A/N: This idea has been jingling around my mind for awhile, it's nice to start releasing it. The Prologue is short, but necessary in a way. I'm in the middle of the next chapter now. I'm not going to set certain days to update but I will try to do it often.

All credit for Twilight goes to Stephanie Meyer. I'm only playing with her characters. No copyright infringment is intended.

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EPOV

My resolve was slipping. The months I've spent locked inside this awful attic in Alaska have been a waste. Tearing myself away from the only love I will ever know was a mistake I'm not sure I can rectify. All I know is that I have to try. I can not; I will not let this continue. My pain is consuming every facet of my being, this longing to see my Bella is becoming a burn that I can not withdraw from. There are no distractions for this.

Is she hurting as well? Or has she moved on and begun the normal human life she deserves? Does her body feel as if it will be ripped apart from the pain of being separated from mine? Has she found solace in another's arms? Mike Newton's maybe?

I heard the echo of my involuntary growl at his name. While I wanted Bella to have a normal life, full of love and happiness, I could not stand the thought of another man touching her, kissing her, lo-

My thoughts were interrupted by Alice's phone call. If I hadn't been trapped inside my head I would've known the call was coming.

I opened my phone and waited for the onslaught of Alice's excitement for my decision. I knew moving away from Bella had been particularly hard on her. She saw a future where they would become sisters. While I still didn't want that to happen, I understood the pain of walking away from a future you so desperately craved.

"Get to Forks, now. Jazz and I will meet you there; Carlisle will be right behind us. We're going to need all the help we can get to try to save Bella." I was running at full speed before she finished.

"What has happened? Is Bella alright? Alice! You have to tell me something!" There was a small part of my mind going over what I would do to follow Bella if she were…if she left me.

"Get to Forks Edward. I saw her jump off a cliff. I heard her heart slow. At first she seemed peaceful, as if she wanted to surrender to the water. But there was some sort of struggle. Things got fuzzy; I could see swirls of red wrapping around her. She opened her eyes and screamed in agony. Then everything went black." Her frustration at her lack of clarity was palpable through the phone. "I'll keep trying but for now we must get to Forks as fast as we can." Before I could hang up she continued, "Edward, I think she's gone. We still have to try, we have to do what we can, but she's disappeared Edward. She's turned to black. We have to be prepared for whatever has happened."

How could I be so selfish? So stupid? Leaving her alone, unprotected. Bella is a danger magnet. I knew that and still I left her to fend off the world that is obsessed with harming her. Not only am I a monster, but I'm the monster that left my other half alone, to die.

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Chapter End Notes: This is my first Twilight fic. I'm hopeful about the story, anxious about posting it. This is also the first story I've posted on a site that will have feedback (assuming anyone reads and reviews). SOO, review if you'd like. Thanks!