Chapter 1

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AN1: So, after doing a Private/Practice re-watch and starting a Grey's Anatomy one, I realised I wanted to write a story where Addison came back to Seattle, and after a lot of ideas I decided to go with this one. This focus of this story will be Addison and Amelia's sisterly relationship, and if things go to plan It will eventually be Addek.

AN2: This story is set at the end of season 4 of Private Practice, and between seasons 7 and 8 of Grey's Anatomy, and it is a what if, what if the change Addison realised she wanted when she saw Naomi get proposed to wasn't dissolving OWG, and starting a new practice, but rather moving back to Seattle so that she could be a surgeon full time again, and become a mother with friends and family around.

To make this story make sense I have had to make a few changes:

Violet hasn't gone on her book tour

Pete doesn't have a heart attack

Charlotte did not suspend Amelia's surgical privileges, but Amelia has been drinking.

Derek and Meredith aren't officially married, and HAVEN'T started to adopt Zola yet, in fact they haven't even met Zola yet, nor have they been trying for a baby.

Alex wasn't the one who told about Meredith messing with the trial, so they're still friends.

Addison knows that Sam kissed Naomi when she was away

Callie is back at work

The board hasn't made a decision about what to do with Meredith yet.

Christina is no longer pregnant, and things between her and Owen are not great, but not horrible either.

The first two chapters will be pretty Private Practice focused before becoming Grey's focused.


As she watches Fife propose to Naomi Addison knows that she needs to make a change, and after standing still for a few seconds Addison knows exactly what that change is and so she turns and leaves, knowing that going to Fiji is not the answer.


A little while after she left the airport Addison returns home, and as she does she finds Amelia hurrying down stairs, clearly ready to leave.

"Amelia!" Addison says, glad to find her still home, as she leaves her suitcase under the stairs, "Can we talk, or do you have plans?" Addison asks curious, as she walks over.

"We can talk." Amelia responds, as even though she really wants to go out and drink something about Addison's tone of voice, even though she can't place what, makes her realise that she needs to talk to Addison right now, "What's up?" Amelia asks, as she drops her hand bag on the couch.

"I owe you an apology." Addison tells the girl who more than anyone else, including Naomi, is a sister to her.

"What are you talking about?" Amelia asks confused, being pretty sure that Addison has absolutely no reason to apologise to her.

"Since everything that happened with Bizzy, and Susan, and Naomi and Sam, I haven't been the sister you deserve, and I'm so sorry for that." Addison admits, "I've let you down, and I'm sorry."

"Addie, you have no reason to apologise." Amelia says, being pretty sure that she should be the one apologising, "You're the best sister ever, I mean that, and I should know because I have three more." Amelia admits, stepping forward and hugging Addison, "I love you."

"I love you to." Addison responds as she hugs her sister.

"What brought this on Addie?" Amelia asks, as they break apart, "Is this because the Practice is falling apart?"

"In part." Adison admits, "But I just watched Fife propose to Naomi, and I realised some things, one of which is you're my family, which I already knew, but what I did realise is ever since you came to LA, you've been the one person I could always count on. The one person who was always there for me, always on my side, my only true family, and I don't think I've been the same to you, which I'm sorry about, because you deserve that."

"Fife proposed to Nai?" Amelia asks, sounding shocked.

"Yeah, they're moving to New York, with Betsy." Addison admits.

"Huh, guess things really are changing." Amelia realises, "Don't apologise to me, you have no reason to."

"I guess we must agree to disagree on that one." Addison says.

"We're sisters, I think we're supposed to." Amelia says, climbing over Addison's couch and sitting down on there, "You said you realised some things, what else did you realise?" Amelia asks curious, as Addison gives her an annoyed look, that she doesn't really mean, because Amelia climbed over the couch.

"That I need a change." Addison admits, as she sits down next to Amelia, "And I'm not going to get that change by going to Fiji with some guy that I don't even know…."

"You were going to go to Fiji with some guy you don't know?" Amelia asks, sounding shocked, and even impressed.

"Yes, but I realise it wasn't the change I need." Addison admits.

"Well, what is?" Amelia asks, knowing that she will ask for the full Fiji story later.

"I want a baby." Addison admits, "But I don't think I could handle seeing Sam every day, not when I thought we'd have a baby together, not with how much I love him." Addison explains as it is it hurts every time she sees Sam, and she hates that as seeing Sam used to bring her so much joy.

"Are you thinking about leaving LA?" Amelia asks, sounding shocked.

"Yeah, I am." Addison admits, "Richard Webber always said he'd be happy to take me back in Seattle, so I think I'm going to go back there, and I want you to come."

"What?" Amelia asks, as she wasn't expecting that.

"If I go back to Seattle, I want you to come, but I would understand if you didn't want to, so if you want to stay in LA, the house is yours, and I'll come out and visit as much as possible." Addison admits, as while she would love it if Amelia came to Seattle with her, she would also completely understand if she didn't want to.

