paring is jj/hotch, warning their is mention of rape nothing to explicit, also domestic abuse. please let me know what you think this is my first story. so please R&R

I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, WOULD LOVE TO TO OWN HOTCH BUT NOOOOO :(

CHAPTER 1

Hotch was tired to say the least, this last case was a bad one, he can still see the imagines running through his head. The parent's cry of agony knowing their baby won't be coming home.

5 kids ages 5-7 all males, blond with either hazel or blue eyes, drowned, Ryan Hinkle was a 40 year old Caucasian male, whose first victim was his own son, and to relive it again he took boys who looked like his son. Thanks to his team working together and making the profile quick and efficient they were able to stop him before he harmed his next victim. He was proud of his team.

His team *sighs* they are more than his team their family. They have been their when Haley left, when Foyet attacked and they are still there. Not only for him but for each other. Hotch turns to look at his team down in the bullpen. Kate was finishing her report with a hand rubbing her now 6 months baby bump. Reid was hiding behind his file yelling and trying to avoid the paper balls Morgan was throwing. Garcia walks in for her lair scowling at Morgan for bugging Reid. Morgan stops the paper balls and starts to bicker with Garcia. Rossi walks down to the bullpen and starts telling them something they all nod. That has Hotch wondering what he asked them.

Then in walks JJ, looking as stunning as ever, wearing a black dress pant that hugs her figure, a red blouse showing little cleavage. Hotch has had a strong attraction toward JJ since he had hired her, back then it was her innocence and personality, now it's her strengths, bravery, compassion when talking to the victims, the way she is around Henry, come to think of it he loved everything about… *wait loved were did that come from.* Hotch thought *ah who am I kidding I love her, love the way her blond hair falls over her shoulder, her piercing blue eyes that seems to look through him when no one can, the way she smells like lavender and vanilla, and the way he feels a shock every time their hands brush together….yup I am so screwed* Hotch stand up and walks toward the widow facing the street. *not only have I fallen in love with a member of my team but she is also involved with someone else. Ugh I have fallen in love with an impossible one, nicely done Hotchner.*

A knock on the door brought Hotch out for his thoughts. He went to back to his desk.

"Come in"

Rossi walks in "Ugh come on Aaron its Friday and we have the weekend off how can you still be working, and don't say it's the report, I can see the report right there." Rossi motioned to the file on the edge of his desk with a smirk.

"Weekend off?" "What did you do to convince Strauss?" Hotch asked with a smirk of his own

"I have my ways." Rossi replied leaning back in the chair

Hotch narrowed his eyes studying Rossi then it clicked "you promised her a dinner out didn't you" it was a statement not a question.

Rossi slouched in the chair "yes" he signed, but then changed it into a smile when Hotch laughed it was good to see his friend laugh.

Rossi and Erin had started dating about 5 months ago. It was not surprising really, and if their happy then who are they to deny their friend happiness. Plus it comes in handy when Strauss is out for blood they just toss Rossi to her.

"So I came in here to tell you that I am having a BBQ tomorrow at my house, the whole team is coming so I expect you to be there." Rossi told him

"I would love to really but I have work to catch up on and I…" Hotch started when Rossi cut him off

"I am not taking no for an answer Aaron, if I have to drag you to my house I swear I will." Rossi said sternly which then turn to a smirk "plus JJ is going to be their"

"And?" "So is the rest of the team" Hotch retorted

"Yeah but I don't see you drooling over anyone else."

"I don't know what you are talking about"

"Aaron every time JJ walks into a room your eyes light up like a kid on Christmas"

"They do not, plus she would never be interested in me" Hotch regretted those words the minute they came out, Rossi had him now.

Rossi leaned forward "so you do like her?" "And what do you mean she wouldn't be interested in you?"

Hotch let yes head fall on to his desk with a thump. "Yes" came his muffled answered. When Hotch looked up Rossi was smiling like an idiot.

"I am not JJ's type, I mean look at will. Plus I am older then her and she is currently involved with will, and let not forget I am her boss." Hotch answered while looking at JJ who was talking with Morgan.

