Okay this is the life section if you think the group lived from the

exspirence...um...this I believe is a lot worse than death, cuz now these guys

have to through recovery and, that's not fun.

~Kazima

"Yu...k.."

Someone was calling him.

"Yu...s...k..."

Leave me alone...I don't want to wake up!

"Yusuke!"

Yusuke Urameshi's eyes opened, slowly. He looked around, everything was

intensely bright, so he closed his eyes again. "Wake up."

He recognized that voice.

"G...Genkai...?" His voice was hoarse and tired.

"Yes...wake up." Her voice was unusually gentle. He opened his eyes, and then

slowly rose. He was in a bed, and looked around the room. He was at Genkai's.

"You've been asleep a week." He looked over at Genkai, and was shocked to see

she looked 12 years older. "Th...The others?" Genkai nodded, and asked, "Can

you walk...I'll take you to them." Yusuke nodded and looked down at himself.

"Am I completely healed?"

"Yes...We barely saved you but your healed."

Yusuke placed his feet on the ground and rose slowly. Genkai had to catch him

and steady him as he walked. He walked so slowly, and Genkai felt tears slipped

Down her face. Koenma had found out what happened, and even had a video of it.

They all saw it. Saw what happened to them. Saw what they faced.

Complete madness.

She led him down the hall and into a room with sunshine. She pushed open the

door, and he starred at what he saw.

Kurama was in sitting in a corner, and clung tightly to Hiei. Yusuke's stomach

twisted, as he noticed a long scar, caused from a razor blade on his arm. He

looked around and saw Kuwabara by the open window. He was a lot paler, and he

sat starring at the sunshine.

What made his blood freeze was that he was in a wheel chair.

Yusuke pulled away from Genkai and stumbled over to him, collapsing in front

of him and placing his head and arms in his lap. "Urameshi." Kuwabara said

softly. His hands came to rest on Yusuke's head as Yusuke sobbed.

Yusuke's tear stained face looked up at Kuwabara, "Kuwabara...can you walk."

Kuwabara has tears rolling down his face, his loose hair rolling down his

cheeks.

"No."

Yusuke's throat closed and he sobbed clutching onto Kuwabara. Genkai watched,

and observed as the group drifted over to Yusuke. Yusuke hugged everyone of

them crying. Her old heart broke to see them this way.

Koenma and Boeton appeared at her side. "Will they recover Lord Koenma?" Boeton

asked in a hushed voice. "It depends on them...and if we can keep them from

trying to kill themselves." Koenma's eyes drifted over to Hiei.

Yusuke wiped his eyes looking at his friend's. Kurama had dark circles under

his eyes, and he looked skinny and sick. Hiei looked like himself, but his eyes

were changed, and there was that scar on his arm.

He turned back to Kuwabara who was flinching away from everyone; Yusuke

remembered his test. He laid his head back down and sobbed some more, and

Kuwabara just ran his fingers through his hair, trying to comfort him.

For the rest of the day the four friends would sit with each other, and not say

a word. Only Yusuke's mournful cries could be heard.

*one week later*

Yusuke seemed to be back to his old self, but he was instructed to keep a

journal of his thoughts, so he could handle his ordeal. The normal cocky

Yusuke, had become a more calm one. He made stupid jokes, and was cocky time to

time, but he obeyed everyone. It was as if he'd lost his spirit fire carried so

safely in his body.

Kurama ate very little. Maybe half a sandwich a day. He drank plenty of water.

He never spoke, he'd stare far off into the distance. He often cried as he

watched the others, looked at Genkai or Yukina.

Hiei would talk. He seemed perfectly normal. He acted the same. Even tried to

annoy Kuwabara. But Koenma had to put a special bracelet on his arm that

wouldn't allow him to leave Genkai's house. His first day of recovery he slit

his arm from the wrist to his elbow. He would have died if Yukina hadn't found

him.

Kuwabara had lost so much blood from his legs, and the burns left terrible

scars on his feet. He woke unable to feel his legs. He would never walk again.

But when Yusuke woke up, from a coma they said he'd never get out of until

death, he began to have hope that he would walk.

Yusuke stayed in the room with his friends, all four wearing nothing but long

shirts. "I feel like little kids at a slumber party." Yusuke said joking. "Your

a little kid...I don't know about me." Hiei hmphed.

He was tracing the scar wit his finger. His eyes intense and his hard stare

looking at it.

Kurama said nothing and starred at Yusuke with his soulless eyes. His eyes were

large upon his sunken in face. His normally perfect skin and beauty had seemed

to fade. He was a living corpse. A living breathing corpse.