"I'll give you my answer in a minute, but I have a question first. If you don't think you could handle seeing Sam every day do you really think you could handle seeing Derek, and his new wife slash person who cheated on you with, or hell even Mark and his new girl?" Amelia asks curious, as she has no doubt that Addison is the strongest person she knows, she just isn't completely sure that that is something she could handle.

"You know I left Seattle for a lot of reasons, but one of which, that I haven't told anyone, is that in the divorce I didn't just lose my husband, I lost my family, my best friend, and the reality of that was killing me." Addison admits, as she leans against the chair, looking sideways right at Amelia.

"Oh Addie." Amelia says, sadly, reaching out and taking her sisters hand.

"I think that's why I decided to come to LA. I wanted some kind of family back, and Sam and Naomi were the only people I thought I could go to." Addison admits, "My child isn't going to have a Dad, I want them to at least grow up with as much family as possible."

"And you think Seattle is the best place for that?" Amelia asks, not sure if she can follow Addison's logic right now.

"You're my family, Amelia, and I though Sam was, but now I'm not sure." Addison says telling the truth as she doesn't know what Sam is to her anymore as she loves him, but he's hurt, and disappointed, her, "and Naomi's gone now." Addison says, "The Practice is family, kind of, and Charlotte and Violet are great, but we're not really friends, same with Cooper. Sheldon is my elevator shrink, and Pete, well Pete's just complicated." Addison admits.

"And you think Seattle will be better?" Amelia asks.

"There are only two other places I could go where I wouldn't be completely alone, and New York just has too many painful memories." Addison admits, sounding sad, as she knows she couldn't handle being in New York, "Seattle does as well, but in Seattle, I'll have Callie, and Miranda, and Richard, and even if we're fighting and it gets to the point where we can't stand to be in the same room together I know that Derek, and Mark, will be incredible role models for any child I have." Addison admits, being pretty sure that Alex will be too, but Amelia doesn't know him.

"Okay." Amelia says, with a nod, realising Addison has made her choice.

"Okay?"

"Okay, I'll come to Seattle with you." Amelia says, "I think it's what's best for both of us Addie. We're kick ass, world class, surgeons, and as great as the Practice is, we both should be working at hospitals." Amelia admits, and as she does she decides something else, "But there's something I need to tell you, and it might make you regret asking me to come to Seattle with you."

"Whatever it is you can tell me, Amelia, because there is nothing that will make me regret asking you to come to Seattle too." Addison admits, feeling concerned about her little sister.

"I've been drinking lately, a lot, no pills yet, but I've been tempted, more tempted than I've been in a while." Amelia admits, looking down at the ground to avoid seeing a look of disappointment on Addison's face.

"Okay." Addison says with a nod, and once she does, she gets up and heads to the kitchen.

"Addie? What are you doing?" Amelia asks confused, and in response Addison takes the cork out of a wine bottles and starts to pour them down the drain, "Addie, that's a two-hundred-dollar bottle of wine." Amelia says, standing up.

"I don't care, you're more important to me." Addison tells hers, "Which is why I'm going to pour out every drop of alcohol in this house, and once I do that we're going to do two things tonight. The first is we're going to call Richard Webber, and ask for jobs, and then I'm going with you to a meeting." Addison says, walking back over to Amelia, "You're my sister, and I love you, I'm here for you, Amelia, no matter what you need." She admits, "I will cheer you on, be right by your side, kick your ass if I have to, and do whatever I can to help you stay clean and sober, but I'm going to need you to be honest. I won't judge, ever, but you need to tell me if you're struggling, because I can't help if I don't know." Addison tells Amelia, as she takes both her hands.

"I think I can do that." Amelia says, with a nod, as she feels Addison squeeze her hands, "If you're going to pour out everything I think I should go upstairs." Amelia admits, knowing that there is no alcohol upstairs, and right now the last thing she wants to do is disappoint Addison, as while Charlotte is great she doesn't have the history with her that she does with Addison and so she wants to try harder not to disappoint her.

"I'll call you when I'm done." Addison says.

"Okay. I'll get a copy of my resume ready in case Chief Webber wants to see it." Amelia revels.

"Good idea." Addison says and once she speaks Amelia nods and heads upstairs, feeling amazed at how quickly things can change as before Addison walked in she was ready to go completely toss sobriety out the window, but now she wants to work hard not to fall off the wagon again.

Once she is sure that Amelia is upstairs Addison heads back to the kitchen and starts to pour out every drop of alcohol she can find, not caring about how much it all cost as like she said, Amelia is more important to her.


For about twenty minutes Addison searches everywhere in the house that she has known there to be alcohol in the past and pours out every drop she can find, and having done that she's called Amelia back downstairs.

"So, I have my resume on here, so you can send it to the Chief." Amelia reveals, walking down the stairs, "But I do have one question." She admits, "How are you going to get him to hire me too?" Amelia asks, as she has no doubt that Addison is a superstar that Richard Webber would love to hire she isn't sure that the same thing can be said for her.

"Well for one, you're an incredible surgeon that Richard would be lucky to have, and two, he's not getting me without you." Addison as she takes the flash drive from Amelia, and picks up her phone.

