Hey guys this is the same first chapter but I have re-posted it with corrections. There are some little changes in there as well so you might want to re-read .
Em
Life is a bitch sometimes! When you lose everything you ever wanted it makes it hard to live. It makes it hard to do anything really. It does make you want to run. It's almost like leaving makes the pain go away. But it's always there. Like when you break a mirror and you think you have the pieces so you delicately place them back together only to still see that cracks and small empty gaps. That what my heart looks like, my heart like a fragile piece of glass. Just one slip and as it crashes to the floor, the pieces of my heart shatter and spin, waywardly. You never know where all the pieces will land. You don't know who or when someone stronger than you will come and put you back together. Running is simple, maybe this time I can outrun the pain and disappointment, so that's what I did. I Emmett Masen Cullen ran from all the lies, betrayal and most of all love. And I regret it every day of my fucked up life.
Bella
My life it amazing! I have an amazing family. Perfect friends and the perfect job. I'm CEO at a major publication company in New York. I always loved writing. I never thought I would be the CEO of my own company. I own it 100% there are no shares! And the best part is I'm rolling in the money. My life is perfect. My parents have been together forever. I have two awesome sisters and a cool brother too. Let me rephrase that my life seems! So why aren't I really happy? What could possibly make me seemingly perfect life not really perfect? Aside from my fucked up past. Half my family hates me. Plus I'm missing that four letter words that is completely 'overrated' LOVE! I have asked god to fix my family and bless me with a man who will love me. I'm twenty five and I read a magazine that said by age thirty your ovaries have a lower chance of working! That means that I have less than five years to find someone who will love me and start popping out babies.
"You do know that you can't just pop them out like popcorn. Right?" Huh? Omg I said all that out loud! I turned to my assistant with questioning eyes.
"Yes Bossy Bella you said that out loud. And you know half of the authors at Cosmo don't know a think about 'popping out babies'" She said with a giggle.
"Laugh it up Amber but I think I can feel my ovaries shriving up into little raisins. Little eggless raisins" I fake cried.
"OH poor Bella doesn't have Children, or love, or any eggs left. If you want a kid you can have mined, little girl is nothing but trouble." She joked. Remy was nothing but a little chubby, pinkish bundle of giggles. They say it gas but she smiles extra big for me. I'm quite proud. Amber exited my office but popped back in the doorway.
"Hey Swan don't forget your off after two because the Henderson meeting was canceled. Oh and my baby does not smile for you 'extra big' it's really just gas." She was gone before I could pelt her with the nuts I am currently eating. Puff. Gas? Nope those were genuine smiles because she likes me more. Yay! I can leave early today! I can try out that new yogurt shop that is down the street and then do a little shopping.
Ehh I don't want to shop.
But you need clothes
But if you get it over with you'll have a closet full of this season's clothes!
Ugg I don't need clothes
Ok so what? You want to walk around naked? Show everyone your birthday suit? That sounds nice.
You know you don't have to get sarcastic with me brain I am the boss . What I say goes.
Ohh so your boss now huh?
Grrrr Go away.
Did you just growl at me? Really? I'm your Brain! I can't physically go anywhere. Sometimes you're just stupid.
I know you are but what am I.
Real mature.
Whatever
I guess I'll go get some new clothes. I mean I did empty my closet. Oh but I have those cute pants I just bought. Maybe I should wait.
Your lazier than a tired mule in the desert Get your ass to the damn store. Pants? You mean those things know as SWEAT pants, classy Swan.
What the fuck ever! Brain will you ever shut up?
Nope.
I didn't think so.
Fine let's get this over with. To the mall I go.