Kuwabara punched Yusuke's chin lightly. "Your right. I feel silly." Kuwabara's

hair was still down. He'd saw no pint in keeping it up while he recovered.

Every day he tried to move his legs. He managed to move his toe, but that was

all he could do.

Yusuke smiled at them, and Genkai came in. She handed everyone lunch, Rice

balls, meat buns, and soup. Kurama starred at his food, and took a bite out of

his food. He set it back down and sat there, starring at it.

Hiei ate his food, and looked angry that he was given a plastic spoon. He wanted to die. Genkai attached a trey to Kuwabara's wheel chair, and placed his food on there. "You want to try to life the spoon?" Kuwabara nodded.

His nerves appeared to be damaged, and he was so weak. He shakily sipped the

spoon into his soup and bent over. He tried to move it to his lips but, it

spilled out on his hand and the tray.

Kuwabara looked angrily at it, tried again and again, and finally placed the

spoon down, Genkai scooped it up, to help him, but he touched her hand."No...I

will find away to do this myself." He picked up a rice ball and ate it slowly.

Yusuke crawled over to him, and Took his wrist. Kuwabara glared at him. "I want

to learn how to do it by myself!" Yusuke smirked, "I know...hang on." He took

Kuwabara's wrist, and placed the spoon in it. "Grip it as hard as you can. Like

your about to hit me." Kuwabara did, but his grip wasn't as strong as his

fighting fist, with his body being so weak.

Kuwabara's spoon didn't shake. Kuwabara dipped the spoon in the soup, and ate

it.

Then he burst out crying.

~~***~~~~

Yusuke and the others slept in the same room, and Yusuke watched the stars

dance in the sky, as rain poured like waterfalls. He turned when he heard a

noise.

Hiei had pressed his pillow to his face. At first he thought Hiei was having a

bad dream or something, but then he noticed, how hard he was pressing it to his

face.

He was trying to smother himself.

Yusuke launched out of bed crashing to the ground painfully, his strength not

fully returned. "NO!" He managed to get to Hiei and ripped the pillow away,

spilling the feathers everywhere. Hiei had gems pouring down his face. "Why'd

you stop me?"

Yusuke starred at his friend. Hiei was strong. Mysteries and brave. Noble, and

fierce like a howling wind. No one could touch him, he was the unbreakable.

And here he was, laying broken.

Yusuke collapsed on him, and began to sob.

"Hiei don't you remember all you did for us? You kept us going on. You made us

strong we were weak! You kept us going never stopping. We did everything thanks

to you. You reminded us what we were. WE WERE A TEAM! HOW COULD YOU DESERT US!"

Yusuke crushed him self to Hiei arms encircling him. "I'm dying every time I

look at all of you. Hiei I can't make it if we all die. I can't make it if any

of you die." Yusuke looked into Hiei's eyes.

Hiei looked back and saw the truth in his eyes. Yusuke was dying, and the only

way to save him was to get better. To get back to normal. Hiei stopped crying

and punched Yusuke knocking him to the ground. "Get off me detective. Goto

sleep."

Hiei turned over feeling Yusuke's eyes on him. "I'll be here in the morning."

Yusuke embraced Hiei again, and Hiei growled, "If you don't stop doing this

mushy sh*t I'll get you with my Dragon Of The Darkness Flame. So get off!" Hiei

shrugged Yusuke off.

Yusuke was beaming and he wiped his eyes.

"You better be here."

"I don't lie. Goto sleep...little f*cker."

"My...nice mouth!"

"We'll see what kind of entrails you have if you don't shut up!"

~next morning~

Genkai brought them lunch again, and she saw a completely different look in

Hiei's eyes. He looked as if he was changed. As if he was back to normal.

Genkai looked over at Yusuke. Though he was well, and walking around, Yusuke

looked as if he was deteriorating.

It was as if he was still ill, though Genkai had done checkups on him

repeatedly. He was perfectly fit, healthy. But he was dying. It didn't make

since.

She placed their breakfast in front of them. Kuwabara was out, Yukina rolling

him around outside. She was giving him exorcises, trying to get his legs in

shape. But there were no more accomplishments.

Genkai watched as they ate. Kurama drank his water, and two spoonfuls of cereal.

He put the spoon down and Genkai grabbed him roughly. "Kurama, your eating all of it." Kurama looked at her with his dead eyes, and his face appeared angry.

Genkai was about to yell at him, when Yukina came in.

"I'm sorry! I was...I was trying to help Kuwabara do more exorcises, I thought

if I could get him to crawl around he'd get his strength back...but...but he

fainted!"

Genkai jumped up, "Sh*t."

She rushed off with Yukina, and Kurama watched them go. He had satisfactory face on, and began to get up. Both Hiei and Yusuke grabbed him and pulled him

roughly down.

