Smoke

Your lips don't taste bitter to me anymore not like the ashtray they were when I first kissed you fumbling for some feeling under a sky so black it felt to me like dark chocolate like my own dead soul.

I stare at you watching as smoke of your faithful cigarette wafts up into the sky the blinking blue lights flash and shatter on the glass that is your eyes for now.

You're always still like cool water you temper my restless movements you are my rock and if I ever said that out loud you would laugh at me.

That mocking laughter would destroy me I know I could never ever take it and so I don't say what I feel.

I wish I could be that naked with you…but I can't forgive me…

So I say it when I touch you when I whisper your name as you're waking up.

Sweetness

When you crash into my life things go wrong so very wrong there is always cops and blood, crying…

I wouldn't give it up to save my life, not to save anyone's life.

It's always like drowning in sweet rich chocolate I give up everything that is me to make sure you don't leave again.

When you are not around there is no me I know how sad that sounds my whole life built about you but I don't care I don't care…..

Because I know what you need I know what you want…and your number one to me number one number two….and every other number.

I would tell you how I feel but I know you would never understand my proud warrior angel you don't need me like I need you.

So I say what I feel when I touch you when I whisper your name as you're waking up.