Falling in love is simple.

It begins when you least expect it, as an interest, then develops steadily as time goes by. The earliest stages are hard to pin-point, as they could easily be mistook for admiration and respect. Then that admiration grows and so does your interest. You become easily impressed and fascinated by the person. Whatever they do, however they do it, it dazzles and amazes you. You are smitten, charmed and mesmerized.

Then come the racing heartbeats and butterflies in the stomach. Whenever you see them you're subconsciously submitting to their influence, and the desire to be around them increases. You want to spend every moment with them, share with them, connect with them. You start noticing their bad habits and accept them, perhaps even love them. You realize you are in love.

The last stage is the most painful of all three. You admit your feelings to yourself, you face the fact that they will never be returned, and then you decide to move on. Only that then, it's far too late.

Jack has gotten used to the sideline. He started there as an admirer, watching Felix through his small laptop screen and allowing himself to be captivated. He learned from him, cared for him then wished to meet him. A dream he never thought would see the day, the very day his admiration took an unusual turn.

Jack was oblivious to his growing feelings for Felix. There was a period of constant reminder that his love for the man was purely platonic, but it never lasted. As their meetings increased, Jack saw more, learned further, and fell deeper. And while his mind concealed the thoughts and his heart the feelings, his body was blatantly reacting as a last resort, a constant reminder of his hidden desires.

When the matter of the flesh become certain, further denials are fruitless. Jack was in love with Felix, and Felix wasn't available.

So Jack returned to the sideline, except this time he wasn't alone. He put himself out there, and found the loveliest girl of them all. From then on, everything went perfectly smooth. His feelings were genuine and reciprocated. He was in a healthy relationship and he was happy.

Right up until he sees Felix again, then everything he's built comes crashing down.