It's a pain that flows through the body. It's like bugs under the skin. Crawling through me.

I try to get them out but they never leave me. Always there, Always there.

Waiting, waiting for me to drop my guard and attack. Always my neck, stop it…..STOP IT! LEAVE ME ALONE! They stay they don't listen, they don't care.

I can't refrain, I need them out…help me. Help me!

I scratch at my neck and scratch and scratch and scratch. Until they start to fall from my neck and slowly die on the ground. I want to laugh but their still there.

They need to go. They need to go. They need to go! I scratch harder. Why? Why? WHY!? THEIR STILL THERE! THEIR STILL THERE! LEAVE ME ALONE! STOP IT! STOP IT!!!

They keep falling but I can't stop they have to leave. They have to leave. They have to leave.

There's so many now, their all around me on the floor dead. YES DEAD! DIE!

The blood red bugs lay at my feet mocking me, 'Why didn't you pull us out earlier not that it matters we'll always be here. Inside you, pulling everything away from you.'

My neck hurts, it burns but their still there and I can't let them be any longer.

I can't I can't do it! My body falls but I'm not done they still pull and I can't rest until their gone. My senses are fading but I can't stop not now, not now!

My body? I'm losing control of my body, I can't move and I can hardly breathe.

No, no, no, NO! I can't move, I cant see but I know their still there, haunting my every thought, mocking my decisions, they want me dead so my body will be theirs. But no they can't have it I cant die, not now, not now, not now.

I have to live. I have to live. I have to live. I fell them crawling all over my skin, I want to scream but I can't.

Someone help me, someone please help me. Its over the bugs have won. My body and my life is now theirs.

What I didn't know at that time was that what I thought were bugs under my skin pulling and pushing was just my mind slowly killing itself. I thought I was saving myself and all I did was cause more harm. I didn't even notice that so slowly my life was dripping away.