Em
If you're wondering why I am currently walking down this dimly lit alley behind the mall it's because I'm homeless. Yes I had everything. Then I lost it all within a few days. I had the perfect girlfriend or so I thought. She turned out to be a fucking overbearing lunatic who was just looking for a free pass on life. Fucking money was all she loved. I had and amazing family who loved me. No problems with them they just loved me to fucking hard, too much. I was suffocating in love and at the time it was too much for me to handle. Then there was the betrayal that hurt the most Tanya knew what Irina was up to and never told me. I would love to go into the whole fucked up story that was my reality about two years ago but I'd rather not dig into old wounds. After all the shit hit the fan I decide to just run. I ran from my overbearing, lying, psychotic, fake, delusional, creepy, lunatic ex girlfr- opps that's right I had proposed to her three days prior to the whole 'reveal'. To say life is a fickle thing is a sad understatement. But I did choose this I choose everything even when people warned me I never wanted to listen , even when things didn't add up for me I still didn't listen. Now I'm paying for turning a deaf ear to the warning bells that sounded all around me when it came to Irina.
Now I have to go and find a partially dry place to sleep for the night. What I would give for a clean shave and hot shower but I don't care anymore. So I'll continue to sludge thru the almost bittersweet rain. The water licks at my exposed flesh; given me a chilled kiss and burning me with the frozen shock all at once. Its unnerving and energizing at the same time. I shiver slightly night is quickly approaching and I have only gotten to a yogurt shop, I guess this is my stop for the night.
Bella
Yes! I'm done with everything now to get my frozen yogurt. There's the exit, I make my way quickly to the exit to realize that it is later than I anticipated and it's raining. Oh well the water won't kill me will it?
Yes Bella the rain will kill you. You Dip!
You know there is a chance of it killing me if it was Acid rain. And I am not a dip it was a rhetorical question.
So are you crazy or do you just like talking to me?
Take a damn hike brain!
I would but your flabby ass is lazy.
My ass isn't flabby. Is it?
Wow. Isabella. Wow
Still didn't answer the question.
No its not. Happy?
Delighted.
I continued to walk at a hurried pace and after getting almost soaked, made it to my car. I quickly made the turns to get there and before I knew it I was at my local frozen yogurt shop. Now that I'm standing inside, looking at all fifteen flavors, after narrowing it down to two, I realized that when life gives you choices and it comes down to normally two different things it's really hard to pick. Now as I stand here I say fuck it I want both. But that won't work I'm life most of the time. You have to choose between two things you might love equally and it might be hard but life doesn't give a shit. You still have to choose.
Will you just get the damn ice cream!
Its frozen yogurt
Just get the damn yogurt!
Ok.
Who knew that chocolate peanut-butter surprise and strawberry cheese cake would be such an amazing mixture by itself, two of the best choices ever? Hmm sprinkles? Gummy Worms? Strawberries? I say yes to all of the above.
That does sound good. Good job Isabella.
Seriously? Or are you being sarcastic?
Yes Isabella I'm being oh so very sarcastic.
No now you're being sarcastic.
Smart girl.
"Excuse me ma'am?" Who me? I looked in the direction of the cashier.
"Are you speaking to me?" I questioned. He looked a little nervous or scared. I looked at his name plate. Jacob. He looked kind-of young maybe seventeen at most.
"Yes Ma'am Its actually thirty-five minutes past closing. And I have already locked the front door so…." He looked up at me expectantly. Well now he doesn't look that young nor innocent the nerve he has.
Damn hormonal boy expects me to put out just to unlock the front door. What the hell do I look like? I mean do I have the word 'easy' written on my damn forehead?
Isabella Marie Swan you will listen to what the young boy has to say. It wouldn't be so bad….
Fuck off brain so not going to jail for sex with a minor.
If you listened to me you dip shit. I was going to say it wouldn't be so bad ,if you acquired a listening habit. It would come in handy
What ever I bet he is trying to get some of this and when you're wrong, it will prove you aren't that smart and all-knowing Brain.
Well I do hold the main of your information and if it weren't for me you wouldn't be able to walk or talk…..or do anything. And you realize that you basically call yourself uneducated and non-knowing.
For a brain you should know that you don't start a sentence with and.
You bring up childish points. Listen to the young boy , pay for the damn yogurt and leave.
Whatever.
What a fine yet overused comeback .
"Im sorry could you please explain? I mean can't you just unlock the door and let me out?" I was kind-of worried but my training calmed me down I just waited for his explanation.
