My Heavenly,
I know I am long gone. And I know that you miss me... we promised to always be together...
So many times I cried when we were taken apart. Now it's happened again. This time forever. Or, at least, until the end of your time on this earth. I would like to say I hope you come to me soon- but that would be selfish. For your sake, I hope you live on and on, long enough to achieve your dream, long enough to fix things with Pa and Fanny, and long enough to be reunited with Keith and Our Jane.
And do not worry Heavenly- I am watching down on all of you now. I am always, always here, I never really left. Except now I don't have to put up with the pain and the heartache. You do though. Sometimes I would cry in the night, thinking of the pain you might be going through, praying you would find some way of overcoming it. You were always strong. Not like Sarah. Your real Ma must have been strong... and after all, you have inherited her beauty, so surely God must have made you as strong as she.
Not like me. I gave up on my dreams. Remember my childish ambition? I wanted to be the president! And you must have known that was never going to happen, yet you never stopped giving me the encouragement to fight for what I wanted. I will always love you for that.
Oh Heaven. It's all my fault... I'm sorry... things could have been so different. Are you angry at me for saving Pa? Do you think he should have died and I should have lived? This must be true Heaven, because I know you and I know how you feel about Pa. But perhaps this is God's way of telling you it really is time to fix things with him. Because, Heavenly, if I was still living by your side, there would have been nothing I wanted to see more. Us Casteels need to be reunited. It's up to you to make it happen now...
I will be with you forever...
I love you.
Your brother,
Tom
I know I am long gone. And I know that you miss me... we promised to always be together...
So many times I cried when we were taken apart. Now it's happened again. This time forever. Or, at least, until the end of your time on this earth. I would like to say I hope you come to me soon- but that would be selfish. For your sake, I hope you live on and on, long enough to achieve your dream, long enough to fix things with Pa and Fanny, and long enough to be reunited with Keith and Our Jane.
And do not worry Heavenly- I am watching down on all of you now. I am always, always here, I never really left. Except now I don't have to put up with the pain and the heartache. You do though. Sometimes I would cry in the night, thinking of the pain you might be going through, praying you would find some way of overcoming it. You were always strong. Not like Sarah. Your real Ma must have been strong... and after all, you have inherited her beauty, so surely God must have made you as strong as she.
Not like me. I gave up on my dreams. Remember my childish ambition? I wanted to be the president! And you must have known that was never going to happen, yet you never stopped giving me the encouragement to fight for what I wanted. I will always love you for that.
Oh Heaven. It's all my fault... I'm sorry... things could have been so different. Are you angry at me for saving Pa? Do you think he should have died and I should have lived? This must be true Heaven, because I know you and I know how you feel about Pa. But perhaps this is God's way of telling you it really is time to fix things with him. Because, Heavenly, if I was still living by your side, there would have been nothing I wanted to see more. Us Casteels need to be reunited. It's up to you to make it happen now...
I will be with you forever...
I love you.
Your brother,
Tom