Rossi scoffed "first of all you don't know what her type is, and as for what i know will is older than her as well, and don't give me that 'I am her boss crap' look at Erin and me." Rossi signed before leaning forward. "Hotch I know that after your break up with Beth you closed off again, don't let the that affect you, go talk to her who knows maybe she feels the same way." Rossi stood walking towards the door "you don't know she might be the one." Giving him a knowing smile "see you tomorrow, oh and bring swimming clothes." He said closing the door behind him before Hotch can respond.

Hotch chuckled going back to work every so often stealing glances toward JJ *maybe Rossi's right, worth a try* he thought with a smile.

DOWN IN THE BULLPEN

"So what you guys' taking to Rossi's tomorrow" asked Morgan

"I'm bringing a fruit salad and chicken salad" answered JJ while grabbing some coffee

"I got dessert" Garcia said coming back from her lair

"Yes you do mama." Teased Morgan earning a swat on the arm by Garcia

"What about you boy genius" she asked Reid but apparently he didn't hear her

"Reid…hey Reid…REID!"

Spencer jumped falling of his chair, the team laughed, as JJ helped him up

"Jesus Garcia I'm 10 feet away, you don't have to yell." He said somewhat annoyed

"Sorry boy wonder but I called you three times, but you were lost in the book of yours." She motioned to the book on his lap

"Oh…sorry, what do you need?"

"Nothing, just wanted to know what you are taking to Rossi's tomorrow?"

"Um…I'm not sure…drinks maybe?"

"Chose something else kid Hotch has the drinks covered." Rossi told them coming out of Hotch's office, not missing the small smile that appeared on JJ's face when he mention Hotch's name.

"You got Hotch to go?" Morgan asked with a slight tease

"Hotch does have a life outside the office Morgan."

Everyone but Morgan and Garcia saw hotch come out of his office and stand behind Morgan, arms crossed.

"You sure bout that, all I ever see him do is work, in the morning up until we leave, on the plane, I mean everywhere, and he's always so tense." Rossi cleared his throat but it was no use, JJ hand her hand covering her mouth trying to stop the laughter, getting a confused look from Garcia, Reid just looked scared, Kate was just waiting for Morgan to turn around with her phone recording. "If you ask me I think hotch needs to get laid." Kate and JJ looked like they were about to explode of laughter with a mix of fear. Reid was just about to crawl under his desk, and Rossi just stood there with a smirk. Morgan was about to ask what's so funny when he hears the calm but cold voice of his unit chief.

"The thing is agent Morgan, no one asked you." Morgan jumped when he felt Hotch's hand land on his shoulder while Garcia yelps, jumping to stand beside JJ. "Or did they?" he then turned to the team "did you?" he meet JJ's eyes, she smiled at him knowing he was just playing around. "No sir" she responded. Hotch winked at her before looking down at Derek who has yet to look back.

"So what were you saying agent Morgan?" giving his shoulder a squeeze

"Nothing, I…uhh…we were…just talking about Rossi's BBQ tomorrow." Morgan said still not looking up

"Well in that case I'll let you to it" hotch turned but stopped "oh and Morgan you're on lunch duty for the week" Aaron turned towards his office but not before flashing JJ a smile, dimples and all.

JJ felt her breath hitch, but smiled backed, Morgan glared at all of them

"Thanks for the heads up, you really had my back there." Glaring at all of them except at Garcia.

"Hey I tried to warn you; the fact that you ignored me is your fault kid." Rossi told him. He turned to walk up to his office "oh and I want a chicken Alfredo tomorrow. With extra cheese." He ducked from the book Morgan threw laughing, and closed his door.

Kate laughing "this video is so going onto YouTube." "FBI agent gets caught telling his boss to get laid" she gestured with her hands.

"KATE CALLAHAN DELETE THAT VIDEO RIGHT NOW!" yelled Morgan

"No chance in hell." She replied with a wicked smile "this is my leverage against you." Bolting towards Rossi's office with Morgan hot on her heels.