"Your eating." Hiei said sternly.

Yusuke nodded. "If you don't eat, I'll kick my foot so far up your a*s..."

Kurama glared at them both and tried to get away. Hiei held him down while

Yusuke took Kurama's food.

He held the bowl and scooped up some cereal and tried force it in Kurama's

mouth. Kurama had his mouth closed tight, and the food smeared on his face.

Yusuke. He tried again, the food going in his hair, smearing on his mouth, the

sugary milk making his face sticky.

They managed to get a spoonful of food in his mouth and he let out a howl. A

howl so heart breaking, Hiei let him go. Kurama shot up, and in a hoarse

whisper said, "Why? I want to die. I want to die. Let me die."

Hiei grabbed his shoulders. "You can't die! You can't leave us!" Kurama shot

accusing eyes at him. "You tried! How dare you tell me not to?!" Hiei looked

guiltily at Kurama.

"I made a mistake. Kurama we promised not to let that ordeal change us. And

here we are rolling over like idiots."

Kurama had tears streaming down his pale sunken face. "I am going to die. I am

weak. So *I* will die!" Kurama pulled himself away.

"Then I'll die too." Kurama turned his head to look at Yusuke who sat with his

head in his chest. "I'm sure your smart enough to feel my spirit fading, my

soul cracking, and my spirit energy waning." Yusuke looked up at him. His eyes

equally as dead as Kurama's.

"I have no will to live if any of you die."

Kurama bent down and crying shook Yusuke. "You lie! YOU LIAR! YOU WILL LIVE

WITHOUT ME!" "No we won't" Kurama snapped his head over to Hiei. His eyes

filled with emotions he never showed. "I won't. I'm not letting you die alone."

Hiei pulled out a knife he snatched from the kitchen when Genkai wasn't

looking. "Go ahead Kurama. Lets all die together." A twisted smile covered his

face. "I'll slit my throat then Yusuke. You can go first if you want."

Kurama's eyes went wide. "No...shut up."

Hiei pressed the blade to his neck. Gems falling down his face. "What am I

without you!? NOTHING!" Hiei pressed it so he was drawing blood. "I have faith

in you, and if your the Kurama I know, you will stop me." Hiei was about to

push the blade in deeper, when Kurama grabbed his wrist.

The blade lay forgotten on the floor. "No." Kurama whispered. He crushed

Yusuke and Hiei in a bear hug and sobbed. His eyes were filled with sadness,

and pain but they were shining. They weren't dead anymore.

"I don't want to die!" Kurama sobbed.

Yusuke hugged him,"We've got a lot to live for. Each other, our friends, or

family." Kurama sobbed thinking of his own mother. He wiped his eyes, and began

to eat what remained of his breakfast.

Genkai and Yukina were back in, wheeling the unconscious Kuwabara to a room

where they could work on him. Genkai stopped, and starred at Kurama. He was

eating. Genkai's old face looked young as she smiled. "Everything's going back

to normal."

~*~*~*next day~*~*~*

Kurama's color and beauty had returned. He was eating, and his green eyes

sparkled like they used to. Genkai came in and brought them food. "Genkai,

where is Kuwabara?" Kurama asked politely as if nothing changed. She looked at

them all and whispered, "Kuwabara still hasn't fully recovered from the ordeal

of the burns. He lost a lot of blood, and if overworks he gets tired."

She smiled slightly, "He will never walk again, but within a few days he'll be

the same Kuwabara."

Hiei and Kurama looked over at Yusuke, who was starring at the floor. Tears

fell in his soup. "That's the worse new a fighter could ever receive...Kuwabara

won't be able to fight again if he can't walk...He won't be able to fight."

Yusuke looked up, his face tired, and old.

"I don't think...me and him...will make it." Kurama and Hiei looked at him, and

Kurama said gently. "You helped us. We will find a way to help Kuwabara.

In Kuwabara's room he heard every word that they were saying. He felt angry for

unable to move. Unable to walk. He had feeling in his hand, which was good

news. He felt tears spill down his eyes.

Yukina came in and saw his tears,"Kazuma-kun? Are you okay?" Kuwabara cried

into his pillow, and muttered into it, "Yusuke's sick..."

"What?"

"HE'S SICK! HE'S GONNA DIE! YUSUKE'S SICK!" Kuwabara screamed hitting the bed,

and sobbing loudly. Yukina paled, and ran out of the room calling Genkai's

name.

Yusuke watched as Genkai and Yukina rushed to a room, where he could hear the

screaming Kuwabara. "What's happening! TELL ME!" Kurama and Hiei had gotten up.

They all were pale, and Kurama was shaking.

