my wrist without even noticing, he knew something was wrong, he always knew.
"Sure?"
"Sure Eds" I smiled
"You know, I hate that" he smiled too
Gosh his smile.. it's one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen.. he has freckles all over his face and beautiful brown eyes.. I could look at him forever...
"So, äähm.. I'll see you later at your's? You know, for movie night.." he interrupted the silence.. Luckily
"Yeah sure, my mum will be out" I smiled
"Okay.."
"Okay...see ya cutie" I saw Eddie blushing.. GOSH WHY DID I SAY THAT.. now I was blushing too
The whole way home I was thinking about that feeling until I suddenly realized that it was love.. simple but true love..
I was scared..
"That would mean.. that I'm gay.. FUCK IT" I thought.. I could not be gay.. I just couldn't..
