If This Was a Movie

The clap of thunder and the flash of lightning woke Logan up from his nightmare. The one he's been having every night for the past two weeks. The one where he locked you out of the house, screaming at you that it was over. Finished. Choking out sobs, Logan clutched onto your pillow like it was going to disappear forever. It was the only thing he had left of you. Logan would do anything to just see you, your smile and hear your laugh. You were his everything. He didn't realize that until you really left. You didn't want to, but you thought it was for the best. Logan barely registers the steps he's taking before he realizes he's standing in the kitchen. Noticing a pad of paper and a pen sitting on the counter from his earlier writing session, Logan sits down and begins to write to you.

"Dear (Y/N),

Please come back to me. Please. I don't know what to do without you in my life. Every night, every fucking day, I have this aching pain in my chest, because you filled that hole. And now it's like a giant open wound and I can't fix it. What we had together meant so much to me, you didn't even realize it. And I know that you cheated on me, and I shouldn't take you back. But I can't help myself. Because I can't live without you. I go around, literally everywhere, and put on this fake smile to show people that I look like I'm okay. When in reality, I'm dying inside (y/n). Don't you get that? I miss you. I miss your beautiful smile and the way it glowed in the sun. I miss your adorable laugh, I loved hearing it when we would get into our tickle fights. I miss making love to you. I never felt closer to you than our first time together. I miss cuddling with you while we watch scary movies and you would get so scared that you would clench onto my hand so hard, I thought you broke it. Sorry for the tear stains by the way.. Just please (y/n), hear me out when I say that I do know what love is. It's that feeling you get in your heart when you think of that certain person. It's not wanting to fall asleep because you want to be with that person 24/7. It's wanting to be so close to each other and missing each other 5 minutes after one leaves. It's the strongest emotion anyone could feel, and I felt it with you. Not a day goes by where I don't think about you, that I don't wish you were here or that I don't need you. Ever since I met you for the first time, something inside of me snapped, and you're all I see, you're the one my heart is set on and I just wish it could be you and me. I'm falling head over heels for you. If this was a movie, you'd already be here right now, waiting on my front porch like you always did; rain or shine. People change, but this wasn't supposed to happen to us (y/n). I shouldn't have to be writing this stupid letter because you should be here with me. But you won't come back, I'm not stupid. So this is goodbye (y/n), but just remember.. that I love you.

Logan"

Logan addressed the envelope to you, putting it in his mailbox and dropped his face in his hands and let out the most heart-wrenching sob. His entire body shaking, he made his way back to his bedroom. He sat down on the edge of the bed, reaching underneath. Staring at his hands, he knew what he had to do. Without you, Logan had nothing to live for. Nothing to give himself happiness. I'm sorry (y/n), he whispered quietly as his hands shook uncontrollably.

And with that, Logan pulled the trigger.