Yusuke heard Kuwabara say his name, and he went to move when Yukina stopped

him. "Stop...let us handle this...he wouldn't want you to see him this way."

Yusuke watched her go and fell down crying. After an hour Genkai came back. She

looked at Yusuke and said gently, "Kuwabara wants to see you." Hiei and Kurama

helped Yusuke up, for it seemed he'd forgotten how to stand.

He walked slowly past her, and went where Yukina was standing. Tears in her

eyes, she pointed to the door where Kuwabara was in. Yusuke went inside and saw

Kuwabara propped up by pillows.

His lips were cracked, and seemed a pale purple. His hair was tangled, his face

was tear stained, and bags lay heavily under his eyes. Yusuke was about to

approach him when Kuwabara whispered, "Stay there."

Silence.

Kuwabara turned to look at him. "If I walk...will you be healthy again?" Yusuke

stood there unable to respond. Kuwabara rolled over, and placed his legs on the

floor. He grabbed a hold of the desk that held a lamp.

His legs shook, and they turned red, Yusuke's eyes widened and Kuwabara

released his death grip on the desk.

He didn't stand completely upright, his whole body trembled, but he was

standing. He took one step and then two, and then three. Yusuke was pale and

starred at him tears overflowing. Kuwabara took a fourth step and fell on the

floor.

Blood appeared on the wooden floor.

"KUWABARA!" Yusuke rushed to him, and kneeled down. "Its okay...I bit my

tongue." Kuwabara laughed softly. "I walked...I can do it...so get healthy

please...please don't die."

Yusuke broke down and pulled Kuwabara in his arms kissing his pale brow over

and over again. (you can take that as non-yaoi or yaoi I dun care which) "I

will. I will!"

Everyone stood in the doorway.

"He walked?" Hiei said catching his breath.

Kuwabara tiredly looked over at him, "I walked...and now...I'm going to kick

your butt shorty." The entire group smiled. This was the first time Kuwabara

hadn't whimpered, when they spoke to him.

"I doubt that human."

"Oh I Will..." Kuwabara opened his eyes to say more, but he went limp. Yukina

stepped forward, "Its okay." Yusuke said and looked over at her. "He's just

sleeping." Yusuke smiled widely, "He's okay."

*one month later*

Yusuke helped Kuwabara walk up the stairs. He had crutches now, and was able to

walk a short distance a few times a day. But he still had to use crutches.

Which were better than wheel chairs.

Kurama appeared behind him, looking just like his normal self. His eyes

sometimes went soulless, but in the end, he always came back. "Hello Kuwabara."

"Yo!"

"Hey Kurama."

Yusuke smiled at him. "He's getting faster, that's good." He poked Kuwabara's

waist, and said "You were starting to get fat." Kuwabara tripped Yusuke with

his crutches, and Yusuke hit the ground.

Both Kurama and Kuwabara burst out with laughter. Yusuke snorted, and got back

up. He lightly punched Kuwabara who suddenly hissed. "Watch were you hit!"

Yusuke looked guilty and lifted up Kuwabara's shirt a bit. You could still see

the branded word 'Kira' on his chest."I'm sorry...I forgot." "S'okay Urameshi."

Kurama looked at it as well and asked, "Does it hurt often?"

Kuwabara's eyes darkened, "Every time."

"Fool, are you what's keeping the other so late?" Hiei stood at the top of the

stairway. "I'LL MAKE YOU SHUT UP SHRIMP!" Hiei smirked, and walked off. At the

top of the stairs they saw a picnic laid out near Genkai's.

This time it was much larger. Koenma, Boeton, Yukina, Genkai, and Hiei. They

waved at them to come over and Kurama went to join them. Yusuke walked on and

stopped noticing Kuwabara wasn't following.

"Kuwabara?"

Kuwabara dropped his crutches standing on shaky legs. He smiled weakly. "I'd

like to walk there."

On shaky legs, he took baby steps towards his friends, Yusuke walked next to

him to make sure he got there. He made it, and collapsed, Kurama, Hiei and

Yusuke catching him.

Koenma looked at them gently, 'Though this ordeal was hard for them, they have

now grown closer. Nothing will tear them apart now. ' Yusuke waved a hand in

front of Koenma's face."Hello!? Are you gonna eat or not?"

Koenma nodded and picked up a slice of pie, and watched his team, as they were

once again, whole.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well thats all. I'd like to say that this has been real fun. An I never thought

I'd get 90 reviews for my 'Three Tests' story. Wow! Thanks fore reading. I have

another long fic coming up called 'War'. That should be up around next month if

I can. But I got a bunch of x-rays coming up so we'll see, till next time,

~Kazima