A/N: Just a little something in Memoriam to Lelouch. I mainly wrote it to get all my sadness out. This is dedicated to Karen. Thanks for crying with me!

DISCLAIMER: It's Sunrise's stuff, not mine.


Suzaku sat in his room, his back against the wall. His head hung low so that his hair covered his eyes, hiding the emotion that he knew they showed.

"You'll continue to wear the mask as an ally of justice…"

Suzaku felt the lump in his throat growing. He picked up the mask, touching the blood-stained imprint of Lelouch's hand on the side of it.

"I accept that 'Geass'…"

Suzaku had accepted Lelouch's demands. But…now…

A single tear fell down Suzaku's cheek.

He thrust the sword out of Suzaku, letting him fall forward, down to Nunally.

How badly he had wanted to catch him, to hold him, to tell him how much he needed him. To take back everything, and just live. But he knew that that was an impossible feat.

Lelouch had wanted him to stay behind, so he had...but that didn't make it any less painful.

Another tear fell from Suzaku's eyes, followed by another.

He hated it…he hated remembering. It had torn him apart to take Lelouch's life. And now he was being forced to bury those emotions for the sake of the world.

A sob choked its way up from Suzaku's throat. He held the mask to his chest, crying for the first time since Lelouch's death.

"Fuck the world!" He screamed, throwing the mask across the room. "I don't want this anymore! I don't want it! Lelouch, you bastard! How can you expect me to stay here all alone?! Fuck!"

Suzaku fell forward onto all fours, his tears dripping onto the floor below him. He took deep breaths, trying to calm himself and his rapidly beating heart.

"Lelouch…" he choked out, scraping his nails into the hardwood floor. "Lelouch..."


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