"Well I would but i don't have the key the manager does. Plus I always leave thru the back which I don't mind. Anyway I don't have the code as I said the manager does. So if you don't mind going out the back with me ?" He let the sentence die on his lips. Waiting for my reply. I nodded slowly and let him make his way to back. I slowly went up to the door and tried to unlock it. It was in fact locked with a key box. Why the hells have such a heavy duty lock for a Fro-Yo shop? I looked up and went the way I saw him go. It was eerily quiet.
"Hey just give me a few minutes I'll be ready." He shouted.
"Umm ok." What are you getting ready for? I slowly felt around my bag for my switch knife. I realized there were pictures on the walls. I looked at each of them closely.
"Ok let's go." I was startled by an incredibly deep voice. I turned around and saw a man that looked about my age. With, deep beautiful russet skin. Broad shoulders and beautiful hazel brown eyes. With the whitest teeth I've ever seen. This man looked almost like a male model.
So. Ya gonna stand there and look at the man or are you gonna leave?
Shut up!
"Umm ...so...where is Jacob?" He looked surprised and then laughed?
"That would be me. I know I look different without the scrawny kid voice and the hair net, plus the fact that I'm not sitting hunched over. My manager didn't like the attention that I was getting from the customers. So She had me do a little make over. I get to wear a wig and everything. Anyway let go Bella." I laughed a little but stiffened and looked at his retreating body. His back was well defined. I pulled my switch blade and snapped it open.
"You know those things aren't legal in this area. I suggest you be careful not to get caught with a switch." He said with his back to me still. How? He slowly turned around.
"Isabella do you not remember me? Surly I didn't change that much. Did you forget your oldest friend" Then I looked at him closer. Jacob. I threw the knife down and ran at him.
"You survived." I was crying. I had missed him so much and worried about him.
"Yeah after you left they cracked security down and fucked with us some more. But I made it out so did a few others. Anyway let's get going." His smile had faltered but he was happy.
"Ok "We silently walked to the door. And once outside we talked a bit an exchanged numbers.
"You sure you don't want me to walk you to the car it not really all that safe here." He waited.
"Jacob you take your ass down that alley and get home. I'll be fine" I gave him a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek and pushed him a little.
"Fine. Talk later Bella" And with that he was gone. I walked in the opposite direction. What I didn't know was that instead of going the other way I was going in the direction of my destiny.
Em
Fuck it so damn cold but at least it stopped raining like fifteen minutes ago. Now I'm just cold and wet. I'm so tired. And hungry. Why the hell did I let people dictate my fucking future? I mean I used to be a very powerful man but now I'm nothing but a broken man. I wish I had my power but I don't, I have nothing that made me powerful. My family is gone. I still have the money and everything else but the one thing that made me powerful is gone. And it's because they chose her. Fucking Irina. She got my damn family and their love while all I got was.'Son I think you need to calm down and just marry Irina. You know the rules' Yeah I knew the fucking rules. Yet when it came to Irina they didn't give a shit about the rules. Now I'm stuck homeless, with nothing but the clothes on my back and my wet piece of paper with all my information on it. I only wish I had something good in my life. Sometimes I think I was wrong in just disappearing and leaving my family. I know I would have never been happy with that gold digging tramp of a girlfriend.
What I didn't know is that my life was soon about to change.
Bella
Jesus how long is this alley? I feel like I've been walking for twelve miles and i still am nowhere near the end. There are so many little cubbies with bad doors. I never noticed from the front that the store strip was this long.
Maybe if you paid attention to things you would have thought twice about going with Jacob when he offered.
You know what I would have if I knew this beforehand. Yes I would have looked but whatever. I didn't.
Maybe you should have ,it's your safety.
I know but I do have my training.
Isabella you left that place eleven years ago.
Doesn't make the training nor the memories go away.
Its ok honey. One day at a time.
Thanks.