JJ was too lost in thinking in the one person she knew she shouldn't, but god, could you blame her, Hotch was every women's dream man, tall dark mysterious, a total gentleman, always puts others before him, his eyes…omg his eyes, the way they look straight through her, it's as if he knew all of her secret. JJ winced *I really hope not* she thought. *sighs* she sat down in Morgan's desk. *come on jj Hotch is your boss he will never look at you that way, your worthless * *if only* JJ got lost thinking in the hell she called home, She didn't even hear Garcia calling her.

"JJ!" JJ jumped and looked to see everyone looking at her "I'm sorry did you say something?" she asked

"You okay butter cup?" Garcia looked at her with concerned eyes.

"Yeah, I'm fine...i'm ju-"her cellphone cut her off. She looked down at the id and gave a shaky breath. "Um…I'll see you guys tomorrow, I have to take this." She all but ran back to her office aware of the confused looks on her team but not the one of hotch.

Once in her office she took a deep breath and answered.

"Hello"

"WERE ARE YOU!" "YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE HERE AND HOUR AGO, AND I'M STARVING!"

JJ flinched at the voice on the other line; she knew he was drunk she was glad Henry was with Jessica.

"I'm sorry will I'm on my way, I was going over some cases with hotch an-"

"HOTCH, IT'S ALWAYS HIM!" "WHAT ABOUT ME JENNIFER HMM, ME THE FATHER OF YOU CHILD, THE ONE THAT TAKES CARE OF YOU, HUH WERE DO I FIT."

"Will please calm down, you know Hotch is just my boss and noth-"

"I DON'T KNOW THAT JJ, YOU COULD HAVE BEEN FUCKING HIM FOR ALL I KNOW!"

JJ was now sitting on the floor holding back her sobs knowing that will just anger him more.

"I WANT YOU HERE IN AN HOUR JENNIFER, YOU HEAR ME ONE HOUR!" He then clicked

Jj dropped the phone on the ground, then dropped her head in her hands, *I can't keep doing this I need help, but who do I tell, no I can't, they will just see me weak, useless, that's what I am anyways, but they don't need to know that* she signed throwing her head back against the wall *plus if I leave he swore he will take it out on Henry, and I can't put my baby in danger, I just can't…..god please help me.* she stood up the pain on her side coming back. She went to the mirror behind her door and lifted her shirt. On her left hip was a purplish bruise she winced when her fingers brushed it. *sign* "well it's time to go back to hell" she murmured to herself on her way out.

When JJ pulled up her driveway she hesitated to get out. She knew he was drunk and she knew he will take her. *maybe I can leave, Henry at jess's* JJ was about to pull back out when the front door was opened. Out came running her five year old son. JJ quickly got out of the car getting to Henry as fast as she can. *Will must have picked him up before I could, bastard* JJ thought. Everything was good up until it was time for bed. JJ knew will was mad. She lay in bed trying to fall asleep maybe with that way she can avoid what will happen. No such luck. Will came in and in a flash he was pinning her down.

"You know how much I hate having to be kept waiting, I said I wanted you here by 6:00, and what do you do you disobey me." Will grabs her throat, but not pressuring as to cut off the air, but enough to leave a mark.

"Will please stop, I was working." JJ hated being so weak, she hated that he overpowered her using Henry.

"Shut up" will pulled her gown up while pulling her underwear down. "I'm going to have to teach you a lesson, let's hope that after this you will obey."

"No will…stop…will please stop!." JJ was trying to push him off but he was stronger. JJ screamed when will trust into her, it was painful. JJ tried to keep her cries low not to wake Henry up.

"This will teach you…and make you double think be...before you disobey." Will was close and out of breath. He leaned down to kiss her; JJ trashed her head avoiding him. He grabbed her face forcing the kiss, JJ retaliated by biting him.

"Bitch!" will slapped her, getting up and thrusting into her harder. Making it hard for JJ to hold back the screams of pain. Once that will had his released, he leaned down grabbing her face "you might want to put some ice on that." He got up and left to sleep in the guest room, as If he didn't just rape JJ. JJ laid their pain radiating all over her body, she curled up into herself and cried herself to sleep.

Hotch had a restless night. For some reason he felt something was off. He just didn't know what. Then it clicked "JJ."

Well their's the first chapter, this is my first story, let me know what u think, to much, R&R please

believe me when i say i hate hurting jj. oh and i hate will