"MOVING ON/ Meant To Live/ Dare You To Move"
Mucho kudos/ thanks to Zan for beta- ing.
Description: A Series of Jommy Songfics.
Setting: Directly after "My Hometown".
Oops: I don't own "Save You" by Simple Plan nor do I own "IS" by The- N. :-D
Chapter 1: "Save You"
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Tommy, you don't know how hard it is to do this. To walk out, while you sit bloody in that jail cell. To watch you so helpless, feeling like no one will save you.
I know that you feel like no one is going to save you. I know that in your life, no one ever has. Not your Mom, not Darius, not Portia; maybe Angie would have… but I have no way to know about that.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
Tommy, I want to save you. I want to be your constant. I don't think that you know what consistency is. You've spent your whole life in a craze and you've never had a constant. I want to be your constant.
I know that I started to leave you and that you closed the doors, but I'll never 100- percent leave you.
Always remember that. Always.
When I hear your voice
It's drowning in a whisper
It's just skins and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
Your voice wallows deeply in misery. The usual voice that always sounds a bit too high for "regular males" now sounds like it's coming deep from your throat. You don't seem like a boybander that Sadie always played on her radio, while I swore that you were all gay.
There's none of that in your voice anymore. You have a 5 o'clock shadow that looks more like a 12 o'clock shadow. You look like you haven't eaten in days; like beer has been your only sustenance.
I didn't want to give up on you, but you made it so difficult. You didn't make it easy. I wish that you would have tried harder. I guess that you couldn't…
I wish that you could help me understand.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to knowI wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When we first got together, I swore that I would be with you through thick and the thin. I swore that I would be okay with your past and who you really are. I am. You should know that. I wish that you would accept that I am okay with it.
Can you accept it?
Have you really not been accepted for who you are once in your life?
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you
Tommy, I know that no one has ever picked you up before.
You came to us a mess, then Sadie cleaned you up, love you, and treated you like a prince. Sometimes, that's all a person needs. Because when you came to me, that's all that you gave me.
Until your trust issues came up.
And I don't care what they are, as long as you give me respect, and give a chance at trust. I don't expect you to trust me at first. I want you to learn to trust me.
I'll gain your trust.
(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
I'd do anything Tommy.
Anything to take away your pain. To make you feel better.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
Tommy, there are so many conversations that we haven't had yet.
I wont give up till it's over
I won't let you go until we've had them all.
If it takes you forever I want you to know
There will never be enough time for us to have them all.
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know that someone will be there to rescue you for once.
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
If you let me, that person, that girl, could be me.
I wish I could save you (oh)
I will, Tommy. I'll save you.
