Before I even opened my eyes I felt like my head was an anchor that had sunk right into my bed. And not in a good way. As I slowly opened my eyes, everything that happened between Karma and I came rushing back to me and suddenly I felt like death. There was not a single part of me that wanted to get up because not only had I confessed to my best friend that I was in love with her, but she didn't love me back. The tears started flooding in my eyes and I quickly turned over when I saw a blur of a person next to me. This was when I realised I had nothing on but a blanket. I blinked a few times to clear my vision when I realised it was a guy. Not just any guy. Liam. I no longer felt like I had been shot in the chest once, but now twice. After what happened with Karma I couldn't remember much else apart from talking to Lauren, and this was probably the worst thing I could have done.
The good thing was that I was in my room, meaning no walk of shame in yesterday's clothes. The bad thing was that I had to sneak Liam out. I searched in the bin both hoping and dreading to find a condom wrapper. If I found one, it meant something definitely happened which is bad. If I didn't find one, there's still a possibility that something happened, but that also means I could be in a lot of trouble. I couldn't find anything. Liam started to wake up and that was my cue to find some clothes. I quickly covered myself with my dress that was on the floor when Liam looked directly at me with the same look on his face that I probably wore five minutes ago.
"Amy"
"I'm just as confused as you are" I tried to reassure him, but I was hoping he was a bit more sober than I was last night.
"What the fuck happened?"
"I was hoping you'd know" I said. This was when it hit me that even though I used the dress to cover myself, I was still very much naked. "Um, would you mind just looking away for a moment while I find some new clothes?"
"Uh yeah, I'll change under the covers". This could not be a more awkward situation, but I needed answers. I found a baggy t-shirt and some clean underwear and sat myself on the bed, looking at Liam face on.
"Do you remember anything?" I asked. "I mean, did we…?"
"I have no idea. I hope not" I was kind of offended at that, but remembered the situation we're in.
"Hey! - I mean, yeah me too"
"Is your mum home? Just because am I gonna have to sneak out of your window or anything?"
"Uh, I'll have to check, but did you by any chance have a condom in your wallet? Just because if we did anything, I'd like to know that we were at least safe because I know I don't have any in my room"
"No… I'm sorry, Amy"
"Shit! Well I'll still have to go to the doctor's anyways, just in case anything happened"
"Do you want me to come with you?"
"No. Nooooo. Thank you though". At least I could count on him I guess. He's a good guy. But ugh fuck, Karma.
"Don't say anything to Karma" we said at the same time.
"I'll just go out the window. Good luck… at the doctor's I mean". Liam started to get up, and looked sceptically out the window.
"K" I said as he jumped. I quickly checked to see if he was ok. After all, he did offer to come with me to the doctors. I slowly sat down on my bed to give me time to think. Karma's face kept flashing in my head when she said she didn't love me like that. I felt that pain in my chest again.
I considered talking to Lauren about what happened. Seeing if she knew anything, and if she'd come with me. I really didn't want to go alone, but there was no way I could tell my mum. I knew that I had to do it, after all we're technically sister's now. As horrible as that is. I got myself ready as quickly as I could, and slowly knocked on Lauren's door.
"Yeah?" I heard through the door. It didn't sound angry for once, which was comforting.
"It's me, Amy. Can I come in? I need to talk to you"
"Sure" This time she didn't sound as welcoming, but I still entered - with caution. I closed the door quietly and walked over to Lauren's bed.
"Um, there was this guy in my bed and I don't know if something happened or not. I was hoping you could come to the doctor's with me if that's ok with you. I need to get the morning after pill in case anything happened"
"No fucking way! Who was it!? Is he still here?"
"No, he left. And it doesn't matter. Could you… please?"
"Fine. But I'm expecting some more information on the way there"
It was the most gruelling car journey to the doctor's, but I felt a bit better after getting the pills. At least I know that if anything did happen, that I'm not gonna end up getting pregnant. Once it all happened, Karma popped up in my mind again, and so did the pain in my chest. I had to tell her. If anything, this makes us even after she broke my heart. I was just afraid that I may have broken hers too.
