I DO NOT OWN INUYAHSA

Ops, wrong story. Thanks for pointing that out. Now all fixed. ^_^

I started this story about a month ago, but even now, I am still not able to finish it. This story was meant to be a one shot, but now, over 3000 words and still keep on going, so I decide to publish the first half first. Review please.

Just a side note, this story is set in the old days where women could get marry as young as thirteen and eighteen is already considering old for not married. ^^

Ps. For Love Lust Attraction, I gave up on writing it for a while because any time I reached the battle scene, I just couldn't write. Just letting you guys know not to wait.


It was a wedding kimono, yet she felt no happiness. The write and pure kimono felt dirty on her. Her lips painted the color of red, her yes painted dark. Her hairs were neatly pulled up. But she could not smile.

Because it wasn't him.

But she had waited for so long. She felt exhausted.

Nine years.

Nine long years that he had disappeared on her. She was only fourteen then, and she was now turning twenty three. She had stayed a spinster, and had long become an old maid. It wasn't that she cared about the labels, but she felt exhausted.

He would not come back. He had disappeared for nearly half of her life, and she was too tired to think that he would return.

She had waited for him. Every day she would tell herself, 'He might come today'. But by the end of the day, she found herself alone, surrounded by darkness. But she told herself, 'he could come back tomorrow,' so she waited again. Even in her sleep, she waited because he could come at any moment.

But by the end of another day, it always ended the same.

She was surrounded by emptiness.

Loneliness.

Despaired.

She heard and felt her heart breaks over and over until it shattered into powders. But she refused to give up. With what little hopes she held, her trusts and faiths in him, she mended her shatter heart and waited for him, only to be broken all over again.

She had waited for days, than slowly months had passed, and before she knew it a year had already circled around. One year turned into two, then three, and then nine torturous years had passed by. Nine years of everyday waking up with hope only to be left in agony each night.

She was tired.

Too tired to wait another day for him to return. To carry on that hopeless hope that shattered before her eyes each and every day.

It was easier to believe that he would not come back at all and move on.

She could not bear to live with the pains anymore.

Often, she looked around the villagers and saw what her life could have been. The women her age were already having many children. Some of the children were as old as nine.

Even Sango's twin daughters had already been married and had their own family. Yet, here Rin was, all alone.

It was not because she yearned to be with someone. She had always been alone before Sesshoamru came into her life. But she could not bear to see another sunset without him again. She could not bear the pains when her fragile heart would break because of the cruel fact that he had abandoned her. That he would never return. Even if she knew so, she would still wait for him. Waiting for him had become her life.

It had been nine long excruciating years.

She looked at the man before her. A handsome widow who was in his early thirties. He had lost his wife two years ago and finally asked Rin to marry him. He was a good man, she knew for a fact. She had seen him around the village for quit some years. But even so, she did not love him.

She wasn't sure if she could ever love him.

Standing in front of him, he smiled at her, yet all she wanted to do was cry. Not that she would cry. She had not cried even once for such a long time, not even when she was at her weakest and loneliest moments. But still, she did not know if she could stay married to this man. The man that she could never come to love.

Love like she loved Sesshomaru.

She was now standing side by side with him. It was time for her to take the vows. After this she could no longer wait for Sesshomaru.

She would have to move on with her life.

She would have her own family to take care.

She might even have children of her own.

Yet, she was not happy.

She didn't know if she would ever be happy.

Because the bridegroom wasn't Sesshomaru.


It was a wedding ceremony, but it wasn't just any wedding ceremony.

It was Rin's.

Sesshomaru was standing at the edge of the forest silently watching the human woman who was once but a child. Who had been traveling beside him until she was eight.

She was about to get married.

She would forever be another man's and Sesshomaru would not have the right to lay even a finger on her.

Yes, it had been years since he had last visited, he knew.

And… she was choosing to leave him…

…it felt unreal.

But she had always had a choice, he had told her. She chose to stay, so be it.

Even though he wanted so badly to walk into the wedding ceremony and carried her off with him, but he would not. It was her choice.

He would not blame her even thought his chest was burning with so much unbearable pains, his mind was screaming "betrayal" over and over.

He knew he had left her to wait for nine years. It must've been hard on her. She was but a human after all; the same as her kinds.

Humans are weak.

They are weak against emotions.

She must have changed her mind along the way because of loneliness. Humans cannot bear to be alone. Unlike him, a dog demon lord who would not faze whether he was alone or not. In fact, he preferred fewer companies.

So be it!

His heart was clenching and crushing at the thought that a mere human would run his hands all over her. That man would be the closest man to Rin.

His Rin…

He felt angry, the wildly burning pains inside his chest increased, almost forced him to walk out and take the man's life.

But he restrained himself… for her.

She was only human, he reminded himself again as he watched from the distance. Because if it were him, he would wait. Forever if he had to. He was not so weak that he would turn away from her after only a few years apart.

He would wait.

He would.

Even if it were centuries, he would still be waiting for her. Because to him, it could not just anyone. No one else but her.

He wanted to turn around and walk away, but he could not.

His feet were root to the spot; he had no strength to leave.

Somehow he still wasn't entirely registered the scene before him.

He stayed hidden, watching as if doing so the reality would change. As if it would become a lie. A dream. And Rin would still be waiting for him.

So he waited. Or maybe because the pains were too great for him to move? It didn't matter.

He watched as the man held onto her hand. He wanted to chop those hands off.

Betrayer!

It's her choice!

It's for her!

For her happiness!

She betrays him!

The couple was starting to take their vows.


I will continue when I am done with the second Chapter, but since it took me a month to only got this far, don't expect the update anytime soon. Review please. ^^

April 22, 2013