All right, first things first...
DISCLAIMER: i do not own maximum ride, or any other characters. I also do not own "I'll be there for you" by "Bon Jovi"
and the different types of text - Normal - Max thinking – Angel - The voice - Music
Max P.O.V
I stormed outside and slammed the front door. How could I have let this happen? Fang was really going to do it!! He was leaving us, leaving the flock, leaving ME!!! How could he? Doesn't he know how much we need him? Who will Iggy ask about girls and…and…other stuff that boys talk about? Nudge adores him, what will happen when her hero just isn't there in the morning? Gazzy needs him too; he talks to him bout stuff he doesn't understand. And poor Angel…he's like a dad to her, how will she cope?!? AND ME!!! I need him so much, he's like life to me, the amount of times he's saved me, made me laugh, helped me through the hard times. Last time he left I felt like half of me was missing, what'll happen this time. No he can't go, he can't go!!! I won't let him. I took the ipod out of my pocket. We decided to buy one at a random store when we stopped in Montana, just because we could; and Angel and Nudge gave me the bambi eyes. So now we have an ipod, one shared between six of us. It's a good job we don't argue about music, even though we listen to different types. Fang and I prefer rock/metal/punk etc, Angel and Nudge listen to R n B etc, Iggy likes Jazz and Gazzy likes anything. I flicked through the artists menu and decided to listen to Bon Jovi. The music started and I flew up to sit on the roof and listen to the song.
I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide
"Please don't," I whispered, the sound being carried away with the wind. A lone tear slid down my cheek, and dripped off my chin on to the roof.
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
Except Fang doesn't cry. He doesn't laugh. Hell!! He doesn't even smile. He hasn't for a while. How am I going to get through to him? Oh my god, this is just too much for me to cope with right now. I barely know why he's leaving. Dammit!! Did I do something wrong?
Flashback
"I mean, one minute it's in my hand and then it isn't, and I'm like, oh my god, where'd it go, but then Iggy's like, "It's alive", and I'm like thinking, 'Is it even possible for it to be alive?' I mean it's a chocolate bar; it can't be alive can it! So I'm like "Iggy it can't be alive, that would just be stupid." Then I realise he's just having a joke and I'm like soooo embarrassed, I mean how stupid can I get, I think that's the stupidest I've ever been in, like, forever, my entire life, unless you count the time th…mpff"
Iggy covered Nudge's mouth with his hand, a grimace of pain on his face.
"Ig, what's wrong?" Fang asked
"Did she bite you? She bit me last time I did that," Gazzy piped up.
"Well partly because she's just bit me, but ears are KILLING me." He shot a reproachful look at Nudge.
We all laughed at that and Iggy took his hand off Nudge's mouth, keeping it near just in case she started rambling again. We were lucky, she didn't.
"So does anybody know the reason for that particular rant or was Nudge just bored again?" asked Gazzy.
I looked at Nudge but Nudge just stared back, looking as though she was trying really hard to not say anything. "I think Nudge was just bored again"
That earned another round of laughter from the Flock. Well almost, Fang, once again, stayed quiet. Maybe he was thinking.
Angel? Can you tell me what Fang's thinking about?
Erm, I thought you said I wasn't allowed to read anyone's mind, in the Flock, especially not tell anyone about it.
You're allowed to as long as someone's asked, and as long as it's for a good cause.
Is this for a good cause Max?
For crying out loud!! Yes Angel it is, just tell me please.
Okay, hang on a sec………I don't think I got all of it and he cut me out, but he wants to talk to you.
And sure enough, right on cue…
"Max, can I talk to you? Please, it's urgent"
I looked up at Fang, to Angel, the rest of the flock, and finally nodded. I rose out of the chair and followed Fang into the one bedroom in the scummy motel we were temporarily staying in.
Fang turned to look at me, his face was completely blank of all emotions, as were his eyes.
"Max, I'm leaving"
Way to make it obvious. I blinked back the tears in my eyes. I looked down at the rug, filthy and tattered, lying on the carpeted floor.
"Why?" I tried to make my voice sound like it should, a leaders voice, but instead it came out as a croak, in a whisper.
"I can't explain it, I just need to go. I can't stay here any longer."
His voice didn't change at all, soft but emotionless.
"If it's the motel we can leave you know," I said, trying so hard not to cry.
He let out a harsh chuckle.
"It's not the motel Max"
"Then what is it?"
"I've already said," he turned around searching for his backpack, "I can't tell you"
He found his bag and started going through it to see what he needed, signalling the end of the "conversation".
End Flashback
Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl
'Cept this is Fang and not a girl…and I'm not sure whether or not I believe in god. I drew my knees up to my chest, crossed my arms over my knees and rested my chin on my hands, singing under my breath:
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
I glanced down at my watch, 12:01, it was yesterday that we had that argument.
"Oh Fang," a few more tears made their way down my face. WAIT!! What is wrong with me?! I am Maximum Ride, indestructible, strong, fearless, I never cry, what is WRONG with me!!
Max, you know what's wrong. The person who you have loved for almost your entire life, who you love more than anything, has just told you that he's leaving you. Of course you're going to be upset. Even you need a break once in a while. Let it all out Max.
Why thank you voice, but I don't recall asking for you're help. Get lost.
I clenched my fists in frustration, took a few deep breaths and calmed down, stopped crying and carried on listening to the song. Trying not to scream out in anger and misery, trying to ignore the non-existent beating of my broken, battered heart.
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
Ha-ha, don't make laugh, like THAT would EVER happen. I drew my knees in closer to me, curling my body up tighter, shivering in the wind.
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I thought about this verse as it played. At least ONE bit of the song was wrong, I WAS there when he was happy, I WAS there when he was down, I DIDN'T miss his birthday and I DID see him blow the candles out so I don't need to wish for it.
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
"But you won't let me," I whispered into the empty night.
I sat on the roof listening to the song over and over and over again, until I had shed all my tears ( I gave up trying to stay strong after the second time of listening to it). I slowly stood up, stretching my muscles, and jumped off the roof, landing perfectly. I walked to the door, slowly eased it open and walked inside.
A/N : Please review, is my first songfic, is my first fanfic actually. will appreciate it LOADS. erm even if u say that it's crap and i can't spell...and i need to get a decent imagination...or summat. ) Oh and sorry if it was too long/not long enough )