Your welcome
"Well hello there sugar, come on over and hang out with me?" A voice sounded from behind me. Fuck I was so lost in thought there was a man tailing me. I still have like twelve feet until I reach the end of the alley and then a little bit of a ways to get to my car. Ok breath. Assess the situation. There is a highly inebriated gentleman behind me. Ok find the probability. I glanced behind me. He is huge. There is only a thirty-five perfect chance I can actually take him. Ok now assess your weaponry. I have a switch blade. Damn that's not nearly enough. Yes it can do the right amount of damage but It might not work.
Bella breath and run.
If he has a weapon he might hurt me. I can't keep my eyes on him if I'm running away from him. He is much bigger than me. Plus I haven't had to use my training in a while. If it were about six years ago I could have taken him down already.
Run
NO
Bella just RUN! That's all you have left. Don't let him touch you or disarm you and keep him distracted. Look at him again and listen to what he is saying then asses the situation by his body language .
Ok
I looked at him and decide to listen without showing fear or upset.
"Hey there sexy , come on over and hang out with us." Ok don't panic. I looked around and notice a shadow behind the man but this man was not close to us. The I turned and looked ahead of me and there were two more shadows.
Shit he said us. They are trying to herd me. This was planned, and they have done this before.
Ok breaths now speed up a little bit not too much. Good. Now let's think about this guy. We know he isn't as drunk as he wants you to think. He knows your smart and could take him. He sees
you as a weak prey. His speech is demanding. He is a very dominating person.
He isn't afraid to hurt you. You are in danger the percent of getting out
of this is slim to none. You're in trouble,
Fuck. I wish Jacob were here.
"Hey bitch gets your ass over here now. My friend and I would like a little bit of what you're showing off. Your such a fucking tease and since you're asking for it why don't we give you what you really want." He sounded one hundred percent sober.
RUN!
Ok
So I ran and he ran and was behind me before I could even reach the end of the alley. Shit I'm dead now.
"You fucking slut you don't run from me. Now you will be punished." He hissed him my ear. His breath fanned my face and instantly I was hit with the smell of spice and old whisky.
"P-please just l-let m-m-me-me g-go-go." I was scared and shaking like a wet, cold puppy.
"Shut the fuck up bitch boys, I believe I have our first catch of the night. Let enjoy it." They all laughed and then I looked around and the guys were closer than before they had formed a small circle around me. There was no way I was getting out or away from these beasts. They all groped and grabbed at me as if I was a piece of bread and they were very hungry. I tried to push them always but there were too many. I realized there was no one to help me or see me. This was going to happen.
"Fuck she is moving too damn much. Slim hold her." Before I could take the opportunity to run I was in the harsh grasp of someone named Slim. His skin collided with mine and left a lightly wet trail on my skin. I felt dirty just from his touch. I slung my head back and knocked my head with him and head a satisfying snap of his nose his grip on me loosened and a string of profanities flew from his thin lips. I flipped around and got a few good kicks to keep him down before I was kicked and punched a few times by the leader or 'Butch' and the others called him. He had a tight grip on me and I surely was going to bruise. My ribs hurt as well as my head.
"Stop." I moaned out I was going to pass out and god only knows what would happen to me then.
"I don't believe that is the way you speak to a lady." A very cold voice said.
Who is that?
Santa.
Even in a crisis you are sarcastic.
Gotta keep you on your toes.
"I'm going to ask you to stay the fuck out of this. She is none of your concern." 'Butch' said. I turned my head and saw a blurry figure come closer he was so close I could almost touch him.
"Butch is it? That's where your wrong. You're not treating this lady properly so I feel it is time to step in a make a few changes." He sounded so confident. Please don't get hurt over me. Please stay away. He looked at me and smiled. "Don't worry sweetheart I won't get hurt." Hmm I said that out loud.
"So fuck-face what are you going to do about it?" 'Butch' challenged
"I'm going to stop you from hurting her any further." Wow this guy doesn't sugar coat anything.
"Wow you're outnumbered by a lot pussy-face. How do you think you are going to take all of us? Who do you think you are?" "Butch sounded very arrogant.
"I'm your worst nightmare." And then I heard a few grunts and whimpers and curses. Then it was quite.
"Hey beautiful I'm going to pick you up and get you to my house ok." He picked me up and then I passed out.
This is a re-edited . How is it?
