My Secret Unrequited Love

Author's Note: Got inspired to write this after 707's call on Day 10 of Jumin's route. I believe that many would also feel the same and wanting to go on his route to comfort him T.T

I do not own these lovely characters from Mystic Messenger! ~


On your big day, I watched you walk down the red carpet with Jumin. Your look in the wedding dress was simply a sight to behold. I guess I can now finally understand why people say that women would look their most beautiful on her wedding day.

You were just as radiant as the sun – so radiant and bright that I felt that someone living on the dark side like me could not bear to reach out to you, in fears of tainting you.

I put on my best face as a façade, to congratulate you both on your happiness.

I loved looking at you smile. This may have been for the best. I had no confidence as a man to protect you, and love you. Jumin, that emotionless robot might be a 1000 times better than someone like me.

But kept deep in my heart, was my heartfelt emotions that I have kept hidden for a long time.


I had feelings for you.


Ever since u intruded the RFA chatroom, I was responsible for watching your safety through the CCTV cameras installed in Rika's apartment. I have been observing you from afar since Day 1. Gradually, I found you and your actions to be really cute – especially when you start fidgeting your phone to reply emails and making calls. When you start dialling a call, I always look at my phone to see if you would call me. But I can guess the answer without you telling me.


It was Jumin who was on your mind.


I enjoyed my time chatting with you. You seemed to bring life to the almost-dead RFA chatroom, ever since Rika's passing. The others also had the same opinion of you as well. It has been a while since I felt that someone else who wasn't Rika, could understand the true me. I made a lot of small jokes to attract your attention, but perhaps you did not take it seriously since I usually am acting as the "Joker" in the chatroom. I wasn't lying when I asked you if you wanted to date me, and if you'd like the idea of getting married in the space station with me. It may sound like too much of a fantasy, but I truly want to believe in a love that is "out of this world".

But maybe because of the fact that you could sympathize with Jumin, but your words seemed to side with his opinions more. I often wish you would turn your attention towards me.

I envied Zen who was so worried for you when we all heard that Jumin had "imprisoned" you. I had the same feelings as well but I could never express it the way he did. Please believe me. It was to the extent that I wanted to go over and give Jumin a piece of my mind. Even I had felt that he was simply going too far.

You were just being the kind and understanding soul you are, accommodating Jumin and being by his side to support him emotionally and giving him all the time that he needs. You kept consoling us that you were fine, and Jumin was treating you well.

I felt that Jumin was being so selfish that I wanted to kidnap you from him.


But I had to set my priorities straight.


The hacker was still at large, and I felt that I was responsible…for protecting you, and the RFA. I was spending sleepless nights trying to find out about the hacker. I managed to trace the source, and the thought of protecting you was my main motivation for keeping me awake and working through the nights.

Haha…I always feel that I suit the role better of being a ninja who protects you from the shadows.

I know Jumin can be a great knight in shining armor for you, I'm sure of it.


As long as it brings you happiness, I, the great 707, defender of justice will do my very best to protect you.


I often have to lament my life being a hacker and secret agent. I often hypnotise myself to believe that I didn't have a choice. Working from the shadows, I felt that I do not have the right to go near you. At the very least, I wanted to protect you from harm or help you achieve the happiness that you deserve.

I remember you calling me a day before the RFA party. I was feeling depressed and I just wanted to cry out loud. I regret showing you my emotional side. I am sorry if I had made you worry, but I truly meant what I said. I wished you would care for me like the way you cared for Jumin. I had a lot of things that I wanted to tell you. I really wanted to pour my heart out, but I didn't want to implicate you in my personal matters. Deep in my heart, I yearn for you to be right beside me. I wanted you to give a tight hug and give me the comfort that my heart needed.


But you weren't there.


I tried to forget while lying down on my bed, but I felt cold tears running down on my cheeks. Eating the stomachs of the fish-shaped breads that I bought didn't help as much as I had expected. Instead, I felt even more sorry for the bread crumbs that was wasted…

If there was even a 0.0000000000000001% chance of me being with you, I would want to hold you tight and never let go. Who knows? Maybe it would happen in a parallel universe, time-slip or in an imaginary world. I would want to tell you everything about me, the past and the present. My greatest wish is for you to stay right beside me. I want to keep telling you those three words that I had always wanted to say in front of you.


"I love you".