"Thanks Addie." Amelia says, smiling at Addison as Addison calls Richard's personal number as she isn't overly sure if she would get him on his other number at the moment.

"Addison?" Richard's voice asks, answering the phone, "What's wrong?" He asks, as Addison basically never calls him.

"Nothing's wrong." Addison assures him, and then she decides to just rip the bandaid off, "Any chance you have a job opening?"

"You want to come back to Seattle?" Richard asks, surprised, and very, very glad.

"Yeah." Addison confirms.

"Your old jobs yours, when can you start?" Richard asks, not even needing to think about it as Addison working for the hospital will only mean good things.

"I need a couple of weeks to finalise, and pack things up, here." Addison admits.

"How does starting in three weeks from Monday sound?" Richard asks, as it is currently Friday.

"Sounds good to me." Addison says, knowing that is plenty of time, "But I also have one condition to coming back, Richard, just one."

"What is it?" Richard asks, knowing that he will do everything he can to meet Addison's one condition, he just hopes there is something he can do.

"Derek's youngest sister Amelia is here with me in LA, she is a world class Neurosurgeon, and she's coming with me to Seattle." Addison explains, "If you want me then you're going to hire her as an Attending to." Addison reveals, and as she does Richard feels like he could cheer as he just had a neurosurgeon quit, so he has to hire someone new anyway.

"Done." Richard responds, not even needing to think about it, and once he does Addison smiles at Amelia, "I'll need a copy of her resume for our records."

"I'll send it right through." Addison assures him, "I was also hoping that you wouldn't mention to Derek, or anyone else that we are coming until we start." Addison admits, as even though she and Derek have kept in contact since he operated on Archer she still isn't sure how he'll react to her coming back to Seattle.

"I think that's a good idea." Richard says, as he is pretty sure that Derek finding out that he's going to be working with his little sister, and ex-wife, wouldn't be a good thing and he doesn't want anything to screw up Addison coming back.

"Thanks Richard, really." Addison says, clearly meaning that, "Any chance you know the number of a realter?"

"Yeah, I got someone in mind, I'll give them your number." Richard says, "It will be good to have you back, Addison."

"Thanks Richard." Addison says, with a slight smile, "I'm sure we'll have plenty more phone calls, and I'll see you in three weeks."

"See you in three weeks." Richard says, before hanging up, feeling completely thrilled at the fact that his superstar is coming back, and bringing with her another star.

"So, I'm guessing we start in three weeks?" Amelia asks curious.

"Yep." Addison confirms, "He agreed to hire you as a Neurosurgeon attending, and give me my old job back." Addison explains.

"That means my brother is my boss, right?" Amelia asks.

"Yeah, think you can handle that?" Addison asks, feeling a little concerned.

"Yeah, I think so." Amelia admits, "But I may need to rant at you about him."

"Feel free." Addison responds, smiling slightly.

"So, Realtor?" Amelia asks, as she figured Addison wouldn't do that until they got to Seattle.

"I can't live in a hotel in Seattle again, if I'm going back I need to find a place." Addison reveals, "And even though I'm sure Derek is going to ask you to stay with him, I want you to know that I want it not to be just my home, but both of ours." Addison reveals.

"I can't live with Derek." Amelia admits, "If I do I think I definitely would slip."

"Amelia."

"Kidding." Amelia quickly assures her, "Really Addie, I was." Amelia assures her, "And I loved living here with you, so of course I'd want to live with you in Seattle." She says, as she loves living with Addison, living with her sister, and she would like to continue to as truthfully, right now she is pretty sure that it is what is best for her.

"Okay." Addison says, with a nod, "I'll send your resume to Richard then we can go to that meeting."

"I've found one starting soonish." Amelia says.

"Good." Addison says, as she walks over to her laptop, and as she does Amelia pulls out her phone and sends a message to Charlotte telling her that Addison is taking her to a meeting.


A little while later Amelia and Addison are sitting together in an AA meeting, Addison whatever she can do to support Amelia.

"Would anyone else like to share?" The person running the meting asks, and as they do Amelia puts up her hand, and as she gets up Addison squeezes Amelia's hand, before Amelia walks to the front.

"My name's Amelia, and I'm an addict." Amelia says.

"Hi Amelia." Everyone in the room says.

"Um, pills are usually my thing, but lately I've been drinking, a lot, I've been telling myself that it's nothing, but I know it is." She reveals, "Tonight I was going to go out and drink, get drunk, and throw away my sobority, and I didn't even care." Amelia admits, purposely not looking at Addison, but the others, "But then my someone I care about, my sister walked through my front door, and I realised that I don't want to disappoint her, and drinking again would do that." Amelia reveals, "I'm not going to deny that I'm struggling, because I am, and I think it's important to admit that, but I want to do better, and I think I can." She says, finally looking towards Addison who is smiling proudly at her, something which gives Amelia a lot of confidence, "Thank you." She says, before getting back and walking toward Addison and sitting back down next to her.

The second Amelia sits down next to Addison she feels Addison take her hand, and squeeze it supportively, and as horrible as she feels right now Addison's support makes her feel just a little bit better, and makes her feel like everything may just be okay.