Tashigi exits her room and sees her captain once against sitting on the deck by the table with two cups and a coffee pot. She count count how many times she has seen him sitting there looking at the WANTED posters of Monkey D. Luffy or Roranora Zoro. She went over sitting down in the chair next to his seeing the second cup, her cup, was already full with hot coffee. She picks up the cup and places the edge to her lips tipping it slightly so the warm bitter liquid can enter her mouth htrough her slightly parted lips and make it's way down her throat. She shallows liquid letting it warm her body.

She removes the cup from her lips and sets it on the table infront of her. From the corner of her eye she can see her captain with his jacket or shirt and looking annoyed as ever. "Hina as well as our bosses are coming to force the promotions on us." he said answering her unspoken question.

"We refuse then we don't deserve them. Mainly me." She said looking way once again feeling assamed for the escape of the Straw Hat crew.

"Forget it. I told you to forget about." He said sternly.

"Yes, sir" She said. She quickly took another sip of coffee before standing again. "I think I need to rest more, sir." She said.

"Fine I'll wake you if needed." He said and waved her off.

She went all the way back to the door and shut it behind her then fell to her knees. 'Why?! WHY?!?! I can't have these feelings!! So why am I cursed with them?!?!' Her mind screamed as she staggered to her bed with tears falling from her face. She fell on her bed laying her head on the pillow and burying her face in the mound letting her tears be soaked in the cotton pillow case and stuffing. Untill she drifted to sleep.


"I said I won't take it and neither will Tashigi!!!" Was the yelled that broke Tashigi from her sleep and she sat up in a jolt. She went to the door immediatly and opened it. She saw Captain Chaser standing not too far from her door and Hina. She watched unnoticed by her captain with his back turned to her, but Hina's eyes moved to her.

"Is that what your admiral is crying over?" She said slyly and Smoker's head turned to look behind him at his admiral who's eyes were rim with red and puffy. Then he turned back to Hina glaring at her.

"Don't get involed. And I still don't want that promotion!!" He yelled and turned his body and walked up to Tashigi grabbing his arm as he pulled her to her room and inside closing the door behind them. He didn't bother saying anything as he let go of her arm and walked to her bed looking down at the tear soaked pillow with disgust. "Why were you crying?" he asked.

"No reason sir." She lied and saw Smoker pick up the pillow and slam it into a wall.

"If there is no reason you would not have been crying Tashigi." He said looking over at her.

"I can't tell you."

"Why?"

"I can't."

"What is it?"

"I said I can't tell you."

"I order you to tell me why you were crying!" He yelled.

She snapped.

"I was crying because I LOVE YOU!!" She yelled back tears once again stained her pale face and she quickly ran out the door before her captain could have any chance to resopond. She ran past Hina, the crew, and kept running until she had deep into the forest of the island they had stopped at for awhile to resuplly at the small town. No one went into the forest though because to the wild animals and suspision of the forest being cursed. She didn't care.

"Stupid!!" She yelled at herself and lift the sleeve of her shirt to show her forearm with many scratches and gashes running across them. None of them had come across her arm in battle. One scar for each time she thought something she shouldn't have about her caption. The scars covered the skin some begining to heal and a few almost completly gone. She pulled out a small hidden dragger and dug it into her skin tightly and running it horizontally over arm letting the blood that slipped from her cut mix with the tears dropping down her face.

She laid against the tree and let the blood pour from her arm. She hadn't realized she had cut too deep until her vision started going black. Then she couldn't do anything as she dropped unconious.


Smoker was frozen where he stood. Hina had walked inside the room and was looking expecially happy about his lose for words. "Some thing wrong?" She asked smirking.

"Shut up" Smoker said glaring over at her. "I don't have time for you." He said annoyed walking out. He needed to find Tashigi. He NEEDED to find Tashigi. He made it to the solid ground of the island and looked around. 'She wouldn't be anywhere in town. She would want to be alone, so she would have gone to the forest.' Smoker thought taking his guess and walking foreward into the forest.

He could only hope she would be there,...alive.


My first SmokerTashigi fic. They might be a little OCC, but I think there still sort of on track of what they should be. Anyway the next chapter will come as soon as I'm able to finish this will only be two chapters so far in my head, but if I decide to add anything then it'll be more.