- 76 / feel free to remain my poison


She wants to hold her breath until her lungs burst, until her heart stops beating, until her blood stops tingling every time he looks her way meets her eyes with his, smiles in her presence, breathes.

It's ridiculously sorrowful and so not like her, so against her code of being morally independent, that it makes her want to cry.

(Though she knows it won't be the first time she's cried over a man, over him no less)

He's horrible for her; she knows that, in the worse way possible because he's sweet, he's kind, he's far from perfect. He bundles up his anger, his fear, his sorrow, instead sealing them with a smile, just as she does.

She wishes she could stop breathing in his presence because she knows he's toxic, he exhumes a perfume that makes her fall head over heels for him the more she is around him, so she hopes one day she can just stop breathing in hopes to save her body, her mind, herself.


an; more sh*tfics to come www

also, i'm so sorry for always writing pining!haru but she's my fave so